Ok, i just need to rant because the situation is specific. Been with girl for 3 years. Everything was ok but i always had a feeling that this is not the relationship for me. Didn´t have the balls to break up with her. Ended up depressed for the last year of relationship, got even health anxiety, agoraphobia, panic attacks thinking i would die every minute. So finally, i went for professional help. Was in mental institution for 2 months, was put on pills which i hate. For the first month, she was there supporting me. But then all of a sudden she become cold. Didnt´t call to check up on me, when i called she sounded different. Then one day, there was a birthday at my brothers place. He is 50, im 30 and my ex gf is 26. There was my whole family, and my brother and ex gf stayed late alone drinking (she told me that when i called and told me she would call later, ofc she didnt). Next day she told me that my brother dropped her at her home. This is when i started to suspect things, although i was in mental institution so maybe i am just paranoid. So got my **** together and left mental institution as soon as i could. Came home, wanted to work things out. She gave me LJBF speech so i just went no contact. Started to work on my self . Everything went well but i missed her. So i arranged meeting with her. We talked and agreed that we should try this one more time. This lasted for like 5 days when she finally told me that this isnt working out, we are not compatible, we will never be happy again... This was it for me, i gave up on this and went again on NC. Everything was good, i got my **** together, started seeing other women. Got confidence back and all that ****. And then it happened. I am working for my brother and he is acting little weird lately. And today, he left his phone charging near place where i am working. Phone rings up, i looked to see who is calling him to tell him and it was my ex. It was 22:30, we were closing the shop. So i asked him later if he has something with her. He negates it because she works as accountant for him so she probably called about work. I cant buy that ****, who calls about work that late at night. Even though i was ok with everything that happened before, this is just too much to handle right now. Sorry for big post, just needed to get this out.