Seeing the matrix after 7 years: a tribute to my teacher
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Aristippus
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You and the other guy were jumping through hoops to try to impress women. Don't do that. You're only feeding the beast and devaluing yourself. The guy you were "competing" with wasn't that good either. You simply wasted all of your energies trying to win the girls' approval and ****blocking/sabotaging each other.
You're trying way too hard. Less is more.
p.s. Forget about what other people are doing. What other guys are doing is of no concern to you.
You're trying way too hard. Less is more.
p.s. Forget about what other people are doing. What other guys are doing is of no concern to you.
thatfeel
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I'm putting this back up mostly because it shows just how far I've come in the last six months. Also because I figured out after 3-4 months just exactly how they were communicating. You will need to read between the lines a little bit to figure out what's going on in places. Some things only make sense when you are well and truly merged into the natural world.
People may have read Tyler Durden's "The Secret Society". Last night I finally saw it, seven years after first reading it. Here's how it went down. When you are ready to see it, your teacher will appear. Trust your instincts.
Key facts:
- on holidays in CA, far from home
- staying with people I met on my travels
- in party mode almost constantly for three months
- had slept with 8 girls in the year since breaking up with my girlfriend
Monday:
- arrived at my connection's artist commune house in LA
- maybe 15 permanent residents, plus constant flux of others
- went full diplomatic mode to all the gatekeepers (beta males of the house) with the sole purpose of being allowed to stay for a week
- vote at house meeting was unanimous and I was accepted
- got fairly strong signals from HBArtist, one of the girls at the house
- met my teacher - a man, barely into adulthood, who saw everything and spoke only in subcommunication, wiser than men three times his age
- subcommunicated that I understood that he was gay but that I wasn't
- hinted that I could tell that he saw the matrix
Through the week:
- went to various events and stuff but nothing serious
- my teacher (still unknown to me) was always around, sometimes in the distance, sometimes chatting to me (but at this stage I hadn't yet realised it)
Friday:
The key players
- HBActress1
- HBActress2 - girl I met a few days earlier who was into me
- HBObnoxious
- AMOG - super sexual guy who looked good, dressed perfectly, and had the confidence to keep going no matter what
- my teacher
- HBArtist - the girl from the house who was into me
There was an impromptu party on Friday night at the house. Perhaps 50 people in attendance over the night.
I met HBObnoxious first. She dressed tough and gave **** to everyone. I breezed through her **** tests by mirroring her language and handing it right back to her.
I met HBActress1 later in the night. I opened with vibing and exceptional eye contact after observing her for a minute or two. (The three second rule is simply a tool which can be played around with after you reach a certain level of proficiency.) Connected with her, but the connection was interrupted by HBActress2. I left them to keep talking to each other.
Went to chat to HBObnoxious for a while up in a tower. Heckled other people at the party. Eventually HBActress1 started hanging around at the bottom of the tower. I played HBObnoxious and HBActress1 off against each other for a bit. Went down from the tower and held hands with HBActress1 but she subcommunicated that I was too forward. Went back up the top of the tower and went kino on HBObnoxious but she too subcommunicated that I was too forward.
AMOG shows up. It was immediately obvious that he was my competition. He opened HBObnoxious with kino and started doing some very sexual moves with her. I neutralised him temporarily by matching his sexuality and cheering on their interraction.
Went to wander around, open random sets, dance, and recharge my energy. Came back to find AMOG talking to HBActress1, with HBActress2 somewhat involved. I went to work to break their connection using only body language. AMOG started to waiver and his eye contact with her became less confident. But he must have realised what was happening and started manouvering around it. The battle went on for around 5-10 minutes, and I finally broke their connection. But I had used up all my energy to do it.
Wandered around a bit to recharge again. Came back to find HBActress1 and HBObnoxious together. They sensed my energy was down and unleashed a hail of **** tests. I looked HBObnoxious straight in the eye and stood firm and tried to centre myself but they could see it was having an effect "he's not liking this at all". I finally acknowledged it with "tough crowd" and HBObnoxious said "awwwwww". I was completely spent and had to get away.
I laid down in the chill out room. Circles of people started to form around me as the girls sounded me out and the beta males tried to sap my energy. Some random girl from the house, way beneath me, moved closer to me and I kinoed her slightly, but she moved away. I was so disheartened because when I left my home to go on holidays I had a massive diverse social circle and three girlfriends. But here I was completely alone. I centred myself and thought about my cutest girl back home to try to get back into state.
I wandered back through the party but couldn't open anyone so I went to get completely alone in a room. I tried to think of just one person who had ever really helped me... and then it finally clicked! The guy who saw everything! I sprinted through the party and found him and blurted out "You've been helping me out every f*cking step of the way! Why!!!???". He responded "It just seemed like we were on the same page and I just wanted you to have a good time".
We chatted for a while. He said that there's really no such thing as a teacher, it's all about the student. I asked him why most people can't see the matrix. He said that very few people see it, most people either think they see it or don't want to see it. I told him that I couldn't believe it had taken me five days to figure out that he was helping me. But I realise now that he had to do it non-obviously so that I would have to figure it out by myself. All my life I have had suspicions that all was not as it seemed but I had never had another person to be able to confirm it with. But now I KNEW that I wasn't crazy!
