Dustmuffins Journal

[CuddleJunkie]

I don't have much experience, but I would follow the advice that the DJs here usually give: It's christmas time, people is busy, so don't take it as a non-interest sign. Wait until it's over.

 

[dustmuffin]

I don't have much experience, but I would follow the advice that the DJs here usually give: It's christmas time, people is busy, so don't take it as a non-interest sign. Wait until it's over.

That advice is just what I needed. Thanks...I mean that.

Been thinking today. Went to visit my mom and boys. I think a lot it seems. I'm getting my cashmere overcoats back from my ex wife. I asked for them and she played stupid but finally agreed. Her mother gave them to me. I would never buy something like that anyway. But i do look good in them.

Went to the gym. It was closed because of weather. Ice and snow, cold and windy. I dgaf. I got in my car and drove. It isnt that bad. People in the south arent used to this type of weather. I may get tomorrow off with pay. I think i got 5 days off last year like that.

I think i may finally be in a place where i can press forward mentally and pysically. It usually happens like that. I think a lot...then i do with abandon. It was like that with fencing. I was in fantastic shape and had girls approaching me. I was married so tough for me. There was one little saber fencer that had some nice thighs. She was always pestering me. Jewish girl by the name of Amy. She would lotion up her thighs and legs in front of everyone....

I wont live in the past i will create my future. Women will come. I need to step up and make it happen. The harder I work the easier it will be. In shape mind, body and soul.

 

[dustmuffin]

Was sick today. Girl hit me up and she came over and we smashed. She was an odd one. First and last time. Will wait to call engineer on Monday. She is out of town still.

I am getting to a point where I am at a loss for words. This is good. That means my emotions aren't running me as much.

Positive things are near.....

 

[dustmuffin]

I am kind of losing my enthusiasm for SS. The new year has started and I have exercised everyday. Still fighting my emotions and seem to be doing OK. Don't have a lot to say.Good or bad? Oh well it is what it is.

It's easy to fall down. But much harder to get back up. I'm just glad my hip isn't broken.....

 

[CuddleJunkie]

Hey dustmuffin, congrats on keeping the exercise going. One question: do you feel like exercisicing have a great impact on you emotional levels? I say this because it happens to me, and if you recognize this in yourself, it's only extra movitation!

 

[dustmuffin]

Hey dustmuffin, congrats on keeping the exercise going. One question: do you feel like exercisicing have a great impact on you emotional levels? I say this because it happens to me, and if you recognize this in yourself, it's only extra movitation!

I hear that it does have a positive emotional effect. It hasn't happened for me yet. Last time I was exercising regularly and enjoying it my ex wife nagged me out of it. That ***** is finally realizing that she had it good with me. Do I want her? H ell no. It is just interesting to look back and see her behaviors that have been explained on SS. She didnt want me to look good because she was a fat ass and i was 190 pounds of muscle with women hovering around me. All she had around her was sandwiches and candy.

 

[CuddleJunkie]

yeah is crazy how people try to drag you down. Even mothers lol, I mean the person that gave you life does not want to see you succedint at it if it means she will be lower than you.
One tip dustmuffin, your exwife might have realize that it was her lost, and I bet it feels good, but if you indulge in that good-feel you will have her in your mind. So try to not sit in that "fuk you b¡tch" thoughts too much haha.

 

[dustmuffin]

Well had a chat with ex wife about a large sum on money that I was required to give to my youngest son for University........Shocker....she spent it and didnt invest it like the court ordered. I tore her a new ass hole. I really let her have it and it felt sooooo gooood.....Anyway she callled me back and says she has it in her retirement account.....Dumb ***** after i bitched her out her hampster started thinking where can I get the money??? I know! and I will say this this and this! *looks proud*...When My son turns 18 she will withdraw every cent with earnings and give it to him. I will unleash legal hell on her if she dosent.

 

[dustmuffin]

Oldest coming this weekend so i wont go to the meet up. We will lift and go to a movie. I got a bite for a daddy/ little girl relationship from an old craigs list add and a bite from an hb 9. These came to me. If they work out fine.

Jogged two miles and lifted.

 

[dustmuffin]

Set up date for daddy relationship. I am as giddy as a school girl. 20 years old and a 10 in this old mans book. Father abandoned her. I know what I am getting into. Trouble and pleasure.

 

[dustmuffin]

Daddies girl flaked. Big deal....lined up a date for Tuesday off of old. I'm putting very little effort in.
My mom won 4 k at slots took me and boys for ribe eyes at cattleman's steakhouse.

Flirting with counter girls. Chatted it up with women at masonic event. Working on eye contact. I still have to think about it.

Work out tomorrow.

Still haven't heard from circus monkey..oh well no big deal.

 

[dustmuffin]

Had date tonight. Kindbof a cute fatty. Liked her tits. It went well got kiss good kino had her laughing. I will ask out again. I actualluly enjoyed this date. I was attracted to those tits.

 

[CuddleJunkie]

Had date tonight. Kindbof a cute fatty. Liked her tits. It went well got kiss good kino had her laughing. I will ask out again. I actualluly enjoyed this date. I was attracted to those tits.

there's a saying in Spain "tiran más dos tetas que dos carretas". You could translate it like "two tits can move things more, than two trucks". lol

 

[dustmuffin]

Had a date Monday and scored. Set up second for Sunday. Have a date with different woman today.

 

[dustmuffin]

Got verification text for tonight plus gm text from other woman. At the doctor for physical.

 

[dustmuffin]

Second date consisted of blow job...very good one. She gave me some baloney of being friends first....my **** made friends with her mouth....

 

[dustmuffin]

Had a date laag night. Qemt well. Had some lmr and blasted past it. She was begging to be duckwd so I did. She paid for dinner.

 

[dustmuffin]

Took girl on 4th date to state park. Got a bj there. Afterwards **** at my house. She may be a keeper. Average looks, very frugal, same values. Kinky as hell. We will see.

 

[dustmuffin]

She also made a picnic lunch.

 

[dustmuffin]

Things have been going pretty good. I started a new medication and it made me jittery and nervous. Now it will take 72 hours to clear my system. It ruined a date last night. date kept talking about my shakes. I researched the new med this morning and that is a side effect. I should be ok in a few days.

On a more positive note the main girl I have been seeing is starting o latch on to me. IDK if this is good or bad. She is about a 5 in looks but has good personality and our values are the same. Plus she is thrifty like me. Sex is great. She is very kinky. She owns her own home , nice car etc. She is just great sex wise. Something that was lacking in my last ltr. We will see.

Something that I have noticed is that as I heal from my breakup I have less desire to journal. Is this good or bad? I just don't feel the need to have dysentery of the keyboard at the moment. I dont give a s hit about spellling either.