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BlueAlpha1
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Let me preface by asking you to please be respectful because I still love my mother, but here goes:
My mother is sometimes a delusional, ignorant woman. Her selfish attitude played a key role in my father's early death coupled with his failure to rebuild his life after his divorce. She has since remarried to a former alpha, who was in the air force, rides a motorcycle, and works hard labor at a factory - but still quietly takes her crap. It's unreal what a man will put up with in order to have a pu$$y on his arm.
The only people who get a somewhat watered down version of her is my brother and I. She is usually ruthless to most everyone else who crosses her, and is sometimes that way with us, but we are the only ones not afraid to check her. And about 50% of the time, if we work together she will defer to us...
Recently she has been throwing in some zingers about making more friends and "finding a wife". As some of you know a lot happened to me in 2014-2015 that shaped me into the man I am right now. I admittedly have trust issues and am very jaded. I moved to Florida 18 months ago, I don't have many friends in the state I live and haven't had a girlfriend in well over a year. I have only been on about 3-4 dates
These zingers from my mother are pi$$ing me off. I understand in a way where she's coming from - she is 55 years old and wants little grandbabies running around. Instead, she hears the silence when her man is at work and as such, surrounds herself with cats she treats like humans (very strange actually.) But what she doesn't realize is in a way, she is the reason I don't settle down. Because I don't want an aging, nagging wife who probably puts out twice a year and who endlessly exploits me. Her behavior during my parents' divorce coupled with a long relationship with a very unstable woman were pretty much been the death knell in my aspirations for marriage. Still relatively young, but at 27 I don't want it at least for another 10 years.
She's right in one sense though. I'm too introverted and too reserved, despite SoSuave's advice that you don't really need friends or approval in this life. I don't put myself out there because I largely detest the people in my immediate vicinity (not on a personal level, I just don't respect or identify with their resignation to drudgery and mediocrity.) What my mother doesn't understand is that for 20 years, she's been part of the problem. It is also worth noting that her mother, my deceased grandmother, was my mom on steroids. A truly a repugnant, vicious woman at times.
In the case of my family and my chosen relationships, it has always been a predatory female victimizing the males around them, and my fight or flight response has simply been don't give yourself to women anymore. I hope to break out of this, but in the mean time it's kind of ironic. My mother is unknowingly paying for her sins, as she approaches 60 and there are no grandchildren on the horizon because of her actions throughout her life. She has a much better chance with my little brother, in 4 year LTR with a sweet girl who, you guessed it, mom can't get along with.
My mother is sometimes a delusional, ignorant woman. Her selfish attitude played a key role in my father's early death coupled with his failure to rebuild his life after his divorce. She has since remarried to a former alpha, who was in the air force, rides a motorcycle, and works hard labor at a factory - but still quietly takes her crap. It's unreal what a man will put up with in order to have a pu$$y on his arm.
The only people who get a somewhat watered down version of her is my brother and I. She is usually ruthless to most everyone else who crosses her, and is sometimes that way with us, but we are the only ones not afraid to check her. And about 50% of the time, if we work together she will defer to us...
Recently she has been throwing in some zingers about making more friends and "finding a wife". As some of you know a lot happened to me in 2014-2015 that shaped me into the man I am right now. I admittedly have trust issues and am very jaded. I moved to Florida 18 months ago, I don't have many friends in the state I live and haven't had a girlfriend in well over a year. I have only been on about 3-4 dates
These zingers from my mother are pi$$ing me off. I understand in a way where she's coming from - she is 55 years old and wants little grandbabies running around. Instead, she hears the silence when her man is at work and as such, surrounds herself with cats she treats like humans (very strange actually.) But what she doesn't realize is in a way, she is the reason I don't settle down. Because I don't want an aging, nagging wife who probably puts out twice a year and who endlessly exploits me. Her behavior during my parents' divorce coupled with a long relationship with a very unstable woman were pretty much been the death knell in my aspirations for marriage. Still relatively young, but at 27 I don't want it at least for another 10 years.
She's right in one sense though. I'm too introverted and too reserved, despite SoSuave's advice that you don't really need friends or approval in this life. I don't put myself out there because I largely detest the people in my immediate vicinity (not on a personal level, I just don't respect or identify with their resignation to drudgery and mediocrity.) What my mother doesn't understand is that for 20 years, she's been part of the problem. It is also worth noting that her mother, my deceased grandmother, was my mom on steroids. A truly a repugnant, vicious woman at times.
In the case of my family and my chosen relationships, it has always been a predatory female victimizing the males around them, and my fight or flight response has simply been don't give yourself to women anymore. I hope to break out of this, but in the mean time it's kind of ironic. My mother is unknowingly paying for her sins, as she approaches 60 and there are no grandchildren on the horizon because of her actions throughout her life. She has a much better chance with my little brother, in 4 year LTR with a sweet girl who, you guessed it, mom can't get along with.
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