All of a sudden, for the first time in my life, I ACTED on my intuition and instincts. Beta males tried to get into meaningless conversations with me and I just WALKED AWAY. Girls gave me "What?" and I just WALKED AWAY. Guys tried to tool me and I shut them down immediately with meaningless blather and sexual kino. Girls tried to manipulate me with slightly disinterested body language and I just stopped mid sentence and started talking to someone else. One guy tried to get indirectly aggressive and I just walked up to him and stole his baseball hat, then put it on his girlfriend's head. "That was an easy one" I remarked to my teacher. He said nothing, because it was obvious that it was so.
At this point AMOG realises he's gonna have to pull some serious **** to try and shut me down. He starts getting all crazy and starts talking about burning a couch. MISTAKE ONE: I didn't know he was going to burn the entire couch, otherwise I would have just sat on it to **** with him. I was near the fire barrel, and he RAMMED the couch into the fire barrel, knocking it over and nearly hitting me. MISTAKE TWO: I was too relaxed about this when I should have f*cked him up for doing something so goddamned aggressive. The beta males sensed this and tried to get aggressive with me too, but I just ignored them.
My teacher, meanwhile, had organised a walk for me down the street with HBArtist and a small entourage. I shared some knowing glances and very subtle kino with her as we sat in the shop. But then MISTAKE THREE: I gave her a wink, which took it outside the realm of subcommunication. Oops! Ahh well, I'm still learning!
We go back to the house and I lose HBArtist. Me and my teacher go and find her. AMOG is giving her a massage. She subcommunicates to me that she's not entirely comfortable with him. I sit on his lap but he does an amazing job of ignoring me. Hats off to this guy, definitely a worthy opponent. I try a different idea, sit down beside her and hold her hand. This fails and she subcommunicates that she's losing attraction for me. I'm all out of ideas and my teacher can sense it too so he walks off and I walk off too.
Outside I do a debrief with my teacher. I say "No harm in losing to the best". He said "I don't understand". And he was right. My mistakes were ones of experience, not confidence. Keep on learning, the journey never ends.
P.S. As I write this, the morning after the party, I occasionally wander back. AMOG is sleeping alone in a hammock and his energy is low. I have no idea whether he and HBArtist f*cked, but it just goes to show that it ain't over till it's over!
People may have read Tyler Durden's "The Secret Society". Last night I finally saw it, seven years after first reading it. Here's how it went down. When you are ready to see it, your teacher will appear. Trust your instincts.
Key facts:
- on holidays in CA, far from home
- staying with people I met on my travels
- in party mode almost constantly for three months
- had slept with 8 girls in the year since breaking up with my girlfriend
Monday:
- arrived at my connection's artist commune house in LA
- maybe 15 permanent residents, plus constant flux of others
- went full diplomatic mode to all the gatekeepers (beta males of the house) with the sole purpose of being allowed to stay for a week
- vote at house meeting was unanimous and I was accepted
- got fairly strong signals from HBArtist, one of the girls at the house
- met my teacher - a man, barely into adulthood, who saw everything and spoke only in subcommunication, wiser than men three times his age
- subcommunicated that I understood that he was gay but that I wasn't
- hinted that I could tell that he saw the matrix
Through the week:
- went to various events and stuff but nothing serious
- my teacher (still unknown to me) was always around, sometimes in the distance, sometimes chatting to me (but at this stage I hadn't yet realised it)
Friday:
The key players
- HBActress1
- HBActress2 - girl I met a few days earlier who was into me
- HBObnoxious
- AMOG - super sexual guy who looked good, dressed perfectly, and had the confidence to keep going no matter what
- my teacher
- HBArtist - the girl from the house who was into me
There was an impromptu party on Friday night at the house. Perhaps 50 people in attendance over the night.
I met HBObnoxious first. She dressed tough and gave **** to everyone. I breezed through her **** tests by mirroring her language and handing it right back to her.
I met HBActress1 later in the night. I opened with vibing and exceptional eye contact after observing her for a minute or two. (The three second rule is simply a tool which can be played around with after you reach a certain level of proficiency.) Connected with her, but the connection was interrupted by HBActress2. I left them to keep talking to each other.
Went to chat to HBObnoxious for a while up in a tower. Heckled other people at the party. Eventually HBActress1 started hanging around at the bottom of the tower. I played HBObnoxious and HBActress1 off against each other for a bit. Went down from the tower and held hands with HBActress1 but she subcommunicated that I was too forward. Went back up the top of the tower and went kino on HBObnoxious but she too subcommunicated that I was too forward.
AMOG shows up. It was immediately obvious that he was my competition. He opened HBObnoxious with kino and started doing some very sexual moves with her. I neutralised him temporarily by matching his sexuality and cheering on their interraction.
Went to wander around, open random sets, dance, and recharge my energy. Came back to find AMOG talking to HBActress1, with HBActress2 somewhat involved. I went to work to break their connection using only body language. AMOG started to waiver and his eye contact with her became less confident. But he must have realised what was happening and started manouvering around it. The battle went on for around 5-10 minutes, and I finally broke their connection. But I had used up all my energy to do it.
