bigneil said:
Think about the last time you acted AFC or got hurt in a relationship - chances are she originally had extremely high IL or you never would have fallen to begin with.
That was fall of 2005. She had Very high IL. This, in turn, made me consider her when I had not really been attracted to her for almost a year of seeing her. This was my only True full-blown oneitis, and I still think about her, today even. I Know she got divorced after less than a year of marriage. I'm sure the dude could/would not put up with her sh!t as I could/would not put up with her sh!t. She was dearly a princess, a nutcracker doll with dress and cute socks. She's 31 now. I haven't seen her in a couple of years. No tellin how aged she probably looks now. At 28, women go down. I had her at 26 when she still had the pull on Many guys, and many guys flocked around her in one setting I remember. Her loss. Would I take her back if I ran into her today? I don't know. I still love her, but she "hurt" me with the Many childish games. It was like she was taking out all her frustrations from all the guys who'd done her wrong in her past on me. It was pretty hideous in the end. Stupid woman. She didn't believe in me.
Now (I hear) she's still living off of parents' money in a small apartment. I'm light years beyond where I was 6 years ago it's not even funny. She (then) had a very dim outlook on me. I loved her and was (at the time) trying to forge ahead a new career for US because I wanted to make her my wife. I tried to convey that thought to her, but it was little too late. She'd already "judged" me or Damned me in her mind, forever thinking of me as a life-long loser. We had the same job (same pay); therefore, she (typical woman thinking) Never could have respected me in her mind. She probably knows now that she was a moron for passing me up and I bet she probably still thinks about me (not certain, but I see her fat sister every now and then at her work and I KNOW that her sister probably tells her that she saw me again to her - keeps her updated). She Knew that I loved her, but she pissed it all away For No Good Reason (just a squandering of resources - ME). I'm the best resource she Ever would have had. Now many different women enjoy me. I've learned to never be beholden to just one. They Can't...appreciate a good man; therefore, they'll only get limited time with a good man. NO woman is worth me all unto herself anymore, and it's silly to think one would be, now that I've matured or grown up. It's called being Real. Being Honest.
