jimjam
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Gentlemen, your opinions please.
I'm 42 and I freeze whenever I see a woman. What the ##### is wrong with me?
Background: I'm 6'2", 180lbs. Decent looking. I'm not a slob. I have a good job and make decent money. I work out 3 days a week. I'm a published writer and my photography is being considered by one of the local galleries. In other words, I have confidence in myself.
However, I do have multiple sclerosis. Despite this, I can walk for 8-10 miles over extremely rugged terrain with 30 lbs on my back. But, if I want to get an erection I have to take pills. Nevertheless, I'm in phenomenal shape for a 42 yr old ex smoker, alcoholic drug addict ( did I mention this? I've been clean since 2005) with m s.
plus I have these bad tattoos from my old days. I make decent money but most of it goes to cold support to my son's mother. I'm actively involved in my son's life. What little money that I have left over goes for my son----doing things together. So the fact that I have no money gives me pause.
A note on my son's mother. She broke up with me s soon after she found out she was pregnant. We had talked about having kids so it wasn't that I knocked her up. As I said, I have a good job, don't drink or do drugs and I love my son. I may be a bit guilty of turning a bit a f c, but that hardly seems a reason to get rid of your child's father. I think this is affecting me. My friend says it shouldn't and that she's trashy.
I'll leave you with a paraphrase of B u k o w s k I
I was 42 years old an hadn't been to bed with a woman in 5 years. I had no women friends. I looked at them as I passed them on the streets or wherever I saw them, but I looked at them without yearning and with a sense of futility I was masturbating regularly but lost interest due to boredom an repetition. But the idea of having a relationship with a woman----even on non-sexual terms---was being my imagination. I had a4 year old son born out of wedlock. He lived with his mother and I paid child support. I had been married y years v before at the age of 27. That marriage lasted 8 brutal years. My wife divorced me. I had been in love twice. One woman moved back to Ireland and the other is my son's mother.
Your opinions are appreciated. I'm confident in everything except for when I see a woman. Again, opinions and advice are appreciated.
Thanks for reading....
I'm 42 and I freeze whenever I see a woman. What the ##### is wrong with me?
Background: I'm 6'2", 180lbs. Decent looking. I'm not a slob. I have a good job and make decent money. I work out 3 days a week. I'm a published writer and my photography is being considered by one of the local galleries. In other words, I have confidence in myself.
However, I do have multiple sclerosis. Despite this, I can walk for 8-10 miles over extremely rugged terrain with 30 lbs on my back. But, if I want to get an erection I have to take pills. Nevertheless, I'm in phenomenal shape for a 42 yr old ex smoker, alcoholic drug addict ( did I mention this? I've been clean since 2005) with m s.
plus I have these bad tattoos from my old days. I make decent money but most of it goes to cold support to my son's mother. I'm actively involved in my son's life. What little money that I have left over goes for my son----doing things together. So the fact that I have no money gives me pause.
A note on my son's mother. She broke up with me s soon after she found out she was pregnant. We had talked about having kids so it wasn't that I knocked her up. As I said, I have a good job, don't drink or do drugs and I love my son. I may be a bit guilty of turning a bit a f c, but that hardly seems a reason to get rid of your child's father. I think this is affecting me. My friend says it shouldn't and that she's trashy.
I'll leave you with a paraphrase of B u k o w s k I
I was 42 years old an hadn't been to bed with a woman in 5 years. I had no women friends. I looked at them as I passed them on the streets or wherever I saw them, but I looked at them without yearning and with a sense of futility I was masturbating regularly but lost interest due to boredom an repetition. But the idea of having a relationship with a woman----even on non-sexual terms---was being my imagination. I had a4 year old son born out of wedlock. He lived with his mother and I paid child support. I had been married y years v before at the age of 27. That marriage lasted 8 brutal years. My wife divorced me. I had been in love twice. One woman moved back to Ireland and the other is my son's mother.
Your opinions are appreciated. I'm confident in everything except for when I see a woman. Again, opinions and advice are appreciated.
Thanks for reading....