Long post: I wasn't always AFC. But somehow I became one and lost my game. Got involved with a BPD chick about a year and a half ago (didn't last too long) and had my world completely flipped upside down. Down the rabbit hole. Started looking at myself, and this site was a big part of that.
So, after being here quite awhile, I learned a hell of a lot. And I used it. And it worked. I finally learned, to not put the chick on a pedestal. To not go out of your way for them. To not take them too seriously, be a little jerkish, but also cool, give them all the little things that push their buttons. Be a aggressive, then hang back for awhile and be aloof, To LET THEM CHASE YOU. Shyt tests are just games and you need to rise above them. Chicks making you jealous, is just to see if you care and if you can take the heat, so don't let it get to you.
I've used this stuff at work (I know, company pier). So starting with BPD girl over a year ago, I've had three girls at work who have chased me and tried to conquer me, and I could feel myself getting stronger and more aware. The last one did me in. The DJ things I learned worked really well, to the point that the girl left her boyfriend. All over me, had her in the palm of my hand, but the guy was a four year relationship. I wanted to take it to the next level, but I kept thinking "Don't be the REBOUND guy" and I started freaking out. "What am I getting myself involved with? Give her time to get over the relationship--you work together, blah blah."
She threw a curveball at me one day, and I just blew it, walked right into her trap, and told her I cared about her. Thought that was it, over. But, I knew at that point, to just leave her the hell alone, and she started chasing me again, kinoing me, it was on again. We worked together, one day she got fired. I found her on myspace, she tried to make me jealous---didn't go so well. Now she's gone, like in another country gone. I thought that she was, wait for it.... the "one".
Just totally blindsided. It's been five weeks now. I don't know what the healing time is, but after five weeks, I'm starting to get embarrassed at myself for thinking of her. And I get mad, I think of all the good things, how could she just throw it away, and I know the real answer, is that she lost interest. That's hard for the ego to accept---that the chick who was completely obsessed with you for months, just loses interest when you make a few AFC moves. And the lame thing is, while it was happening, and while I was making the AFC moves, I thought "reset--you dummy! You know better than this! Don't tell her what you feel! Don't give in to the shyt tests! Don't track her down on myspace and send messages! AFC! Weak! Don't do it! It's against everything you've learned, and everything you KNOW works!" But I guess that wasn't enough to stop me. So that's why I feel embarrassed, that I knew what I was doing was weak---yet did it anyway.
It's like I learned enough to actually get in the ring, and stay in the fight for more rounds than I thought possible, but in the end the chick won and I got knocked out.
Obviously, it's oneitis, I know that. I don't know what I want now. I don't really want another girl just yet. One thing oneitis does, when you are honest with yourself--is it shines a light on all the stuff in your life that isn't working. You wouldn't GET oneitis if the other things in your life are fulfilling. I realize that, and am going to just work on my LIFE. Get a new job, write great music, learn to take care of myself first. I guess after NEEDING a girl is gone, the girls will come. Always seems to work that way. This is the first time in over a year I haven't been sort of involved, even if in the gaming stage, with a chick. It's kind of nice in a way.
Thanks for reading if you got this far. Did anyone here have experiences, where you thought you were on point, but still got smacked around? Getting your heart stomped on, actually turned out to help you in the long run?
So, after being here quite awhile, I learned a hell of a lot. And I used it. And it worked. I finally learned, to not put the chick on a pedestal. To not go out of your way for them. To not take them too seriously, be a little jerkish, but also cool, give them all the little things that push their buttons. Be a aggressive, then hang back for awhile and be aloof, To LET THEM CHASE YOU. Shyt tests are just games and you need to rise above them. Chicks making you jealous, is just to see if you care and if you can take the heat, so don't let it get to you.
I've used this stuff at work (I know, company pier). So starting with BPD girl over a year ago, I've had three girls at work who have chased me and tried to conquer me, and I could feel myself getting stronger and more aware. The last one did me in. The DJ things I learned worked really well, to the point that the girl left her boyfriend. All over me, had her in the palm of my hand, but the guy was a four year relationship. I wanted to take it to the next level, but I kept thinking "Don't be the REBOUND guy" and I started freaking out. "What am I getting myself involved with? Give her time to get over the relationship--you work together, blah blah."
She threw a curveball at me one day, and I just blew it, walked right into her trap, and told her I cared about her. Thought that was it, over. But, I knew at that point, to just leave her the hell alone, and she started chasing me again, kinoing me, it was on again. We worked together, one day she got fired. I found her on myspace, she tried to make me jealous---didn't go so well. Now she's gone, like in another country gone. I thought that she was, wait for it.... the "one".
Just totally blindsided. It's been five weeks now. I don't know what the healing time is, but after five weeks, I'm starting to get embarrassed at myself for thinking of her. And I get mad, I think of all the good things, how could she just throw it away, and I know the real answer, is that she lost interest. That's hard for the ego to accept---that the chick who was completely obsessed with you for months, just loses interest when you make a few AFC moves. And the lame thing is, while it was happening, and while I was making the AFC moves, I thought "reset--you dummy! You know better than this! Don't tell her what you feel! Don't give in to the shyt tests! Don't track her down on myspace and send messages! AFC! Weak! Don't do it! It's against everything you've learned, and everything you KNOW works!" But I guess that wasn't enough to stop me. So that's why I feel embarrassed, that I knew what I was doing was weak---yet did it anyway.
It's like I learned enough to actually get in the ring, and stay in the fight for more rounds than I thought possible, but in the end the chick won and I got knocked out.
Obviously, it's oneitis, I know that. I don't know what I want now. I don't really want another girl just yet. One thing oneitis does, when you are honest with yourself--is it shines a light on all the stuff in your life that isn't working. You wouldn't GET oneitis if the other things in your life are fulfilling. I realize that, and am going to just work on my LIFE. Get a new job, write great music, learn to take care of myself first. I guess after NEEDING a girl is gone, the girls will come. Always seems to work that way. This is the first time in over a year I haven't been sort of involved, even if in the gaming stage, with a chick. It's kind of nice in a way.
Thanks for reading if you got this far. Did anyone here have experiences, where you thought you were on point, but still got smacked around? Getting your heart stomped on, actually turned out to help you in the long run?