Well, this is going to take a long time to type out... and it may have a lot of arbitrary details, but I want some advice.
There is this girl that goes to my school, Cydni (no, not a typo). We have the same chemistry class and she sits beside me right now. Originally, I wasn't interested in her but here goes the story....
She asked me for some homework help online some weeks ago. So I tried to help her when I noticed that she messaged me. It was too late but she ended up thinking what I did was sweet, blah, blah, blah.
I found out about a week later that she plays volleyball and that she was going to go to the Georgia World Congress Center to play volleyball. This ties in because my mom asked me the day of the event if I wanted to go there because my cousin was going to be playing there. So I messaged her online that I was going to be there and she messaged back asking for my number and whether I was going to be there again. I told her I might but never ended up going because I was sick the next day.
Anyways, so I have some ****ty go phone and my minutes cost a ton of money so I asked her if she had an AIM screenname about a month ago (wow, I can't believe it's been that long ago, really, I just checked my texts to see when exactly I asked her). So we talk about this and that and other random stuff until her boyfriend apparently started treating her like **** a week ago and wouldn't go to prom with her, for whatever reason.
So, she sends me clues that maybe she wants to go to prom with me at school... but she gives me them only one freaking day before prom. In her words, she tells me her stupid boyfriend doesn't want to go to prom with her so I'm thinking that maybe I should ask her to prom (I wasn't really very into her at this point), but it was too late and I wasn't totally for sure that she would say yes anyways. I didn't have a date to prom (I'm shy and there wasn't anyone I actually wanted to go with - no homo) and then some weird **** ensues later on the night before prom.
She gets on AIM and she tells me she still doesn't understand why I didn't ask anyone to prom. Then, I could tell where this conversation was going... and she ends up calling me a stud, etc. then she finally unloads by saying that there is a tall blonde genius in her chemistry class that she wants to go to prom with (i.e. me). So, now that she gets this out, she says we should go see a movie that weekend... I said I couldn't go until next weekend so we decided on this past Friday.
This marks a turning point. From that point forward, she dominated my thoughts and gave me some pretty bad anxiety for the whole week. I also didn't know whether this was really a date or her just trying to forget about her ex that she broke up with because she did talk about how upset she was and how bad she felt because the two of them broke it off (BTW, before she broke up with her ex, she tried to talk to me about him but whenever she texted me about him or whatnot, I would always try to avoid the issue. I don't care to hear what she says about her boyfriend). I was terribly confused and still am...
About the anxiety, I was always really nervous when she was around in chemistry. I couldn't help it. It was killing me. I went from not giving two ****s about her to being basically obsessed with her.
Friday eventually comes around, then we went to the movies. I did all of the traditional date stuff (or at least I thought so), like buy all the stuff, meet her parents, give her a gift, etc. I was definitely nervous when I arrived and met her parents, but I wasn't too nervous after that (a little nervous but I don't really think I showed it). I kept conversation going well on the ride there and asked her a lot of questions about herself.
The movie sucked. I told her I thought it wasn't scary for a scary movie. I think she thought it was good.
Then, the car ride back. She kept talking about some movies I had never even heard of and asked me if I knew them so, me being the type that doesn't really get too interested in pop culture, I knew none of them. Then she talked about how bad of a driver her ex is.
I thought the date sucked. I don't know if I should have high expectations for dates or whatnot, but I decided not to kiss her (or at least try) when I let her go. I told her on AIM that I thought it was boring, ya know, just to be straight-up with her. I wasn't really that interested in her after the date.
But now I'm having second thoughts... like maybe I made a rash judgement off one night. Like, maybe I had my expectations too high.
Nevertheless, I think I'm going to tell her I'm not going to use AIM any more. She sits beside me in chemistry so that's going to be a hard task but I'm going to just try talking to other people and finish out this school year strong and not worry about her or any other girls.
Do you think she was actually into me or just using me as a pawn to get over the loss of her boyfriend? I mean, she was the one who initiated everything, so there must have been some interest somewhere, right?
How can I stop thinking about this? I want to get my mind on other things but I just can't stop thinking about it.
