OK, so I'll probably come across as being pretty pathetic but I suppose I'm fairly anonymus here so I'm going to spill my guts. I need opinions and hopefully some advice.
I'm in my mid fifties but when you take into account how long I was married and been divorced a few years now I've been away from this game since I was 30 years old. Although I was a teacher for years I presently just work for a medically related company as courier. I'd have to say I'm not especially good looking but am friendly and have a pretty good sense of humor and honestly always had beautiful girlfriends.
One of the stops I make is a medical clinic. About a year ago I walked in for the first time and there was this beautiful young Hispanic (Americanized)woman. Big beautiful eyes. Got me the second I looked into them. I figure she may be about 25. Can't really say. She's old enough to have a 6 year old child. Each time I've gone in I'd stay a little longer and we'd talk about all different things.
Now I don't know if it was just wishful thinking or if I was misenterpreting signals and body language. She is always smiling at me. When we talk she leans toward me and tilts her head and runs her fingers through her hair. Sometime she's twirling her hair as she's talking. She adjusts her clothes and hair when I walk in the room. There have been little things that lead me to believe there might be some interest there on her part. For instance I gave her some coupons for a fair she was going to and she said "I'll think about you when I have it." Or when talking about a movie she slipped in the comment, "I'm always up for a movie." But at the time I figured that's all she meant. I didn't read anything into it.
So being slow and cautious I just let things continue the way they were and just looked forward to my favorite part of the day when I'd stop a her place. A friend of mine said go ahead and ask her out. He said sometimes women go for older guys. So after a couple of weeks of gathering up my courage (I'm extremely afraid of rejection) I go in to ask her. As we are talking some little weasel doctor who I never saw before comes walking in the room and goes up to her and puts his hand on her shoulder and they look at each other and smile. At that moment I'm thinking "Oh f**k!" So I didn't ask her. Over the weekend I figured I'm going to go ahead and ask her anyway. So the next Monday I go in but chicken out because there were a number of patients sitting there. I wait a couple of hours and call her on the phone. I knew she was already doing something with her family on Friday but I asked if she would like to go out this weekend for dinner and drinks. She answers with a weak "Maybe." So I respond, "I'll take that as a no." (I know, in retrospect I'm a dumbass.) And she says, "I kind of have plans already. I'm going to such and such a place with one of the doctors from the clinic." At that point I'm disappointed so I don't exactly remember what I said other than well I'll see you tomorrow. The next day I went in and before we talked about anything else I just said, "Listen the offer I made yesterday remains open. If and when you want to do something let me know." And then we just continued into small talk. I don't know if it was her or me but there was just something missing from the vibes I used to get.
For business reasons there has not been a reason for me to be there now for two weeks. So I drive around all day thinking of all the things I should have done. Was the comment like, "I'm always up for a movie," a hint to me I didn't pick up on? Is doctor paws pawing her now? Is he screwing her on the weekend? What chance do I have vs. a doctor? And on and on. I know, I obsessing but I put a lot of psychic energy in this for a year.
OK, so let me have it. Tell me what a dumbs**t I am. Knock some sense into my head. But I'd also like to hear suggestions of where to proceed from her. Thanks.
OG
I'm in my mid fifties but when you take into account how long I was married and been divorced a few years now I've been away from this game since I was 30 years old. Although I was a teacher for years I presently just work for a medically related company as courier. I'd have to say I'm not especially good looking but am friendly and have a pretty good sense of humor and honestly always had beautiful girlfriends.
One of the stops I make is a medical clinic. About a year ago I walked in for the first time and there was this beautiful young Hispanic (Americanized)woman. Big beautiful eyes. Got me the second I looked into them. I figure she may be about 25. Can't really say. She's old enough to have a 6 year old child. Each time I've gone in I'd stay a little longer and we'd talk about all different things.
Now I don't know if it was just wishful thinking or if I was misenterpreting signals and body language. She is always smiling at me. When we talk she leans toward me and tilts her head and runs her fingers through her hair. Sometime she's twirling her hair as she's talking. She adjusts her clothes and hair when I walk in the room. There have been little things that lead me to believe there might be some interest there on her part. For instance I gave her some coupons for a fair she was going to and she said "I'll think about you when I have it." Or when talking about a movie she slipped in the comment, "I'm always up for a movie." But at the time I figured that's all she meant. I didn't read anything into it.
So being slow and cautious I just let things continue the way they were and just looked forward to my favorite part of the day when I'd stop a her place. A friend of mine said go ahead and ask her out. He said sometimes women go for older guys. So after a couple of weeks of gathering up my courage (I'm extremely afraid of rejection) I go in to ask her. As we are talking some little weasel doctor who I never saw before comes walking in the room and goes up to her and puts his hand on her shoulder and they look at each other and smile. At that moment I'm thinking "Oh f**k!" So I didn't ask her. Over the weekend I figured I'm going to go ahead and ask her anyway. So the next Monday I go in but chicken out because there were a number of patients sitting there. I wait a couple of hours and call her on the phone. I knew she was already doing something with her family on Friday but I asked if she would like to go out this weekend for dinner and drinks. She answers with a weak "Maybe." So I respond, "I'll take that as a no." (I know, in retrospect I'm a dumbass.) And she says, "I kind of have plans already. I'm going to such and such a place with one of the doctors from the clinic." At that point I'm disappointed so I don't exactly remember what I said other than well I'll see you tomorrow. The next day I went in and before we talked about anything else I just said, "Listen the offer I made yesterday remains open. If and when you want to do something let me know." And then we just continued into small talk. I don't know if it was her or me but there was just something missing from the vibes I used to get.
For business reasons there has not been a reason for me to be there now for two weeks. So I drive around all day thinking of all the things I should have done. Was the comment like, "I'm always up for a movie," a hint to me I didn't pick up on? Is doctor paws pawing her now? Is he screwing her on the weekend? What chance do I have vs. a doctor? And on and on. I know, I obsessing but I put a lot of psychic energy in this for a year.
OK, so let me have it. Tell me what a dumbs**t I am. Knock some sense into my head. But I'd also like to hear suggestions of where to proceed from her. Thanks.
OG