I'm not really a stalker, been dating a girl who've I've become very close friends with on both a personal and physical level for the past 6 months. Last Tuesday I ate 2 Ambien that the doctor had given me samples of to sleep, never taken that stuff before and I don't do drugs. My roommate said I woke up at 1:30, said I was going for a sandwich and I left my apartment. I called him an hour later and told him i was lost and didn't know what I was doing. Well apaprently I walked to her house, 10 blocks away, i looked at her window...they are six feet high...and then I walked back home. Anyway she saw me. I remember none of this. I just know I woke up and her and I were done...can't remember anything.
I made contact with her yesterday, she immediately says "why are you contacting me, you are out of my life i don't want you as a friend". That was a pretty hard pill to swallow, but i get it. I mean I was sleep walking, but I get why she is freaked out. I asked her what I was doing there and she said "you came and you turned around"....so I wasn't prying or spying...no clue what I was doing. She said "the fact that you thought about me subconsciously scares me". My reply was "why wouldn't I, we have been together some months now". I then argued "why would I stalk someone who was already in my life, we had sex the day before". This went on for an hour, she kept calling me "stalker" and kept bringing up stuff she had read on the web...really blowing this up to be more than it is. I asked her about all the times in the past where I had asked to see her cell, her email or asked where she had been and she said "you've never done that". I then asked about how possesive I am and she says "you aren't like that". I then asked "how many times have I ever lied to you" and she says "you haven't"...until this you were great and I loved you...now my friend is gone and all that's left is an obsessive stalker. That really, really cut me.
My argument to her was "we should know each other well enough where you can tell how out of character that was for me". She said that is all in my head that I'm a stalker and everything I've ever done with her had a motive. Really crazy. So I started throwing it back in her face and started singing the Police song "every breath you take". She tells me how she wanted to be with me, but can't get over this. Finally she says "f you" and hangs up. This went on an hour, if she does not want me in her life why talk to me for an hour?
So i let it go, that was closure. An hour later the phone rings again and it's her. I pick up and say "please quit following me". She laughs and says "you are ridiculous, I just don't know what to do". We talk for a few and I tell her what bothers me the most is that my friend who I thought I was close to will not give me the benefit of the doubt here....can not see that was out of character. I am not violent, never raise my voice...so I just can't see how she can't see past it.
Am I wrong in my argument? I know I f'd up...but man I can't remember and feel violated by that medication. And 2) If she wanted me out of her life would she have called back? I know I have to disappear, but is there any hope that she will see it for what it was and eventually hit me up? Right now I am angry on multiple fronts about this, but I get it.
And oh, she had said she started a notebook with emails and things we had exchanged in the past. She pretty much got on the web and dramatized this up to be way worse than it actually is. I get it, but then again I really don't. I did call her back yesterday and say "hey, look in your rearview" we both laughed and I hung up.
I made contact with her yesterday, she immediately says "why are you contacting me, you are out of my life i don't want you as a friend". That was a pretty hard pill to swallow, but i get it. I mean I was sleep walking, but I get why she is freaked out. I asked her what I was doing there and she said "you came and you turned around"....so I wasn't prying or spying...no clue what I was doing. She said "the fact that you thought about me subconsciously scares me". My reply was "why wouldn't I, we have been together some months now". I then argued "why would I stalk someone who was already in my life, we had sex the day before". This went on for an hour, she kept calling me "stalker" and kept bringing up stuff she had read on the web...really blowing this up to be more than it is. I asked her about all the times in the past where I had asked to see her cell, her email or asked where she had been and she said "you've never done that". I then asked about how possesive I am and she says "you aren't like that". I then asked "how many times have I ever lied to you" and she says "you haven't"...until this you were great and I loved you...now my friend is gone and all that's left is an obsessive stalker. That really, really cut me.
My argument to her was "we should know each other well enough where you can tell how out of character that was for me". She said that is all in my head that I'm a stalker and everything I've ever done with her had a motive. Really crazy. So I started throwing it back in her face and started singing the Police song "every breath you take". She tells me how she wanted to be with me, but can't get over this. Finally she says "f you" and hangs up. This went on an hour, if she does not want me in her life why talk to me for an hour?
So i let it go, that was closure. An hour later the phone rings again and it's her. I pick up and say "please quit following me". She laughs and says "you are ridiculous, I just don't know what to do". We talk for a few and I tell her what bothers me the most is that my friend who I thought I was close to will not give me the benefit of the doubt here....can not see that was out of character. I am not violent, never raise my voice...so I just can't see how she can't see past it.
Am I wrong in my argument? I know I f'd up...but man I can't remember and feel violated by that medication. And 2) If she wanted me out of her life would she have called back? I know I have to disappear, but is there any hope that she will see it for what it was and eventually hit me up? Right now I am angry on multiple fronts about this, but I get it.
And oh, she had said she started a notebook with emails and things we had exchanged in the past. She pretty much got on the web and dramatized this up to be way worse than it actually is. I get it, but then again I really don't. I did call her back yesterday and say "hey, look in your rearview" we both laughed and I hung up.
