Woman/Emotional overload?

[ThunderMaverick]

I just feel a little icky/horny/conflicted today. I felt worse last night before going to bed. I always feel this when I don't think I'm saying enough to someone. Maybe it's something TM needs to get over, eh?

Ok, met this girl a month ago while I was at work. Made out in her car a few days ago after dinner. (That's another embarassing story, but it ended up working out. You guys would be really disappointed if you heard it. LAWL.) After making out she literally tells me "I would love to have sex with you". Tuesday we get a hotel and then begins an entire night of several hardcore f**k bouts. The morning came and we went a few more rounds. We say our goodbyes and that was it. Cool.

Didn't get much sleep so I took a nap and totally forgot I had another date with this girl later in the evening. I wasn't looking forward to it at all because her personality is just...blagh. She's one of those girls who talks about how great she is and how awful everyone else is. Just a typical California gossip girl. We had some slight sexual chemistry going on a few years ago and we touched base a month or so ago. She liked me before, but recently I don't know what's gotten into her. She's become this kind of sex starved maniac and sees me as a main course.

Knowing her, she was a total c0cktease and that's why me and her had kind of a falling out. Lo and behold it seemed she didn't change. Everytime I would try to put my hands somewhere below the belt I got a TON of resistance. She just kept saying "NO NO! Don't do that! You're driving me crazy! I'm going to *** in my pants if you keep doing that!" I'm thinking she's full of sh1t and we volley back and forth with this childish B.S. for a few minutes.

I didn't care anymore. I say "screw it. I'm really gong to just end it here." I whip out my c0ck and started playing with it in front of her. I was just talking really dirty crap saying "Yeah look how hard it is. You want that? HUH!? You want that c0ck!?" Semi-joking. I was actually laughing at myself on the inside for this circus I was putting on. She just stares at it for a few seconds and the ask "can I give it a little kiss?" O_O I tell her sure and she goes into a full on bl0wjob. Great head guys, I'm telling you. She then resist again! "NO! I can't do this!" So dramatic, it's making me sick. I tell her "I'm going to ***" just jerking it like mad this time. As soon as the first shot went off, almost like an instinctive reflex she starts sucking my **** in the middle of my ejaculation. Unbelievable, gentlemen. I'm making all sorts of chimpanzee noises while she's sucking out every ounce of me and it's wild.

She comes up for air, with just a little bit of my *** on the corner of her mouth, looks at me and says "YUM. You're c0ck taste so good." Agh. She was amazing. Why does she have to be so dumb??

Why do I feel bad? I mean I've told both of these girls I don't want a relationship. I told them that I was still getting over my ex and I didn't want any emotional ties. I even told the girl who blew me that i had casual sex with someone "very recently". Maybe If I told the girl earlier that I was going on a date later that day or if I told the girl later that day that I ****ed someone in the morning I'd have a clearer conscience.

Maybe the ex has something to do with it. We've talked recently. (That's a whole nuther story.) I think I actually like the girl I met at work though. I'd like to keep dating her.

I DUNNO right now. I'm just vomiting my feelings right now. Please hold my head over the toilet, my friends. hahaha

 

[ThunderMaverick]

Well... I mean I was always capable of doing things like that in the past before, but I was always timid about it. This time I just decided to give it a go. I tried being as honest as I could without ruining the moment for both girls. I'm trying to pinpoint why I feel like this. I told them both they couldn't compete for my feelings. I told them I was exhausted from my latest relationship and that I didn't want to hold any obligations to ANYONE.

What's the problem? Trying to find it.

 

[Interceptor]

Maybe he feels it's meaningless.

No attachment. No emotional investment on his part.

And perhaps he feels it was too 'easy', perhaps not enough of a challenge to get these girls.
And since he feels they're 'dumb', they're just not 'worth' anything to him.


Or maybe they were just uglier than an I don't know what.............

 

[ThunderMaverick]

No, the girl who swallowed my c** is a solid 6. Very sexual and will do ANYTHING in the bedroom. The girl I slept with is easily an 8. Perfect body. Pretty face. She's Spanish and German. She out here in L.A. to be an "actress". Aren't they all. I actually LIKE the girl I slept with. I feel slightly obligated to sleep with the 6. The girl I slept with is 19 also, so I know nothing really serious can come out of it. I think that's kinda making me a little sad. The emotional immaturity that's bound to surface in the long run. I know she needs to grow up first.

Damn, she was wonderful. That intimacy that ST8UP was talking about; That's what she gave me. It's been a long time since I had something like that and I really enjoyed it. I mean sleeping with the other girls after my relationship ended was nice, but there wasn't really any kind of "intimacy". Psh!


Edit: One thing I can say that most guys on this site can't say; I've never slept with an ugly or overweight chick. They've all been hot. I'm proud of myself as far as that's concerned. Lol

 

[reset]

One thing I can say that most guys on this site can't say; I've never slept with an ugly or overweight chick. They've all been hot. I'm proud of myself as far as that's concerned. Lol

Dude you're cool!

 

[NewMan]

so you feel guilty because you've been pre programmed that you just shouldn't pump and dump a chick.

or do you feel icky because you don't care about her and are just putting up with her in order to get a nut?

either way it's all in your head. Your not being deceitfull - and even if you were - does it matter?

I say keep nutting until you can't put up with it any longer, or until she pressures you for more.

It's your head game.

 

[ThunderMaverick]

Dude you're cool!

Trust me, you don't have to tell me that! I don't know if you've seen my pictures, but I'm definitely not a bad looking guy. I don't have sex or settle with chicks I don't find attractive. That's just me though. *shrugs*

Yeah NewMan, I think you're right. Egh. I mean me and the 19 year old have a lot of chemistry. I just really wish she was a few years older. I get along with her great and we have a lot in common. I felt slightly dirty about a girl swallowing my *** and I don't give two drops of monkey piss about. She's really into me however. I mean she SERIOUSLY likes me, and I know that she's responsible for what she does. I laid it down for her what I want and she said she understood. I don't think she'll be emotionally responsible though. That's what worries me. I don't want her to think I'm leading her on.

 

[NewMan]

I laid it down for her what I want and she said she understood. I don't think she'll be emotionally responsible though. That's what worries me. I don't want her to think I'm leading her on.

they never are emotionally responsible - and there's your head again, raising the guilt.

sometimes you just need to think with the little head as well.