Struck out looking...

[squirrels]

...got pitched a softball too.

I dunno what happened...I completely reverted back to my AFC ways. I was out last night at this bar and there was this group of like 13 girls there, all out for their friend's 21st birthday. I chatted up one as she got up to the bar, then another one of them practically pulls me off the bar and all but forces me to dance with the birthday girl.

I don't even know what I was doing there, but I kept pulling away from their group and didn't even make an effort to vibe with the party. I know I CAN, I've worked crowds like that before. But I could've been riding in a limo with a bunch of drunk 21 year old chicks last night and instead I just punted. One of them even came up to me later in the night and asked, "Why are you sitting down??" Not even in like a concerned "aww what's wrong" way, like in a "WTF are you DOING? Don't you LIKE 21 year old pvssy??" way. I honestly didn't have an answer for her...I was beating myself up over the same question.

I've worked groups like that before...I remember working my way through a whole bachelorette party at RumJungle in Vegas one night before I finally got to the cute one, and probably would've hooked SOMETHING if one of the girls hadn't gotten all puking-sick and put everyone in "damage control" mode.

I was on the run of a lifetime for like a month, and now I feel like I'm burned out. I can't seem to maintain faith in myself or enough positive energy to go out and vibe with chicks.

To top all that **** off, I've been thinking about the one-itis I shook about 2 months ago a lot more than I have over the past couple days.

I don't know what's wrong with me. I keep feeling like the girls I'm seeing now are all going to fall away at any second and leave me high and dry. I don't even know if I feel like I DESERVE to be getting laid any more. And now I'm dwelling on the incident which is just making me feel even weaker.

I don't even know what I'm really asking, if anything. All I know is that I feel disgusted at myself for not at least making an honest attempt. I felt like I underachieved last night...on purpose, for no reason other than self-destruction.

 

[Bonhomme]

Maybe something boichemical is a bit off. I did that sort of thing all the time before I discovered my food allergies and chemical sensitivities.

 

[DjVelvet]

...got pitched a softball too.

I dunno what happened...I completely reverted back to my AFC ways. I was out last night at this bar and there was this group of like 13 girls there, all out for their friend's 21st birthday. I chatted up one as she got up to the bar, then another one of them practically pulls me off the bar and all but forces me to dance with the birthday girl.

I don't even know what I was doing there, but I kept pulling away from their group and didn't even make an effort to vibe with the party. I know I CAN, I've worked crowds like that before. But I could've been riding in a limo with a bunch of drunk 21 year old chicks last night and instead I just punted. One of them even came up to me later in the night and asked, "Why are you sitting down??" Not even in like a concerned "aww what's wrong" way, like in a "WTF are you DOING? Don't you LIKE 21 year old pvssy??" way. I honestly didn't have an answer for her...I was beating myself up over the same question.

I've worked groups like that before...I remember working my way through a whole bachelorette party at RumJungle in Vegas one night before I finally got to the cute one, and probably would've hooked SOMETHING if one of the girls hadn't gotten all puking-sick and put everyone in "damage control" mode.

I was on the run of a lifetime for like a month, and now I feel like I'm burned out. I can't seem to maintain faith in myself or enough positive energy to go out and vibe with chicks.

To top all that **** off, I've been thinking about the one-itis I shook about 2 months ago a lot more than I have over the past couple days.

I don't know what's wrong with me. I keep feeling like the girls I'm seeing now are all going to fall away at any second and leave me high and dry. I don't even know if I feel like I DESERVE to be getting laid any more. And now I'm dwelling on the incident which is just making me feel even weaker.

I don't even know what I'm really asking, if anything. All I know is that I feel disgusted at myself for not at least making an honest attempt. I felt like I underachieved last night...on purpose, for no reason other than self-destruction.

You are not alone, brother.. my friend and I lose frame once in a while.

I find it hard to believe women "Example, I got a I miss you sms from my current LTR, but i take the meaning 30% instead of going all happy about it."

You are losing your frame. Even the best mPUAs lose their Frames once a while.

I don't have an exact solution for you now, Try this..

Stop sarging for 2 weeks. Go on a personal improvement session like "Gym. Self-meditation." Or. Hang out with friends with no intention to sarge. Just relax. :yes:

but still.. let the more experienced DJs advise you further.

I wish you all the best
Vel

 

[arlanda]

You weren't in the mood. So what? That's not AFC! Give yourself a break and as Vel suggested stop picking up girls for 2 weeks or more and just enjoy the life.

You wouldn't believe but there are more important things than girls

 

[Victory Unlimited]

Yo Squirrels,



Sometimes the redundancy of constant sarging and the lack of quality women you meet WHILE sarging can really hit you in the gut like a bayonet. For guys who have entered, or ARE entering the stage in their life where they are actually looking for someone of quality, the emptiness of multiple "hook-ups" can really start to bring you down.

Last weekend I had 2 casual sexcapades with different women. Neither of these women do I feel the emotional closeness or connection that I WANT to feel. The sex was only good while it lasted. And sometimes even DURING the sex, I was zoning out on these girls.

Inside, I knew the truth: They were using ME and I was using them. It was like masturbating with a human being. So afterwards, I felt more empty and alone.

So this week, I sarged 2 more girls. Went out with one last night and it "looks" promising, but as usual, we'll see...

I'm going out with the other one tonight. Our phone conversations make this one look promising too, but AGAIN, we'll see...

But anyway, hang in there soldier. The battle to find a REAL connection with a chick in this narcissistic, morally ambiguous age of F-buddies and Friends with Benefits rages on. And unless you're the type (I'm NOT, by the way) that can totally desensitize yourself from caring about women as people, then it's only human that your motivation to keep sarging falls short from time to time.

You might be gettin tired of all this shyt because you CARE.

You might be feeling like this is all an act of futility because you GIVE A DAMN.

Personally, that says to me that you are NOT a sociopath or woman hater. Many on this board dance around the edges of ALL OUT mysogany, and after some of the battles that I've faced throughout in my life, I actually UNDERSTAND them. And at times, I might even agree with them, but I don't let myself fall into this mindset and STAY though.

Yes, the odds are against us, but I believe that the battle is still WINnable, Troops. There is no shame in returning to the barracks, or going on leave for awhile just to get away from this war.

Rest, relaxation, pleasant distractions, and focusing on other things for awhile may just be ALL the preparation and INSPIRATION you really need before engaging the enemy again.

And for the record:

I believe that our enemy is NOT the women themselves. Rather, it is the mindsets and attitudes that women have accepted as TRUTH that are proving to be our greatest adversaries.





Peace...one day.

 

[squirrels]

I dunno what it is. I just can't internalize that success is something that I SHOULD have. I'm so mentally attuned to failure that even when I have periods of COLOSSAL success, I eventually end up feeling like, "Dammit, what am I doing here? How long is THIS going to last?" It always feels like CHANCE brings me women, rather than any sincere effort. Even in the face of great success, my failure-conscious mentality makes success seem like a temporary and transient thing...I find myself waiting for the universe to "right itself" and screw me over as is proper, and I feel like feeling that way brings even more despair my way by changing the way I behave.

I don't know why I feel this way, but I'm so set on this idea of unworthiness that even if I were to find and marry the woman of my dreams, I would still be waiting for her to "realize" how she screwed up by hooking up with me and leave me. I'm actually rejecting myself on a consistent basis because I can't internalize the belief that I DESERVE more than intermittent chance success with the ladies.

 

[Freddy1]

Your brain probably still has alot of AFC ghosts in it. (subconciously in the back of your mind). You have to work it out.