Most of my threads have become about my emotional state, this is one more.
I have to decide to move for my work or another location which I can commute to every day. The moving is not that far and on my days off I would come back home.
I still live at home with my mom at the age of 27. On one hand it's time to take a next step in my life, on the other I find it hard to leave my mom. I'll be the last sibling to leave home and thoughts like, what if she falls of the stairs in the morning, no one will be there. Will she know I love her although I'm a very introverted guy and show my love through small indirect things (I never say it, besides once last year).
The move will only be for a couple of years, after that I'll move back closer in the same village. It's hard as her mother suffered from dementia and although she's not that age yet, I want to enjoy as many moments as I can.
Some other things that is going on with me. I love my family, but I can't go all day with them as I barely say anything and it takes so much energy from me. I know that if I would be a 'normal' extroverted guy I wouldn't mind such events. I think I feel ashamed for them for who I am as they probably all want me to be more talkative and join them more.
Honestly I have days I just burst in tears for who I am, this is not how my dad wanted me to be, his is not who I want to be. I tried and read so much, but I feel it only gets worse. I even tried a psychologist, but nothing.
I have to decide to move for my work or another location which I can commute to every day. The moving is not that far and on my days off I would come back home.
I still live at home with my mom at the age of 27. On one hand it's time to take a next step in my life, on the other I find it hard to leave my mom. I'll be the last sibling to leave home and thoughts like, what if she falls of the stairs in the morning, no one will be there. Will she know I love her although I'm a very introverted guy and show my love through small indirect things (I never say it, besides once last year).
The move will only be for a couple of years, after that I'll move back closer in the same village. It's hard as her mother suffered from dementia and although she's not that age yet, I want to enjoy as many moments as I can.
Some other things that is going on with me. I love my family, but I can't go all day with them as I barely say anything and it takes so much energy from me. I know that if I would be a 'normal' extroverted guy I wouldn't mind such events. I think I feel ashamed for them for who I am as they probably all want me to be more talkative and join them more.
Honestly I have days I just burst in tears for who I am, this is not how my dad wanted me to be, his is not who I want to be. I tried and read so much, but I feel it only gets worse. I even tried a psychologist, but nothing.