Hello everyone!
For the context, this was my last post.
My life has been really well from the last month or two. My self-work on gym finally paid off, and my life just transformed on it own. I, for first, read this in an old article related on testosterone, but now I just feel so, how do I say, clear and fearless. My back is arched inward, my chest is puffed out, walking movements are bold and wide. I don't feel much stress, with so much impulsiveness in my actions, I feel like I can do anything. That I can face every pain, and get through it. Lastly, I feel like, I am the prize, and that I can always do better personally,socially and economically.
I also started working on my clothes, kept my beard trimmed, did skin care, and kept my clothes clean. To my surprise, I got compliments? For the first time from that specific girl, who had never complimented me before. People tell me my profile pictures look good, I have clothing sense(i really dont), and that I must have a girlfriend.
Thank you everyone for the advice, it helped. Big shoutout to the guy who told me to read Book of Pook (I haven't completed it yet, i try not to treat it like a book or guide), it opened my things to I was blind to.
Currently, I am exploring/getting to know a new girl(1-2 months by now) say A, who seems pretty devoted to me (by actions not words), and openly gets physical with me (not at main cuisine yet). We go on dates, flirt, talk for hours, and travel all around the city, but when it comes to crossing the line, she says she has trauma with sexual touches. I have seen it in action(anxiety attacks, shaking in fear), so I respect her boundaries very much, but now I have come to the point, where I indulge in her, she says she trusts me, but I feel restricted and caged sexually. I can't express myself, and each moment with her, while makes me happy, leaves me bitter and tired.
I feel I have girls out there who can do better for me sexually, and I am restricting myself here. I did mentioned this to A, that I am not her therapist and I will not waste myself here.
While she feels like a very honest, decent girl, the lovey dovey "hold-my-hand-for-eternity" kind(I have explicitly denied the desire for holding the hand for now), I don't know what to do. Currently I indulge just enough for my pleasure, but not too much to leave myself bitter and sucked dry.
Any advice would be greatly appreciated!
Do criticize (harsh criticism are welcomed foremost
)
Thank you
For the context, this was my last post.
My life has been really well from the last month or two. My self-work on gym finally paid off, and my life just transformed on it own. I, for first, read this in an old article related on testosterone, but now I just feel so, how do I say, clear and fearless. My back is arched inward, my chest is puffed out, walking movements are bold and wide. I don't feel much stress, with so much impulsiveness in my actions, I feel like I can do anything. That I can face every pain, and get through it. Lastly, I feel like, I am the prize, and that I can always do better personally,socially and economically.
I also started working on my clothes, kept my beard trimmed, did skin care, and kept my clothes clean. To my surprise, I got compliments? For the first time from that specific girl, who had never complimented me before. People tell me my profile pictures look good, I have clothing sense(i really dont), and that I must have a girlfriend.
Thank you everyone for the advice, it helped. Big shoutout to the guy who told me to read Book of Pook (I haven't completed it yet, i try not to treat it like a book or guide), it opened my things to I was blind to.
Currently, I am exploring/getting to know a new girl(1-2 months by now) say A, who seems pretty devoted to me (by actions not words), and openly gets physical with me (not at main cuisine yet). We go on dates, flirt, talk for hours, and travel all around the city, but when it comes to crossing the line, she says she has trauma with sexual touches. I have seen it in action(anxiety attacks, shaking in fear), so I respect her boundaries very much, but now I have come to the point, where I indulge in her, she says she trusts me, but I feel restricted and caged sexually. I can't express myself, and each moment with her, while makes me happy, leaves me bitter and tired.
I feel I have girls out there who can do better for me sexually, and I am restricting myself here. I did mentioned this to A, that I am not her therapist and I will not waste myself here.
While she feels like a very honest, decent girl, the lovey dovey "hold-my-hand-for-eternity" kind(I have explicitly denied the desire for holding the hand for now), I don't know what to do. Currently I indulge just enough for my pleasure, but not too much to leave myself bitter and sucked dry.
Any advice would be greatly appreciated!
Do criticize (harsh criticism are welcomed foremost
)Thank you