Every Woman Left On The Market Is Fvcked Up

[fastlife]

I'm always TOO something....either too broke or too rich, too fat or too fit, too stupid or too smart, too goofy or too much of a show off....

I'm never just OK. I can never just fvcking RELAX. I can never just get a PAT on the fvcking a.ss for a job well done. NO, I have to constantly be told there's ANOTHER problem I have to fix, then when I fix that problem, they will FIND another problem, then when I fix that problem, they will FIND another problem.

Fvck this shyt! This shyt is ZAPPING my god damn energy, fvcking up my positivity, and causing serious depression!! I've been going through this shyt for 33 fvcking years and I'm getting ready to SNAPPP.

What if there was nothing to fix? Just be.

Sounds a little hippyish from the paradigm you are now--but your ego's so invested in a frame of viewing yourself as inferior and having to 'fix' yourself--which constantly reinforces the idea that 'you're not enough.'

Have you ever just sat back and enjoyed the experience of being @Tenacity? What's a pat on the back from a black woman really going to fix? Will that make you happy?--or will it just be another step down the rabbit hole of validation-chasing.

Ironically, other people's approval will come when you least need it--and by then it will pale in comparison to your own self-approval.

 

[Tenacity]

What if there was nothing to fix? Just be.

Sounds a little hippyish from the paradigm you are now--but your ego's so invested in a frame of viewing yourself as inferior and having to 'fix' yourself--which constantly reinforces the idea that 'you're not enough.'

Have you ever just sat back and enjoyed the experience of being @Tenacity? What's a pat on the back from a black woman really going to fix? Will that make you happy?--or will it just be another step down the rabbit hole of validation-chasing.

Ironically, other people's approval will come when you least need it--and by then it will pale in comparison to your own self-approval.

I guess I just want deeper relationships. Since 2010 I've been spinning plate after plate, date after date, new sex partner after new sex partner. I'm tired of it.

Most of these chicks come in and are GONE within 3 months. I mean GONE, even block me on Facebook. And they are usually GONE for the most minimal and stupidest shyt imaginable, all the while RAY RAY, POOKIE and (insert any other broke, criminal, thug here) gets 2, 3, 4, 10 year fvcking relationships! He gets blasted all over her Facebook page as being "A KING", when the motherfvcker has no fvcking job.

Dude I'm just tired man. I want to just SNAP. I've had enough dude. I'm serious. I've been depressed over this shyt for too god damn long man...when the FVCK is it going to be over??

 

[devilkingx2]

Most of these chicks come in and are GONE within 3 months. I mean GONE, even block me on Facebook. And they are usually GONE for the most minimal and stupidest shyt imaginable, all the while RAY RAY, POOKIE and (insert any other broke, criminal, thug here) gets 2, 3, 4, 10 year fvcking relationships! He gets blasted all over her Facebook page as being "A KING", when the motherfvcker has no fvcking job.

the grass is always greener bro, I bet ray ray and pookie look at you and think "man, i'd drop this dumb slvt in a second for money like that"

 

[bigneil]

Fvck this shyt! This shyt is ZAPPING my god damn energy, fvcking up my positivity, and causing serious depression!! I've been going through this shyt for 33 fvcking years and I'm getting ready to SNAPPP.

It sounds like you need a 3 day detox fast. The Zand kit is only about $20 and works wonders.

 

[zekko]

I've been depressed over this shyt for too god damn long man...when the FVCK is it going to be over??

There's nothing wrong with wanting a woman in your life, but it's important that you can be happy on your own. That way you are naturally coming from a non-needy, non-desperate frame.

I think your problems with depression are hurting you. I used to be negative and got depressed (not clinically) when I was younger, but I learned over time how to be happy. Part of this was learning that all those negative thoughts never did me any good, and that it was always better to be positive.

 

[ChristopherColumbus]

Can I finish my bytching session? Hell, I might as well just get it ALL OUT RIGHT?

