A large hello to you all,
First post ever here, but I have been reading threads here and there for a year now. A year then, that I have been eyed-opened. Friend of mine handed me the often quoted on this forum "The Rationale Male" by R. Tomassi. English not being my native language, I had to go through the book more than once to fully embrace its value.
To fully deliver my previous situation and my "breakthrough" moment, here is an opener : long relationship on and off, with that type of toxic woman. Knowing her since teenagehood, I allowed her to direspect me at the highest point (read cheating, lying and the like). I am now able to recognize it with a tamed ego.
It's been then one year that I struggle with being a new so-called Red Piller. Not that I reject the truth, since it is a verified truth (involving variations of the theory in real world). Thing is, I have been documenting myself quite a lot about the interpersonal dynamics, even testing things out there, modified subtle changes in my personality, but still, I have been doing more or less what's adviced not to do.
An ex-girlfriend (other than the one I mentioned above) reached out last year, and we turned out to be dating for 6 new months until last July. What was different from when we used to date was my relentless honesty about the fact that I didn't want to get engaged in any sort of relationship. It's been sold after she tried hard to get me IN the relationship and got tired of it, found a new guy, monkey-branched. Well, legit when you fight for someone who expressedly does not want to put any efforts in a relationship.
But since then, I'm facing a dry-spell coupled with a mental need to get some flesh's sin.
My shout out here is about a cleavage I'm experiencing : I am well too conscious about the things I shall do, get myself involved in new social circles, assert a strong masculine frame, all in all, be in that Game thing. It is actually something I want to achieve. Who's fool enough to refuse experiencing more p.ussy hey ?
However, here I stand, continuously procrastinating, repealing life's hard tasks away, smoking around, being lazy, and not getting what I really want (understand here "chicks").
To situate you a little about me, I'd say I am surely not a model but physically acceptable, short guy but far from the dwarf category, I am rock climbing often so I keep myself fit somehow, I have strong hobbies, and last but not least, a good job in hospitality.
I know and understand it too well that it's all about a long process, that I am sort of lucky to get a foot in this community being 24, but I decided today to reach out to this community. Perhaps am I waiting for words since I consider them to have a real power. Althought, like said before, the struggle is the following : how to align your oblivious, impulsive actions (being, "not" acting) with your conscious knowledge ? Any of you ever got to experience such a situation ? How important is my maneuver margin here ?
Hopefully you'll all get to understand the purpose of this thread.
Thanks for reading those who've done so.
First post ever here, but I have been reading threads here and there for a year now. A year then, that I have been eyed-opened. Friend of mine handed me the often quoted on this forum "The Rationale Male" by R. Tomassi. English not being my native language, I had to go through the book more than once to fully embrace its value.
To fully deliver my previous situation and my "breakthrough" moment, here is an opener : long relationship on and off, with that type of toxic woman. Knowing her since teenagehood, I allowed her to direspect me at the highest point (read cheating, lying and the like). I am now able to recognize it with a tamed ego.
It's been then one year that I struggle with being a new so-called Red Piller. Not that I reject the truth, since it is a verified truth (involving variations of the theory in real world). Thing is, I have been documenting myself quite a lot about the interpersonal dynamics, even testing things out there, modified subtle changes in my personality, but still, I have been doing more or less what's adviced not to do.
An ex-girlfriend (other than the one I mentioned above) reached out last year, and we turned out to be dating for 6 new months until last July. What was different from when we used to date was my relentless honesty about the fact that I didn't want to get engaged in any sort of relationship. It's been sold after she tried hard to get me IN the relationship and got tired of it, found a new guy, monkey-branched. Well, legit when you fight for someone who expressedly does not want to put any efforts in a relationship.
But since then, I'm facing a dry-spell coupled with a mental need to get some flesh's sin.
My shout out here is about a cleavage I'm experiencing : I am well too conscious about the things I shall do, get myself involved in new social circles, assert a strong masculine frame, all in all, be in that Game thing. It is actually something I want to achieve. Who's fool enough to refuse experiencing more p.ussy hey ?
However, here I stand, continuously procrastinating, repealing life's hard tasks away, smoking around, being lazy, and not getting what I really want (understand here "chicks").
To situate you a little about me, I'd say I am surely not a model but physically acceptable, short guy but far from the dwarf category, I am rock climbing often so I keep myself fit somehow, I have strong hobbies, and last but not least, a good job in hospitality.
I know and understand it too well that it's all about a long process, that I am sort of lucky to get a foot in this community being 24, but I decided today to reach out to this community. Perhaps am I waiting for words since I consider them to have a real power. Althought, like said before, the struggle is the following : how to align your oblivious, impulsive actions (being, "not" acting) with your conscious knowledge ? Any of you ever got to experience such a situation ? How important is my maneuver margin here ?
Hopefully you'll all get to understand the purpose of this thread.
Thanks for reading those who've done so.