Wandered around a bit to recharge again. Came back to find HBActress1 and HBObnoxious together. They sensed my energy was down and unleashed a hail of **** tests. I looked HBObnoxious straight in the eye and stood firm and tried to centre myself but they could see it was having an effect "he's not liking this at all". I finally acknowledged it with "tough crowd" and HBObnoxious said "awwwwww". I was completely spent and had to get away.
I laid down in the chill out room. Circles of people started to form around me as the girls sounded me out and the beta males tried to sap my energy. Some random girl from the house, way beneath me, moved closer to me and I kinoed her slightly, but she moved away. I was so disheartened because when I left my home to go on holidays I had a massive diverse social circle and three girlfriends. But here I was completely alone. I centred myself and thought about my cutest girl back home to try to get back into state.
I wandered back through the party but couldn't open anyone so I went to get completely alone in a room. I tried to think of just one person who had ever really helped me... and then it finally clicked! The guy who saw everything! I sprinted through the party and found him and blurted out "You've been helping me out every f*cking step of the way! Why!!!???". He responded "It just seemed like we were on the same page and I just wanted you to have a good time".
We chatted for a while. He said that there's really no such thing as a teacher, it's all about the student. I asked him why most people can't see the matrix. He said that very few people see it, most people either think they see it or don't want to see it. I told him that I couldn't believe it had taken me five days to figure out that he was helping me. But I realise now that he had to do it non-obviously so that I would have to figure it out by myself. All my life I have had suspicions that all was not as it seemed but I had never had another person to be able to confirm it with. But now I KNEW that I wasn't crazy!
All of a sudden, for the first time in my life, I ACTED on my intuition and instincts. Beta males tried to get into meaningless conversations with me and I just WALKED AWAY. Girls gave me "What?" and I just WALKED AWAY. Guys tried to tool me and I shut them down immediately with meaningless blather and sexual kino. Girls tried to manipulate me with slightly disinterested body language and I just stopped mid sentence and started talking to someone else. One guy tried to get indirectly aggressive and I just walked up to him and stole his baseball hat, then put it on his girlfriend's head. "That was an easy one" I remarked to my teacher. He said nothing, because it was obvious that it was so.
At this point AMOG realises he's gonna have to pull some serious **** to try and shut me down. He starts getting all crazy and starts talking about burning a couch. MISTAKE ONE: I didn't know he was going to burn the entire couch, otherwise I would have just sat on it to **** with him. I was near the fire barrel, and he RAMMED the couch into the fire barrel, knocking it over and nearly hitting me. MISTAKE TWO: I was too relaxed about this when I should have f*cked him up for doing something so goddamned aggressive. The beta males sensed this and tried to get aggressive with me too, but I just ignored them.
My teacher, meanwhile, had organised a walk for me down the street with HBArtist and a small entourage. I shared some knowing glances and very subtle kino with her as we sat in the shop. But then MISTAKE THREE: I gave her a wink, which took it outside the realm of subcommunication. Oops! Ahh well, I'm still learning!
We go back to the house and I lose HBArtist. Me and my teacher go and find her. AMOG is giving her a massage. She subcommunicates to me that she's not entirely comfortable with him. I sit on his lap but he does an amazing job of ignoring me. Hats off to this guy, definitely a worthy opponent. I try a different idea, sit down beside her and hold her hand. This fails and she subcommunicates that she's losing attraction for me. I'm all out of ideas and my teacher can sense it too so he walks off and I walk off too.
Outside I do a debrief with my teacher. I say "No harm in losing to the best". He said "I don't understand". And he was right. My mistakes were ones of experience, not confidence. Keep on learning, the journey never ends.
P.S. As I write this, the morning after the party, I occasionally wander back. AMOG is sleeping alone in a hammock and his energy is low. I have no idea whether he and HBArtist f*cked, but it just goes to show that it ain't over till it's over!
Real world interpretation
Here is my reflection on this:
Before I realised that I was being helped, I was in the alpha-beta mindset. Just the realisation, in combination with reading the book Sex at Dawn, was enough to switch me into the more natural non-competitive mindset.
It took me about three months to figure out how they were communicating. My subconscious saw it and due to my state at the time that knowledge was pushed just enough into my conscious to know THAT it was happening, but not HOW it was happening.
I now know that what I was seeing was eye communication between the gay guy and HBActress.
Four months after first seeing it, I used it myself to score the best girl I had ever had.
Here is my reflection on this:
Before I realised that I was being helped, I was in the alpha-beta mindset. Just the realisation, in combination with reading the book Sex at Dawn, was enough to switch me into the more natural non-competitive mindset.
It took me about three months to figure out how they were communicating. My subconscious saw it and due to my state at the time that knowledge was pushed just enough into my conscious to know THAT it was happening, but not HOW it was happening.
I now know that what I was seeing was eye communication between the gay guy and HBActress.
Four months after first seeing it, I used it myself to score the best girl I had ever had.