It's like I'm never enough to black women, I'm never OK to them, I'm never FINE to them, there's never a pat on the A.SS from them.

- When I was broke, they clowned me. I go out and become financially successful, now they routinely talk about how ARROGANT I am and how money doesn't matter/mean anything.

- When I was fat, they clowned me. I go out and become fit, get a 6 pack....now they routinely talk about how ARROGANT I am to mention/show my 6 pack and 6 packs don't mean anything.

- When I was too shy to approach a woman at all, they clowned me. Now I have no ISSUES being the life of the party, striking up convos everywhere....and now this has become a problem with them because they say at times I'm not "laid back enough". The Christmas plate I just had left me cause I wasn't "laid back enough", whatever the fvck that means!

I'm always TOO something....either too broke or too rich, too fat or too fit, too stupid or too smart, too goofy or too much of a show off....

I'm never just OK. I can never just fvcking RELAX. I can never just get a PAT on the fvcking a.ss for a job well done. NO, I have to constantly be told there's ANOTHER problem I have to fix, then when I fix that problem, they will FIND another problem, then when I fix that problem, they will FIND another problem.

Fvck this shyt! This shyt is ZAPPING my god damn energy, fvcking up my positivity, and causing serious depression!! I've been going through this shyt for 33 fvcking years and I'm getting ready to SNAPPP.

Why bother jumping through hoops with all the outer game stuff? And then, even with all the self-development, 90% of us are never going to get those 'externals' right to the point where the ever-shifting and fickle demands of women are going to be met.

But there is always that other form of self-development/ inner game, where you better yourself as an end in itself as opposed to a means to get women. But careful what you wish for here as you might lose all desire for chasing hair-brained floosies.

But seriously, recently I snapped out of a gaming/ try-hard mentality, and have just become my normal chilled self with women. I call it 'post-game' mode... I think it's similar to taking inner game to the point where game becomes redundant. My recent dates have felt like they might now actually go somewhere.

 

[l_e_g_e_n_d]

Can I finish my bytching session? Hell, I might as well just get it ALL OUT RIGHT?

It's like I'm never enough to black women, I'm never OK to them, I'm never FINE to them, there's never a pat on the A.SS from them.

- When I was broke, they clowned me. I go out and become financially successful, now they routinely talk about how ARROGANT I am and how money doesn't matter/mean anything.

- When I was fat, they clowned me. I go out and become fit, get a 6 pack....now they routinely talk about how ARROGANT I am to mention/show my 6 pack and 6 packs don't mean anything.

- When I was too shy to approach a woman at all, they clowned me. Now I have no ISSUES being the life of the party, striking up convos everywhere....and now this has become a problem with them because they say at times I'm not "laid back enough". The Christmas plate I just had left me cause I wasn't "laid back enough", whatever the fvck that means!

I'm always TOO something....either too broke or too rich, too fat or too fit, too stupid or too smart, too goofy or too much of a show off....

I'm never just OK. I can never just fvcking RELAX. I can never just get a PAT on the fvcking a.ss for a job well done. NO, I have to constantly be told there's ANOTHER problem I have to fix, then when I fix that problem, they will FIND another problem, then when I fix that problem, they will FIND another problem.

Fvck this shyt! This shyt is ZAPPING my god damn energy, fvcking up my positivity, and causing serious depression!! I've been going through this shyt for 33 fvcking years and I'm getting ready to SNAPPP.

This post epitomizes the word "bltch." Is this who you are?

Herein is your problem.

 

[Tenacity]

This post epitomizes the word "bltch." Is this who you are?

Herein is your problem.

What does this mean?

Guys I'm sorry, I'm concerned at this point. I have done all I can but the anger and rage inside me won't go away.

Listen, I'm afraid I'm going to snap and just.....I don't know.....Maybe seriously hurt myself or a woman or a group of women at one time.

I've tried a therapist, it's not helping. I've tried possibly just going MGTOW and leaving women alone and that just makes me more angry.

