Some help needed if possible

[BxPrince24]

I'm not happy with where I am in my life and I need a way to get there.

Here's my current situation:
-I'm 20, not in college anymore because i couldn't afford the tuition (24k a year) and I can't go to another college till i pay off the 9k I owe for past semester's tuition.

-I'm also an actor and haven't been getting a lot of work, the last thing I did was a small role in a movie called baby mama coming out next year. I got paid $1300 total for the 2 days I worked.

-I have no car, no job other than acting and I don't want an hourly job, no woman, no real female friends.

-I feel like I'm living short of the expectation of what I should be living for my age.

Here's what I want:

-A job with a salary, not an hourly job. If not a job, I want to go back to college.

-A car, I'm thinking about using the $1300 I got from the movie to buy a car.

-A girl/more female friends. The problem is majority of the girls I see in my area are young, like 16 or less. Anyone around my age are either walking with their man or they get anti-social. I have like 2-3 girls that I'm somewhat cool with, not really close friends though and their all young since I met them through my younger friends.


~I feel that if I have those 3 things then I will be where I should be in my life, I sometimes feel like a bum since I don't have these things goin for me. I'm trying to find a way to bridge the gap and start making improvements. Any suggestions?

 

[Last Man Standing]

Be patient kid -- all will come with time! Gradually progress forward and obtain that which is attainable!

 

[djSlvt]

A job, a car, and a hoe won't make you happy. You can make yourself happy, and only you. Once you love yourself, everything falls into place. A gay way to explain this is that once you love yourself, there is this gay pink aura around you, and people are attrackted to you like flies..

You'll agree with me once you understand what I mean.

 

[BxPrince24]

A job, a car, and a hoe won't make you happy. You can make yourself happy, and only you. Once you love yourself, everything falls into place. A gay way to explain this is that once you love yourself, there is this gay pink aura around you, and people are attrackted to you like flies..

You'll agree with me once you understand what I mean.

Believe me, a job would make me happy, when I was working at radioshack it felt great not having to hit up the parents for cash. I quit a while ago because they pressure you to sell cell phones and if you don't sell a certain amount a week, you have to go to the main radioshack for a "meeting".

A car would help out so I don't have to take the train/bus all the time and I can reach girls that don't live near me.

The way I feel about myself goes back and forth over this line, half the time I feel great and i love the way things are going, then the other time I feel like I should be doing more and all my friends are just progressing past me. It's like hopscotch back and forth over the line. I really should be in school, and I would still be if I haven't chosen such an expensive college.

I in no way feel like I am no good, nor do I have any self esteem issues. My prob is just that I want to do more than being in the house everyday doing nothing. I do chill with my friends in the evening and on the weekends but I still should be doing more. And without money, I can't go and do the things I want to do.

 

[djSlvt]

But brox prince, you're qualifying yourself to me. In a true self love relationship with yourself, there is no need to sick happiness in someone else, such as me.

We could develop enough rapport and fvck, but that won't make you happy my man.

If you trully love yourself, things are great. No, I don't mean big a55 smile on your face all the time type of great. That only happens when you're retarded or on drugs. But you'll feel good about simple things, and that is the true power. The rest comes to you, because the rest wants to be around people who deserve it.

 

[KnockoutJM]

Take a break from the stress and take some time to reorder your life/goals. Also with that money from the movie, you will get some minor checks every time it is played, then when it is on DVD and sold, and then when they put it on HBO and all that stuff. It is not much, but it will help something.

Just focus on making yourself feel good, then add back in the stress/responsibilities you need to fulfill.

 

[basbhat]

Man, I think I can provide some perspective for you...

I'm 27, my car is nothing special whatsoever, I don't own a home, I don't have a "girlfriend" and I could care less, and if I were to be judged by an outsider maybe they would call me a loser. But guess what...I'm definitely not.

I spend all my waking hours doing and thinking about my passions and building myself up to be a surefire success, I work 3 days a week(15-20 hrs) in a really fun job making OK money, and if I want a girl I just have to put in a wee bit of effort. The reason I am able to function so well for myself is that I know why I am living my life. I'm not doing it for you, I'm doing it for me. I LOVE the energy of being uncomfortable b/c you have no choice but to grow.

What are you truly passionate about? Why? What is driving you? The scenarios you listed do not illustrate that you are excited about your life. You know, so what about a job like Radio Shack and phones....Use your mind, do something fun, experiment. You are not a victim! You just have to prepared to accept the consequences of your choices, and that is all. If you can be happy with those consequences you've discovered a big secret for yourself! It's all in the way you look at your life and the reasons you are living it. If you love acting, go after it like mad. If not, do something else, but figure it out. Best of luck!