FatHairyM4F
Don Juan
On the one hand I want a gf. Not just date, not hang out with women, not just go out and get laid, but a gf. A serious committed relationship, and I want this for several reasons.
1) Because it would be an ego boost to be seen with her assuming she's cute (and if she's not that's out of the question), at least a 6 or 7 in the looks dept. 2) it would also be an ego boost to be able to say I have a gf, talk about what I did with my girlfriend over the weekend, etc 3) I have a tickling fetish, and I honestly want to tickle a good looking woman much more than I want to have sex with her. Ordinarily what I do is, when I can afford it go out to places (massage parlors, gentleman's clubs, etc) and pay women to let me tickle them, then go home and masturbate. But that gets expensive and so I can't afford to do it often so it would be more cost-effective to have a gf that I could do that stuff with for free, and whenever I wanted. 4) probably most importantly, having a reasonably good looking woman hanging all over me, especially in public, and being really into me would make me feel attractive, important, etc. I know I know, people always say that a woman doing those things wouldn't make me feel better about myself because it has to come from within blah blah blah. Well I would really rather find out for myself if having a cute gf doing the things I want would make me feel good about myself, rather than taking someone's word for it.
On the other hand, there are reasons why I may not enjoy having a relationship. 1) I've always felt it would be so nice to bang a lot of different women, even though my true urges are to tickle them, because I'm very insecure about my attractiveness to women. And so by having sexual conquests, notches in my belt, I would (I believe) feel more secure in my attractiveness to women, rather than feeling I just settled for a relationship with one woman because she's all I could get. 2) I don't like kids. Which with all the talk on here about how women sh*t test because they're looking for the best genes to have offspring with, will probably disqualify me from most women. They would just be an inconvenience to me and I can't stand being inconvenienced. I just don't see where having kids would be worth my time effort and money. And besides that, taking care of myself is quite enough responsibility for me without being responsible for kids. 3) this is tied into #2. I like my "me time". In fact, if I had my way, my life 24/7 would be "me time" if I didn't have to work. "Me time" for me is playing PS2 and going on the internet, end of list. A girlfriend would want me to take her out places, and just basically do bf/gf things. And that would be inconvenient, and you know how I feel about inconvenience. Ideally I guess I would like to have a gf who is there when I want her, and then goes away until I want her again. 4) I just don't have much that would make a woman want me, and I don't think I care enough to change. And I actually resent HAVING to have something that would give me "value" in a woman's eyes. I just want a woman to take me as I am. I'm fat, lazy, needy, clingy, selfish, insecure, timid, passive, VERY MUCH lacking in self-confidence, a recluse, have no desire for new things or new experiences, and am basically just killing time until I die.
Assuming I do decide that I want to try having my first gf (I'm about to turn 34), assuming I even decide one way or another, for my purposes and my needs what kind of woman would be good for me and any tips on finding women like that?
1) Because it would be an ego boost to be seen with her assuming she's cute (and if she's not that's out of the question), at least a 6 or 7 in the looks dept. 2) it would also be an ego boost to be able to say I have a gf, talk about what I did with my girlfriend over the weekend, etc 3) I have a tickling fetish, and I honestly want to tickle a good looking woman much more than I want to have sex with her. Ordinarily what I do is, when I can afford it go out to places (massage parlors, gentleman's clubs, etc) and pay women to let me tickle them, then go home and masturbate. But that gets expensive and so I can't afford to do it often so it would be more cost-effective to have a gf that I could do that stuff with for free, and whenever I wanted. 4) probably most importantly, having a reasonably good looking woman hanging all over me, especially in public, and being really into me would make me feel attractive, important, etc. I know I know, people always say that a woman doing those things wouldn't make me feel better about myself because it has to come from within blah blah blah. Well I would really rather find out for myself if having a cute gf doing the things I want would make me feel good about myself, rather than taking someone's word for it.
On the other hand, there are reasons why I may not enjoy having a relationship. 1) I've always felt it would be so nice to bang a lot of different women, even though my true urges are to tickle them, because I'm very insecure about my attractiveness to women. And so by having sexual conquests, notches in my belt, I would (I believe) feel more secure in my attractiveness to women, rather than feeling I just settled for a relationship with one woman because she's all I could get. 2) I don't like kids. Which with all the talk on here about how women sh*t test because they're looking for the best genes to have offspring with, will probably disqualify me from most women. They would just be an inconvenience to me and I can't stand being inconvenienced. I just don't see where having kids would be worth my time effort and money. And besides that, taking care of myself is quite enough responsibility for me without being responsible for kids. 3) this is tied into #2. I like my "me time". In fact, if I had my way, my life 24/7 would be "me time" if I didn't have to work. "Me time" for me is playing PS2 and going on the internet, end of list. A girlfriend would want me to take her out places, and just basically do bf/gf things. And that would be inconvenient, and you know how I feel about inconvenience. Ideally I guess I would like to have a gf who is there when I want her, and then goes away until I want her again. 4) I just don't have much that would make a woman want me, and I don't think I care enough to change. And I actually resent HAVING to have something that would give me "value" in a woman's eyes. I just want a woman to take me as I am. I'm fat, lazy, needy, clingy, selfish, insecure, timid, passive, VERY MUCH lacking in self-confidence, a recluse, have no desire for new things or new experiences, and am basically just killing time until I die.
Assuming I do decide that I want to try having my first gf (I'm about to turn 34), assuming I even decide one way or another, for my purposes and my needs what kind of woman would be good for me and any tips on finding women like that?
