shadowfox
Don Juan
Hi,
Currently I feel and look absolutely $hit and I really need some help, a mentor to guide me along here. I'm not making excuses and I do want to get a good body and I think it is possible even with my crappy genetics.
Background Info
Started out 46 weeks ago at 142lb at 6ft 2. Yes I was VERY SKINNY. However the low weight made my face look pretty darn handsome and perversly I got attention from girls now I get fewer attention.
Basically I got it in my head that 142 was way too skinny from this board and especially Pooks skinny guy thread. He made it also seem like it was possible to gain 30lb of muscle in 12 weeks.
Anyway I started out. Bulked up firstly to 172lb then cut down to 166lb. However I never really got a 6 pack and all I could see was the skinny person in the mirror. I never saw that most my gains seemed to come in my face, legs and stomach area. I was fooled by the gains I made in my squat deadlift and bench press. They all went up from about 30kg squat to 80kg and deadlift went from 30 to 80, bench press 20kg to 40kg. However I was still weak really just not as weak. Took me 17 weeks.
I decided to bulk up again.... went from 166lb to 191lb in about 12 weeks. Ridiculous bulking, yes I know. I started to use creatine and protein however for the first time during that bulk.
By now I was a big bloated mess with double chin and all. Up to size 34 inch jeans and bursting out of them from having to wear a belt on my size 32 inch jeans.
My squat had gone up to 125kg and deadlift was 120kg as well. I can now Bench Press 65kg.
Still not strong but better than I was before.
Decided to start cutting... 17 weeks later I'am at 172lb and I still look a mess...
The double chin has been reduced but not eliminated. I can now fit back into my 32 inch jeans but I'm bursting out of them...
I'am very disheartened at the moment. I look like a hideous skinny fat guy. Confidence is at an all time low. I don't know what to do at the moment.
46 weeks of pain, strict diet and strict sleeping schedule (no sweet chocolate etc and always getting at leats 8 hours sleep, never missing a workout but always timing in scheduled rests etc).
I feel I'm getting completly obsessed. All I think about is the anoying stubborn fat that wont go away. The thing is I want to gain more muscle (my dream is 190lb ripped for my height) but I'am terrified of gaining more fat and I cant even lose the fat I've gained now ,when I dont even look good at the moment. I just want to get ripped so I have a solid base to work on in future.
LESSON TO YOU ALL, DONT GO CRAZY ON THE BULKING. JUST GAIN 1LB A WEEK, IT IS IMPOSSIBLE TO GAIN 30LB IN 12 WEEKS WITHOUT A GOOD PORTION OF THAT BEING FAT. .
Sorry for the rant.
Any advice on what I should do?
Currently I feel and look absolutely $hit and I really need some help, a mentor to guide me along here. I'm not making excuses and I do want to get a good body and I think it is possible even with my crappy genetics.
Background Info
Started out 46 weeks ago at 142lb at 6ft 2. Yes I was VERY SKINNY. However the low weight made my face look pretty darn handsome and perversly I got attention from girls now I get fewer attention.
Basically I got it in my head that 142 was way too skinny from this board and especially Pooks skinny guy thread. He made it also seem like it was possible to gain 30lb of muscle in 12 weeks.
Anyway I started out. Bulked up firstly to 172lb then cut down to 166lb. However I never really got a 6 pack and all I could see was the skinny person in the mirror. I never saw that most my gains seemed to come in my face, legs and stomach area. I was fooled by the gains I made in my squat deadlift and bench press. They all went up from about 30kg squat to 80kg and deadlift went from 30 to 80, bench press 20kg to 40kg. However I was still weak really just not as weak. Took me 17 weeks.
I decided to bulk up again.... went from 166lb to 191lb in about 12 weeks. Ridiculous bulking, yes I know. I started to use creatine and protein however for the first time during that bulk.
By now I was a big bloated mess with double chin and all. Up to size 34 inch jeans and bursting out of them from having to wear a belt on my size 32 inch jeans.
My squat had gone up to 125kg and deadlift was 120kg as well. I can now Bench Press 65kg.
Still not strong but better than I was before.
Decided to start cutting... 17 weeks later I'am at 172lb and I still look a mess...
The double chin has been reduced but not eliminated. I can now fit back into my 32 inch jeans but I'm bursting out of them...
I'am very disheartened at the moment. I look like a hideous skinny fat guy. Confidence is at an all time low. I don't know what to do at the moment.
46 weeks of pain, strict diet and strict sleeping schedule (no sweet chocolate etc and always getting at leats 8 hours sleep, never missing a workout but always timing in scheduled rests etc).
I feel I'm getting completly obsessed. All I think about is the anoying stubborn fat that wont go away. The thing is I want to gain more muscle (my dream is 190lb ripped for my height) but I'am terrified of gaining more fat and I cant even lose the fat I've gained now ,when I dont even look good at the moment. I just want to get ripped so I have a solid base to work on in future.
LESSON TO YOU ALL, DONT GO CRAZY ON THE BULKING. JUST GAIN 1LB A WEEK, IT IS IMPOSSIBLE TO GAIN 30LB IN 12 WEEKS WITHOUT A GOOD PORTION OF THAT BEING FAT. .
Sorry for the rant.
Any advice on what I should do?