My enemies on here might use this as an opportunity to attack but I'm being honest.....I'm being fvcking honest....I'm about to SNAP and I need fvcking help.

 

[l_e_g_e_n_d]

What does this mean?

Guys I'm sorry, I'm concerned at this point. I have done all I can but the anger and rage inside me won't go away.

Listen, I'm afraid I'm going to snap and just.....I don't know.....Maybe seriously hurt myself or a woman or a group of women at one time.

I've tried a therapist, it's not helping. I've tried possibly just going MGTOW and leaving women alone and that just makes me more angry.

My enemies on here might use this as an opportunity to attack but I'm being honest.....I'm being fvcking honest....I'm about to SNAP and I need fvcking help.

Fair enough. You spoke like a gentleman in need. So I retract my previous reply as it was unwarranted.

Where you begin is to ask yourself, "Where does this need to have an LTR originate?" As I see it, all of your anger and deleterious behavioral patterns originate from this need for acceptance.

What event(s) specifically happened to you which incited this need? Family? Upbringing? Ostracization? What specifically?

Truth is you don't need anyone or anyone's validation to be complete, and unless you address the "root cause," these feelings will continue to harbor in you. You DO NEED inner value and a sound mind. Do you value yourself?

 

[Tenacity]

Fair enough. You spoke like a gentleman in need. So I retract my previous reply as it was unwarranted.

Where you begin is to ask yourself, "Where does this need to have an LTR originate?" As I see it, all of your anger and deleterious behavioral patterns originate from this need for acceptance.

What event(s) specifically happened to you which incited this need? Family? Upbringing? Ostracization? What specifically?

I've never been accepted....within any group....for all of my life. There was ALWAYS something "too wrong" with me.

- Growing up with my family, I was too nerdy and too white. Too smart. Too quiet. Too shy.

- Growing up during Grade school, I was too ugly, too nerdy, too quiet, too shy.

- Towards the end of Grade school I started to develop my personality more to be more outgoing. Now, I became too goofy, too loud, too aggressive, too assertive, too much of an attention wh0re.

- When I got into young adult hood my money situation wasn't good at all, so I was too broke, my car was too old, my clothes were too out of fashion, etc.

- When I was involved in Church Ministry from 16 - 22, I was told I was too holy, acting too old-fashioned, was told I was too nice, prayed too much, went to church too much, etc.

- I fixed my finances, looks, and fitness levels in 2010/2011, then I am told that I'm too arrogant, focus on money too much, workout too much, wash my car too much, too ambitious, etc.

Do you see a PATTERN here Legend? I can NEVER win. I can NEVER just be OK. I'm always kicked the fvck out of every god damn group for some fvcking reason.

I get told, "Tenacity, you are the only constant so fix what you are doing wrong!" Then I go fix what's "wrong", then I come back and it's something else that becomes TOO much of a problem.

All the while, broke, loser, criminal, thugs....who don't take care of their kids, don't work, don't have a car, don't do SHYT, they are accepted, worshipped, adored, all types of shyt. EVERY woman they date puts his a.ss on Facebook. Of the 200 or so women I've dated since 2010, not ONE.....NOT ONE.....has made any mention of me on Facebook. NOT ONE.

It's like I was put into this world but I don't fvcking belong here. Maybe my Father was right when he told my Mother to just get a god damn abortion.

 

[fastlife]

I guess I just want deeper relationships. Since 2010 I've been spinning plate after plate, date after date, new sex partner after new sex partner. I'm tired of it.

Most of these chicks come in and are GONE within 3 months. I mean GONE, even block me on Facebook. And they are usually GONE for the most minimal and stupidest shyt imaginable, all the while RAY RAY, POOKIE and (insert any other broke, criminal, thug here) gets 2, 3, 4, 10 year fvcking relationships! He gets blasted all over her Facebook page as being "A KING", when the motherfvcker has no fvcking job.

Dude I'm just tired man. I want to just SNAP. I've had enough dude. I'm serious. I've been depressed over this shyt for too god damn long man...when the FVCK is it going to be over??

