Crissco
Master Don Juan
Ok, so ill give you guys a backstory and explain the situation. More of a vent thread then anything but definitely want opinions.
I had a tough time growing up, dad wasn't around much during high school, cheated on my mom a couple of years before, naturally they got divorced. Had 7 people in my house at one time since my parents ended up taking my cousins in. It was tough, but manageable. I moved in with my father 5 years ago, from my mothers house. Its OKAY here, Im able to have girls over..etc...Had my fun, a lot of it in the past 5 years here. But recently, my brother moved in. Hes 21, plays video games all day. I love him, I really do but im used to having the house to my self very often as my dads not home to much. Which is cool, I enjoy my alone time.
I work as a web developer from home. Business is slow, is my fault and I take full accountability. I don't have a college degree, I have design skills and have been applying to jobs like crazy, got 5 emails back yesterday just from one day of applying, but it seems my skills arent up to par in what they are looking for.
My dad is turning 60 this year, the man gets woman are 19 years old, hot chicks too. All the credit in the world. But, every time something goes wrong, who has to hear it? Me. Because he knows I am good with chicks also and know how to keep them around. He argues with them all the time, trying to change their "mind" logically. I have been telling him for years, change the mood not the mind...im starting to realize his reality, is NOT reality. He cant take blame or accountability for anything and it basically just sucks.
Two nights ago, had a 2 second talk, and he compared to me to his "GF" and about how we both "push his buttons" and he said "Oh you do what she does, I just want to rip your faces off...etc"...And he has hit me, multiple times out of anger. Whatever it may be the I dont remember what exactly he said since he turned his head away, had a dumbas* sarcastic smile and said something about "people not allowing to say what they want around him" - Like hes a God or something. I legit looked at him and said "Anyone can say what they want" and walked away. He treates me differently then everyone else, not one time in my life have i had him cracking up, I made the whole room laugh but he was their with his head down as he felt "emasculated" almost it seems.
Its sad, it really is, a 60 year old man im supposed to look up to, whos mood changes like the weather and is not in reality. I love him also, he has done a lot for me and is very patient, In Ways...But overall, the big pictures, its pretty pathetic.
Anyway, I need to move out, get out of here, its my brothers time to be here and "toughen up" now. I have some hurdles though. Not alot of money. Also, how am i going to present it to my dad, since his mood changes so often I never know when to say what, its like im walking on eggshells at 27,28 years old. This is not the way it should be.
This need to change, they need to change now. Im not sure how much longer I can do this. Just a matter of time before..Sh*t happens....Yet again.
Crissco
I had a tough time growing up, dad wasn't around much during high school, cheated on my mom a couple of years before, naturally they got divorced. Had 7 people in my house at one time since my parents ended up taking my cousins in. It was tough, but manageable. I moved in with my father 5 years ago, from my mothers house. Its OKAY here, Im able to have girls over..etc...Had my fun, a lot of it in the past 5 years here. But recently, my brother moved in. Hes 21, plays video games all day. I love him, I really do but im used to having the house to my self very often as my dads not home to much. Which is cool, I enjoy my alone time.
I work as a web developer from home. Business is slow, is my fault and I take full accountability. I don't have a college degree, I have design skills and have been applying to jobs like crazy, got 5 emails back yesterday just from one day of applying, but it seems my skills arent up to par in what they are looking for.
My dad is turning 60 this year, the man gets woman are 19 years old, hot chicks too. All the credit in the world. But, every time something goes wrong, who has to hear it? Me. Because he knows I am good with chicks also and know how to keep them around. He argues with them all the time, trying to change their "mind" logically. I have been telling him for years, change the mood not the mind...im starting to realize his reality, is NOT reality. He cant take blame or accountability for anything and it basically just sucks.
Two nights ago, had a 2 second talk, and he compared to me to his "GF" and about how we both "push his buttons" and he said "Oh you do what she does, I just want to rip your faces off...etc"...And he has hit me, multiple times out of anger. Whatever it may be the I dont remember what exactly he said since he turned his head away, had a dumbas* sarcastic smile and said something about "people not allowing to say what they want around him" - Like hes a God or something. I legit looked at him and said "Anyone can say what they want" and walked away. He treates me differently then everyone else, not one time in my life have i had him cracking up, I made the whole room laugh but he was their with his head down as he felt "emasculated" almost it seems.
Its sad, it really is, a 60 year old man im supposed to look up to, whos mood changes like the weather and is not in reality. I love him also, he has done a lot for me and is very patient, In Ways...But overall, the big pictures, its pretty pathetic.
Anyway, I need to move out, get out of here, its my brothers time to be here and "toughen up" now. I have some hurdles though. Not alot of money. Also, how am i going to present it to my dad, since his mood changes so often I never know when to say what, its like im walking on eggshells at 27,28 years old. This is not the way it should be.
This need to change, they need to change now. Im not sure how much longer I can do this. Just a matter of time before..Sh*t happens....Yet again.
Crissco