(Long post)
I've read similar threads on this site before but Im curious as to some of the answers given and the contexts in which it happens.
There is one girl who I acredit me starting my DJ journey to. Back at the time Of me being with her I was as AFC as you could imagine. In my mind I believed all women to be beautiful mystical creatures we should all treasure and adore. Never capabale of any real bad intentions or actions.
Armed with what I thought was golden knowledge I pursued what was soon to be my first real Girl friend. Now at this point I feel I should explain something about my past. I was brought up to think women would never resist a kind and good looking man. Because of this I spent 4 years of heavy physical training on becomming the best looking guy I could possibly be(12-16).
Some of the things I did to achieve this were honestly intense and would impress even the most resiliant of athletes now. Through this time I became known as the best body at a number of schools and my reputation grew.
But many things I found were wrong. Girls would never give me more than one real date at any time. Which was odd to me considering how attractive physically I had made myself and how nice I was to them. I was completely baffled as to how I could get so little action and absolute jerks had girls flocking to them despite there looks.
At the end of the year I met the girl in the first paragraph. she was a friend of my friend and we hit it off immediatly. She was clearly attracted to my external appearence as well as the fact I was relatively nice and funny when we met (liquid confidence on NYE). We started going out officially after two weeks and things were already rocky after the next two weeks.
I found myself seeking her validation at every turn. She was the sun to my world and I treated her as such (it makes me sick thinking about it). I called her every night and always wanted to know where she was. she wanted me to make moves on her physically but I was to afraid of losing her at the time that I was to concerned about how she spoke then how she acted. Finnally the time came when she told me she couldnt do it any more after 3 months.
Needless to say I went into a meltdown. Lots of depression (oh how can she do this to me when I've been so nice to her) all that jazz. A friend of mine had since discovered deangalos work and sent me his emails after realising how much she had got to me. This was the beginning
The articles openned my eyes to the PUA/DJ world. From then on all I did was find everything I could on the PUA way. I read the game, Thundercat, mysteries, Ross jefferies, The juggler and john alexanders books. I became over the next couple of months very good at being able to hook up with any women i wanted to at a party or a club. The youngest I've ever got at a club was 21 (Im 18).
But still despite all this something was missing. I could only interact on a social setting because I was still making these women the purpose of my life. Then another friend directed me to this site. Once again I found useful and insightful info. Ever since then I have become much more focused on achieving my own goals and am now back at university doing well in my course. going out 3 - 4 nights a week and doing a fair amount of sport.
When I was last with this girl it was two years ago exactly (I remember because my bday was the week before we broke up). And there is something I want to know. This girl was good to me. her words are still burnt into my mind from the day we broke up ('You dont give me anything I cant get from a friend'). I feel that the only way to find the end is to go back to the beginning. Is it truely inconcievable that with all the improvements physically, mentally, emotionally, finnancially and socially. And with all that i know now that I cant reverse this girls AFC view of me.
For some reason I feel My Dj journey will only truely be complete if and when I can acheive such a thing.
No flames required. No next calls. Just honest opinions would be appreciated. cheers
I've read similar threads on this site before but Im curious as to some of the answers given and the contexts in which it happens.
There is one girl who I acredit me starting my DJ journey to. Back at the time Of me being with her I was as AFC as you could imagine. In my mind I believed all women to be beautiful mystical creatures we should all treasure and adore. Never capabale of any real bad intentions or actions.
Armed with what I thought was golden knowledge I pursued what was soon to be my first real Girl friend. Now at this point I feel I should explain something about my past. I was brought up to think women would never resist a kind and good looking man. Because of this I spent 4 years of heavy physical training on becomming the best looking guy I could possibly be(12-16).
Some of the things I did to achieve this were honestly intense and would impress even the most resiliant of athletes now. Through this time I became known as the best body at a number of schools and my reputation grew.
But many things I found were wrong. Girls would never give me more than one real date at any time. Which was odd to me considering how attractive physically I had made myself and how nice I was to them. I was completely baffled as to how I could get so little action and absolute jerks had girls flocking to them despite there looks.
At the end of the year I met the girl in the first paragraph. she was a friend of my friend and we hit it off immediatly. She was clearly attracted to my external appearence as well as the fact I was relatively nice and funny when we met (liquid confidence on NYE). We started going out officially after two weeks and things were already rocky after the next two weeks.
I found myself seeking her validation at every turn. She was the sun to my world and I treated her as such (it makes me sick thinking about it). I called her every night and always wanted to know where she was. she wanted me to make moves on her physically but I was to afraid of losing her at the time that I was to concerned about how she spoke then how she acted. Finnally the time came when she told me she couldnt do it any more after 3 months.
Needless to say I went into a meltdown. Lots of depression (oh how can she do this to me when I've been so nice to her) all that jazz. A friend of mine had since discovered deangalos work and sent me his emails after realising how much she had got to me. This was the beginning
The articles openned my eyes to the PUA/DJ world. From then on all I did was find everything I could on the PUA way. I read the game, Thundercat, mysteries, Ross jefferies, The juggler and john alexanders books. I became over the next couple of months very good at being able to hook up with any women i wanted to at a party or a club. The youngest I've ever got at a club was 21 (Im 18).
But still despite all this something was missing. I could only interact on a social setting because I was still making these women the purpose of my life. Then another friend directed me to this site. Once again I found useful and insightful info. Ever since then I have become much more focused on achieving my own goals and am now back at university doing well in my course. going out 3 - 4 nights a week and doing a fair amount of sport.
When I was last with this girl it was two years ago exactly (I remember because my bday was the week before we broke up). And there is something I want to know. This girl was good to me. her words are still burnt into my mind from the day we broke up ('You dont give me anything I cant get from a friend'). I feel that the only way to find the end is to go back to the beginning. Is it truely inconcievable that with all the improvements physically, mentally, emotionally, finnancially and socially. And with all that i know now that I cant reverse this girls AFC view of me.
For some reason I feel My Dj journey will only truely be complete if and when I can acheive such a thing.
No flames required. No next calls. Just honest opinions would be appreciated. cheers
