K so I'm going to tell you my journey of being broken hearted because I was an idiot. She was my first love and first gf. I basically met her on CL, she suffered from depression and daddy issues. Even though we were fwb we were getting along great. Really liked her personality, she was like my best friend and lover. We went through some **** though, I got the clap from her but i forgave her since it was something from the past. After that we, well she had an abortion She had daddy issues where her dad would put her down and I would console her. She was also on anti-depressants but she would have bad days and stay in bed. I would come over and help her all the time she got like this. During last summer she did an internship in another country where i came to visit her. We did ldr for 5 months or so. She came back and lived with me and my parents place for a month. Her family is in a different city and she couldnt find a place in time when school started.
So fast forward a few months and my mom and her get into an argument becasue of something silly that I wasnt invited to her family gathering. After that she wanted me to move out, which I agreed too but I am working and going to school full time as well and my University is like 15 mins with my car. So whats the point of getting a ****ty basement to rent. During xmas she starts acting weird and wants me to move out more and more. I finally say that I will later on, after summer to save $ and get something decent to rent.
Fast forward to a few days after Valentines and she says "I don't think we should be seeing each other anymore". Me of course I was devastated asking why, how, I thought you love me, blah blah blah. She has no idea why, that its her gut feeling, that she loves me but doesnt know why and all other bs. So we break up and I'm weak and im being a huge ***** about it. I text her asking why and I dont get it. So her birthday is right around the corner when she dumped me so I actually have the gift for her as well. I give them to her as "a friend". She likes them as they are very sentimental ****. After I leave her place I came to peace and accepted the fact that shes gone for good now. Not knowing why.
The next day I get a text saying how nice the earrings are. I ignore it. She texts me at the end of the night and she says that "she now knows why she wanted to break up. She found answers.".... So we meet up nextweek and tells me that its because I live at home and I tell her my plan and we get back together. She grabs me kisses me. She says that we should "take it slow" (whatever the **** that means). So a week into this reconciliation she gets the stomach flu and I take care of her. She has no family here and her friends are not in the city. I clean, cook, bring food and do other Cinderella **** for her. I mean I love her, why wouldn't I take care of my girl? So I do this for 3 days. She gets better and a few days later I get a text that "we went too fast", and its basically over.
She was always the needy one, asking to be cuddled and to tell her that I love her. Then she just wants to stop seeing eachother. There were no signs of her ending like that. She was affectionate, loving and caring till the end.
I get ****ing pissed off and blast her on facebook (I know, I was drunk, pissed, hurt and angry). She proceeds to block me like I'm scum. Whatever I blasted her on facebook wasn't a lie though, it was the bitter truth of how I helped her in life and how I got repaid by being ****ted on. The sad thing is that I miss her and love her.... Why would she just dump me like that out of nowhere? And to be dumped for living at home while attending school and work. I got no debt becasue of that and shes in some heavy debt. Its funny though, the 2 times we broke up she pulled some stupid line "Maybe one day our paths will cross in the future." and "Goodbye for now.". Like Im waiting for her.
So fast forward a few months and my mom and her get into an argument becasue of something silly that I wasnt invited to her family gathering. After that she wanted me to move out, which I agreed too but I am working and going to school full time as well and my University is like 15 mins with my car. So whats the point of getting a ****ty basement to rent. During xmas she starts acting weird and wants me to move out more and more. I finally say that I will later on, after summer to save $ and get something decent to rent.
Fast forward to a few days after Valentines and she says "I don't think we should be seeing each other anymore". Me of course I was devastated asking why, how, I thought you love me, blah blah blah. She has no idea why, that its her gut feeling, that she loves me but doesnt know why and all other bs. So we break up and I'm weak and im being a huge ***** about it. I text her asking why and I dont get it. So her birthday is right around the corner when she dumped me so I actually have the gift for her as well. I give them to her as "a friend". She likes them as they are very sentimental ****. After I leave her place I came to peace and accepted the fact that shes gone for good now. Not knowing why.
The next day I get a text saying how nice the earrings are. I ignore it. She texts me at the end of the night and she says that "she now knows why she wanted to break up. She found answers.".... So we meet up nextweek and tells me that its because I live at home and I tell her my plan and we get back together. She grabs me kisses me. She says that we should "take it slow" (whatever the **** that means). So a week into this reconciliation she gets the stomach flu and I take care of her. She has no family here and her friends are not in the city. I clean, cook, bring food and do other Cinderella **** for her. I mean I love her, why wouldn't I take care of my girl? So I do this for 3 days. She gets better and a few days later I get a text that "we went too fast", and its basically over.
She was always the needy one, asking to be cuddled and to tell her that I love her. Then she just wants to stop seeing eachother. There were no signs of her ending like that. She was affectionate, loving and caring till the end.
I get ****ing pissed off and blast her on facebook (I know, I was drunk, pissed, hurt and angry). She proceeds to block me like I'm scum. Whatever I blasted her on facebook wasn't a lie though, it was the bitter truth of how I helped her in life and how I got repaid by being ****ted on. The sad thing is that I miss her and love her.... Why would she just dump me like that out of nowhere? And to be dumped for living at home while attending school and work. I got no debt becasue of that and shes in some heavy debt. Its funny though, the 2 times we broke up she pulled some stupid line "Maybe one day our paths will cross in the future." and "Goodbye for now.". Like Im waiting for her.
at least you can look at your life and relationship truthfully now, accept it, and begin to move forward. Today is a new day my man.