There is no end game. Part of the reason they stick with Ray Ray and Pookie so long is that Ray Ray and Pookie could take them or leave them. Subconsciously it feels like he's higher value than they are and that they're winning by just being able to hang onto his dysfunctional life.

If you want a deeper relationship then you're outcome dependent--and you're lowering your value. Women want to work to keep a role in your life. But you've already carved out a role for them. Ray Ray and Pookie put 'em to work--they get investment That kind of pressure will blow them out, even if they want a committed stable relationship.

Passing on your genetic lineage is an understandable goal but what you're doing isn't working--and you're not willing to explore other options: Relocating (or at least traveling--women are heavily molded by their external environment) and Dating outside your race. Generally, and I'm extrapolating heavily, black women in America haven't grown up in environments where they were able to relax, trust, & submit to an authoritative, dominant male--at least not in most urban areas. BUT you can possibly find these women in tight-knit communities, maybe slightly rural or working class neighborhoods. I went to high school with a ton of lovely black girls; I also went to high school with a ton of ratchets--the difference was that most of the ratchets grew up with single moms & had a chip on their shoulder; the nicer girls had fathers and grandfathers who had gone to same high school, neighbors who grew up with their parents and grandparents. But you're not meeting black girls like that where you are--so you can either relocate or find women of other races whose sociological background predisposed them to be comfortable with the qualities someone like you offers.

Those are the two factors you have direct control over, assuming you aren't willing to change your goals.

 

[l_e_g_e_n_d]

Seems like you have been taking a business marketing approach to social relations; that is; ascertaining people's wants/needs and becoming that person. While this might be good for ancillary traits (e.g. style, hygiene, game etc.), if Tenacity is always changing in accordance with his target group, then who is Tenacity?

To build inner value, you must stand for something, and that something must be non-negotiable. Again, who is Tenacity? What character traits of Tenacity are non-negotiable or is everything negotiable with full acquiescence to the target?

 

[BlueAlpha1]

I've never been accepted....within any group....for all of my life. There was ALWAYS something "too wrong" with me.

- Growing up with my family, I was too nerdy and too white. Too smart. Too quiet. Too shy.

- Growing up during Grade school, I was too ugly, too nerdy, too quiet, too shy.

- Towards the end of Grade school I started to develop my personality more to be more outgoing. Now, I became too goofy, too loud, too aggressive, too assertive, too much of an attention wh0re.

- When I got into young adult hood my money situation wasn't good at all, so I was too broke, my car was too old, my clothes were too out of fashion, etc.

- When I was involved in Church Ministry from 16 - 22, I was told I was too holy, acting too old-fashioned, was told I was too nice, prayed too much, went to church too much, etc.

- I fixed my finances, looks, and fitness levels in 2010/2011, then I am told that I'm too arrogant, focus on money too much, workout too much, wash my car too much, too ambitious, etc.

Do you see a PATTERN here Legend? I can NEVER win. I can NEVER just be OK. I'm always kicked the fvck out of every god damn group for some fvcking reason.

I get told, "Tenacity, you are the only constant so fix what you are doing wrong!" Then I go fix what's "wrong", then I come back and it's something else that becomes TOO much of a problem.

All the while, broke, loser, criminal, thugs....who don't take care of their kids, don't work, don't have a car, don't do SHYT, they are accepted, worshipped, adored, all types of shyt. EVERY woman they date puts his a.ss on Facebook. Of the 200 or so women I've dated since 2010, not ONE.....NOT ONE.....has made any mention of me on Facebook. NOT ONE.

It's like I was put into this world but I don't fvcking belong here. Maybe my Father was right when he told my Mother to just get a god damn abortion.

If it is any consolation, I look up to you in a lot of ways. You're about 5 years older than me. I never had a big brother and my father died when I was 24. I have 3 uncles all with very busy lives that I talk to 3 times a year, and my two grandfathers are alive but pushing 90. They're from a bygone era with an idea of success so alien to a millennial I literally wrote an e-book about it. I have very few male role models.