Anyways, thanks for reading, whether or not you actually reply.
There is this girl that goes to my school, Cydni (no, not a typo). We have the same chemistry class and she sits beside me right now. Originally, I wasn't interested in her but here goes the story....
She asked me for some homework help online some weeks ago. So I tried to help her when I noticed that she messaged me. It was too late but she ended up thinking what I did was sweet, blah, blah, blah.
I found out about a week later that she plays volleyball and that she was going to go to the Georgia World Congress Center to play volleyball. This ties in because my mom asked me the day of the event if I wanted to go there because my cousin was going to be playing there. So I messaged her online that I was going to be there and she messaged back asking for my number and whether I was going to be there again. I told her I might but never ended up going because I was sick the next day.
Anyways, so I have some ****ty go phone and my minutes cost a ton of money so I asked her if she had an AIM screenname about a month ago (wow, I can't believe it's been that long ago, really, I just checked my texts to see when exactly I asked her). So we talk about this and that and other random stuff until her boyfriend apparently started treating her like **** a week ago and wouldn't go to prom with her, for whatever reason.
So, she sends me clues that maybe she wants to go to prom with me at school... but she gives me them only one freaking day before prom. In her words, she tells me her stupid boyfriend doesn't want to go to prom with her so I'm thinking that maybe I should ask her to prom (I wasn't really very into her at this point), but it was too late and I wasn't totally for sure that she would say yes anyways. I didn't have a date to prom (I'm shy and there wasn't anyone I actually wanted to go with - no homo) and then some weird **** ensues later on the night before prom.
She gets on AIM and she tells me she still doesn't understand why I didn't ask anyone to prom. Then, I could tell where this conversation was going... and she ends up calling me a stud, etc. then she finally unloads by saying that there is a tall blonde genius in her chemistry class that she wants to go to prom with (i.e. me). So, now that she gets this out, she says we should go see a movie that weekend... I said I couldn't go until next weekend so we decided on this past Friday.
This marks a turning point. From that point forward, she dominated my thoughts and gave me some pretty bad anxiety for the whole week. I also didn't know whether this was really a date or her just trying to forget about her ex that she broke up with because she did talk about how upset she was and how bad she felt because the two of them broke it off (BTW, before she broke up with her ex, she tried to talk to me about him but whenever she texted me about him or whatnot, I would always try to avoid the issue. I don't care to hear what she says about her boyfriend). I was terribly confused and still am...
About the anxiety, I was always really nervous when she was around in chemistry. I couldn't help it. It was killing me. I went from not giving two ****s about her to being basically obsessed with her.
Friday eventually comes around, then we went to the movies. I did all of the traditional date stuff (or at least I thought so), like buy all the stuff, meet her parents, give her a gift, etc. I was definitely nervous when I arrived and met her parents, but I wasn't too nervous after that (a little nervous but I don't really think I showed it). I kept conversation going well on the ride there and asked her a lot of questions about herself.
The movie sucked. I told her I thought it wasn't scary for a scary movie. I think she thought it was good.
Then, the car ride back. She kept talking about some movies I had never even heard of and asked me if I knew them so, me being the type that doesn't really get too interested in pop culture, I knew none of them. Then she talked about how bad of a driver her ex is.
I thought the date sucked. I don't know if I should have high expectations for dates or whatnot, but I decided not to kiss her (or at least try) when I let her go. I told her on AIM that I thought it was boring, ya know, just to be straight-up with her. I wasn't really that interested in her after the date.
But now I'm having second thoughts... like maybe I made a rash judgement off one night. Like, maybe I had my expectations too high.
Nevertheless, I think I'm going to tell her I'm not going to use AIM any more. She sits beside me in chemistry so that's going to be a hard task but I'm going to just try talking to other people and finish out this school year strong and not worry about her or any other girls.
Do you think she was actually into me or just using me as a pawn to get over the loss of her boyfriend? I mean, she was the one who initiated everything, so there must have been some interest somewhere, right?
How can I stop thinking about this? I want to get my mind on other things but I just can't stop thinking about it.
Anyways, thanks for reading, whether or not you actually reply.