So I get a lot from this forum in between all the bs. And you are my favorite poster here. Your critical thinking skills and analysis is razor sharp and you should be making $250,000 as a lawyer. You're incredibly well spoken and courageous enough to break free of the crabs in a barrel mentality that society would love to trap you in.

And you've dated 200 women? Lucky you. I've dated about 20-25 and only banged a handful of those plus 2 escorts. So I am NOT an authority on women here. But I can tell you from a 4 year LTR, they are IRRATIONAL beings. So it is clearly in your best interest to stop expecting them to ACT RATIONAL. I get it. You just NEED black women to love who for you who are, but they go for Pookie instead. And every white girl who I think should be interested in me goes for a Chad who breaks up with her 2x a month and cheats with her best friend. These women are vile and appalling.

But the point is you WON'T find that elusive girl with this attitude, but once you REALLY let go then you MIGHT find one. And then it won't matter as much.

In the short term, all I can say is if you're thinking about hurting yourself or some random women, don't do it. You might hurt a mom with a newborn. ANY woman you hurt is somebody's daughter.

Instead, what you can do is tell your employers you're taking a leave of absence. Then go somewhere different - I don't care where. Spend a whole month there. Meet some REAL black women not just from corrupt North America. All it took was me meeting one girl from New Zealand and one girl from Czech Republic to restore some faith in women. They were both incredibly charming.

BUT if you travel, spend 80% of your time alone. Just walk the streets of a foreign land and take it all in. Get lost with no money and a language barrier. I guarantee you you'll come back a changed man. I can tell you that from experience. When I did 30 days in Europe it was 6 months after my dad died. The enlightenment I got saved me from hurting myself or becoming addicted to anything. You scared? What have you got to lose now???? What you need is a BREAK from the rat race that has you like a dog chasing your own tail.

I actually want to visit Barrow Alaska for a week sometime - the northernmost city in the world with a population of 4,000. They go 67 days without sunlight and live on the arctic ocean. There is snow year round and their suicide rate is 9x higher than it is in Florida. Put me in an environment like that and it'd be a struggle to SURVIVE and maintain my sanity for a week! But once I got back I'd always understand what REAL struggle and drudgery is like. There is no such thing as "game" there. There is avoiding frostbite and shoveling snow, and Vitamin D deficiencies.This is the problem. As men we have no great struggle other than chasing status toys and women. Even 1,000 years ago it wasn't like this.

Two years after my trip to Europe many days in my normal every day life seem like a blur. Days just fly by. But I remember EVERY tiny detail about the trip because of how present in the moment I was. It gave me perspective and a long term goal that is NOT fleeting but always ongoing. I found a passion in something and you can to.

 

[Tenacity]

Seems like you have been taking a business marketing approach to social relations; that is; ascertaining people's wants/needs and becoming that person. While this might be good for ancillary traits (e.g. style, hygiene, game etc.), if Tenacity is always changing in accordance with his target group, then who is Tenacity?

Okay but Legend let me remind you of something you and Guru said.

This is what Guru said in another thread:

Look at your quote above.

Notice, you give your personality a 7. I give your personality a 2.

There are a couple guys in this thread that I wouldn't mind hanging out with. Tenacity, you are not one of them. You are no cool dude. Personally, I would find zero value in hanging out with you. You're actually quite annoying at times. This is your problem: Your attitude.

This is what you said earlier on in this thread:

I meet plenty of women that I plate, fvck, and toss. They are hot. That's it. They don't possess the "quality" characteristics that merit an LTR. Accordingly, I don't take them seriously and maximize their utility--which is to fvck. And when I get bored, I toss them, or keep them in distant rotation. These women would say that I'm flakey, that I lack respect, that I give them mixed signals, but the truth is they aren't quality enough to be taken seriously. And so I treat them accordingly.

Now men and women differ. The distinction is while women are judged primarily at their hotness to fvck, men are trifucated among looks, status, and financials. Accordingly, you may be pushing all three buttons (looks, status, financials) but you lack the quality to hold them or to be given serious LTR consideration. You are kind of like the hot BPD girl who is good enough to fvck (man equivalent to looks, status, financials) but lacks the necessary quality to command LTR suitability. Get it?

You then went on to state:

For most people, quality will encompass the following:

Humility, generosity, good manners, class, debonair, gratitude, self-responsibility, willingness to learn, empathetic, understanding, emotionally healthy, psychologically healthy, not needy, self-respect, respect to others, compassion, uncontroversial, willing to give without expectation in return, strong familial values, honor, strong sense of self, inter alia.

So do you possess most/all of these attributes to label yourself as a "quality" man? I'd venture to guess most of these attributes don't describe you.

So YOU and Guru have both said the same thing, that in a nutshell, I'm a worthless piece of shyt. So in being told I'm a worthless piece of shyt, seeing as though I'm the only CONSTANT here and I should take personal responsiblity to "fix my flaws", I go out and try to work on not being a worthless piece of shyt.

Then when I do the work on that, it comes back that I'm still a worthless piece of shyt for (insert this new reason here).

To build inner value, you must stand for something, and that something must be non-negotiable

I would make the argument that I DO have inner value, but I don't have inner COMFORT. It's not that Tenacity hates himself, it's that EVERYBODY ELSE HATES TENACITY and that makes me uncomfortable because I honestly DO NOT KNOW what the fvck I'm doing to everybody and what the fvck I've been doing to everybody for 33 years.

Again, who is Tenacity?

Depends on who you ask. If you ask "Tenacity" he would say that he's a strong willed, ambitious, smart, out-going, funny guy, who has integrity.

If you ask 99.99% of the rest of the fvcking world, Tenacity is: stupid, dumb, Uncle Tom, gay, little dyck, too goofy, too smart, too shy, too quiet, too loud, too short, too tall, too rich, too poor, too much of an attention wh0re, a liar, arrogant, and (insert any other trait here that labels me as as a worthless piece of fvcking shyt which causes people to isolate me for no god damn reason, all the while the guys who are really doing DAMAGE get excuses made for them).

 

[zekko]

Tenacity, I think you are caring too much what people think of you. That's looking for validation outside yourself, thus you are trying to suck value out of people when you should be giving it. Generally speaking, people aren't nice, so you can't expect them to root for you.

Also, it looks like you are carrying this low self esteem around with you into every situation. The loser wins out because he's comfortable with himself. He's too dumb to realize what a loser he is, he just happily goes along with it. Smart people are often too aware of their own flaws.

You have a lot going for you. You don't want to present yourself as an arrogant overload like some of these alpha promoters. Just know that you're good enough and present yourself in a friendly, positive manner.

 

[Tenacity]

If it is any consolation, I look up to you in a lot of ways. You're about 5 years older than me. I never had a big brother and my father died when I was 24. I have 3 uncles all with very busy lives that I talk to 3 times a year, and my two grandfathers are alive but pushing 90. They're from a bygone era with an idea of success so alien to a millennial I literally wrote an e-book about it. I have very few male role models.

So I get a lot from this forum in between all the bs. And you are my favorite poster here. Your critical thinking skills and analysis is razor sharp and you should be making $250,000 as a lawyer. You're incredibly well spoken and courageous enough to break free of the crabs in a barrel mentality that society would love to trap you in.

And you've dated 200 women? Lucky you. I've dated about 20-25 and only banged a handful of those plus 2 escorts. So I am NOT an authority on women here. But I can tell you from a 4 year LTR, they are IRRATIONAL beings. So it is clearly in your best interest to stop expecting them to ACT RATIONAL. I get it. You just NEED black women to love who for you who are, but they go for Pookie instead. And every white girl who I think should be interested in me goes for a Chad who breaks up with her 2x a month and cheats with her best friend. These women are vile and appalling.

But the point is you WON'T find that elusive girl with this attitude, but once you REALLY let go then you MIGHT find one. And then it won't matter as much.

In the short term, all I can say is if you're thinking about hurting yourself or some random women, don't do it. You might hurt a mom with a newborn. ANY woman you hurt is somebody's daughter.

Instead, what you can do is tell your employers you're taking a leave of absence. Then go somewhere different - I don't care where. Spend a whole month there. Meet some REAL black women not just from corrupt North America. All it took was me meeting one girl from New Zealand and one girl from Czech Republic to restore some faith in women. They were both incredibly charming.

BUT if you travel, spend 80% of your time alone. Just walk the streets of a foreign land and take it all in. Get lost with no money and a language barrier. I guarantee you you'll come back a changed man. I can tell you that from experience. When I did 30 days in Europe it was 6 months after my dad died. The enlightenment I got saved me from hurting myself or becoming addicted to anything. You scared? What have you got to lose now???? What you need is a BREAK from the rat race that has you like a dog chasing your own tail.

I actually want to visit Barrow Alaska for a week sometime - the northernmost city in the world with a population of 4,000. They go 67 days without sunlight and live on the arctic ocean. There is snow year round and their suicide rate is 9x higher than it is in Florida. Put me in an environment like that and it'd be a struggle to SURVIVE and maintain my sanity for a week! But once I got back I'd always understand what REAL struggle and drudgery is like. This is the problem. As men we have no great struggle other than chasing status toys and women. Even 1,000 years ago it wasn't like this.

Two years after my trip to Europe many days in my normal every day life seem like a blur. Days just fly by. But I remember EVERY tiny detail about the trip because of how present in the moment I was. It gave me perspective and a long term goal that is NOT fleeting but always ongoing. I found a passion in something and you can to.

Yeah bro also PrettyBoyAJ wants me to do some traveling. I just signed on with a new position and I can't take any major time off for a couple of months, but I do want to do this.

It's funny cause this area of my life is the only area that's in chaos and what ticks me off about it so much, is that it's like I have no control over it. If I just could CONTROL it, like a business.....I would be alright. What do I mean?

- In business there's a market problem, or a product we need to sell
- I can figure out the planning on who to push it to, how to push it, and the entire execution plan
- I implement that plan and follow through
- It gets done

So like Legend said, yes, I bring that same mentality over here to the personal side but it's just not aligning. It's like the entire personal side I have NO CONTROL OVER, it's like a Higher Power, or Nature, or Market Force controls the entire ordeal on this side and I just have to "take whatever I get" or something? It's like I have no control over anything that's happening on this side and what's happening is complete hell.

 

[BlueAlpha1]

Yeah bro also PrettyBoyAJ wants me to do some traveling. I just signed on with a new position and I can't take any major time off for a couple of months, but I do want to do this.

It's funny cause this area of my life is the only area that's in chaos and what ticks me off about it so much, is that it's like I have no control over it. If I just could CONTROL it, like a business.....I would be alright. What do I mean?

- In business there's a market problem, or a product we need to sell
- I can figure out the planning on who to push it to, how to push it, and the entire execution plan
- I implement that plan and follow through
- It gets done

So like Legend said, yes, I bring that same mentality over here to the personal side but it's just not aligning. It's like the entire personal side I have NO CONTROL OVER, it's like a Higher Power, or Nature, or Market Force controls the entire ordeal on this side and I just have to "take whatever I get" or something?

I think that's it in a nutshell. LET GO for a while. Clearly you know how to ATTRACT women if you've dated 200, but you're struggling to get them to love you. Because you clearly don't love yourself, since your PERSPECTIVE is very limited. You're heavily tied up in this capitalism wheel which can be great, but can also be your downfall. You're working 80 hours a week and working out a lot. You have no time to just THINK!

And it's not really your fault. You're 32? There old ass people in their 80's who are ignorant and miserable as fvck, but there is a meme of the wise old man for a reason. Wisdom takes time and includes making many mistakes and cycling through these feelings you're having now thousands of times.

I was never tough enough for the military. I wouldn't have functioned on 4 hours of sleep and getting barked at in my face for months or years. But I understand why tougher men than me go. It's to find that perspective and experience a sharp shift in consciousness. I found it in travel. I could still sleep 8 hours a night, not be told what to do, but travel is VERY UNCOMFORTABLE and not all travel is created equal. My week in Amsterdam was amazing as I smoked weed and banged escorts, but accidentally getting diverted to France with the flu, no Euros left, and a language barrier was a radical experience for me. I sat in a hotel and pondered my existence for 3 days until I was healthy enough to come home.



Buddy, THIS is Barrow Alaska. 67 DAYS OF DARKNESS between May and July. Shortest day of the year is TWO HOURS. There are NO PAVEMENT ROADS because the ice creates too many problems for the town, so it's just dirt. And I personally am FASCINATED with this. I want to go here, maybe spend 2-4 hours a day outdoors observing and the rest sitting in a hotel room observing just what the hell I'm doing. You won't be stressing about closing deals or that black girl that flaked, you'll be thinking "how the HELL do THESE people not go on a killing spree? I gotta get outta here, but I'm sure glad I did this."

I don't even like to go to the cheap examples of "think of the starving children in Africa!" or "the kids dying in Syria!" I prefer to provide first world examples we can relate to. These are AMERICAN CITIZENS. There is no shortage of food, water, or even sports. There is a high school football team (with apparently nobody to play against). And there are MILLIONS of people in remote places on earth who live similarly. Ask a citizen of Hawaii how great it is besides being a honeymoon spot. The gap between the rich and poor is ENORMOUS, the humidity is HORRIBLE and the hours are VERY LONG.

I'm going off on a tangent here. My point is what you need is A SHIFT IN CONSCIOUSNESS and a break, not a black woman to validate you. Even if she comes, the satisfaction won't last very long. You'll just get oneitis. If you "can't" travel right now, just look at pictures of places like this and follow up with some guided meditations online and turn off your phone for a week.

Hope this helps.

 

[Tenacity]

My point is what you need is A SHIFT IN CONSCIOUSNESS and a break, not a black woman to validate you. Even if she comes, the satisfaction won't last very long. You'll just get oneitis. If you "can't" travel right now, just look at pictures of places like this and follow up with some guided meditations online and turn off your phone for a week.

Hope this helps.

Of course it helps bro. I whooped everything else's a.ss in my life and I will whoop this area's a.ss also!

I just have so much cognitive dissonance going on in relation to this area.

- There's a MGTOW/Red Pill voice in me saying one thing

- There's a PUA voice in me saying another thing

- There's a Don Juan/Pook-Like voice in me saying another thing

- There's a Purple Pill/Blue Pill voice in me saying another thing

- Then there's an ELLIOT ROGERS voice in me saying another thing!

Geezus, the cognitive dissonance is strong.

 

[ChristopherColumbus]

Go to Rome. Study some history, art, and culture. But then you can travel in your own mind. Just takes time and will.

You need to become part of something so much greater than your self.

 

[mrgoodstuff]

Fair enough. You spoke like a gentleman in need. So I retract my previous reply as it was unwarranted.

Where you begin is to ask yourself, "Where does this need to have an LTR originate?" As I see it, all of your anger and deleterious behavioral patterns originate from this need for acceptance.

What event(s) specifically happened to you which incited this need? Family? Upbringing? Ostracization? What specifically?

Truth is you don't need anyone or anyone's validation to be complete, and unless you address the "root cause," these feelings will continue to harbor in you. You DO NEED inner value and a sound mind. Do you value yourself?

He phvcked over 200 babes in 5 years. He feels he needs his equal. Not a toy, not a game, not a slvt but HIS own woman whose worthy and appreciative.