Anyway it was 9pm and one of my friends suggested to go to the park. I live in a big city so there are a lot of people there, those including punk/skateboard wannabes and h.s kids.
As i was walking with my other 2 friends. some prick threw a foam football at my head from behind.
I took off my cap and looked at the guy closest to me, he shouted it wasnt him and pointed at the the prick. i turned my head around to look at him, shook my head and continued walking. i could almost hear the ****ing teenagers laughing at me.
In the past i used to be a nice guy and passive about things. I have grown more confident and more assertive in general over the years.
But when **** like this happens, i find myself to be very easy going/ laid back/ not care/ passive. ****ing 3 winters ago, some other prick tossed a snowball at my head. it's like god has something against me or some ****. even then i didnt retaliate.
Honestly i dont know what it is that makes me a ****ing target. either it's my glasses or my underweight. i walk confidently with my head held high, dont even see how the **** it happens. Im not a geek, nor do i walk or talk or dress like one...why me!!??
Ill be frank, i've never been in a fight. Right at that moment when it happens, i dont feel anger. Even now as i type this, im not even angry about what happened. Do i regret not taking action? Yes, certainly a little regret. And because of that regret, i think back to myself...."damn i shouldve picked up the football, asked who it belonged too, say "go get it", and toss it into traffic or keep it." Then i question myself if i had the chance to go back to that moment, would i even do it?
My friend says i should embrace anger. I wouldnt even know where to begin. It would have to take something serious to get me pissed off, and i mean something extreme.
Anyone with suggestions to solve my dilemna or embrace my anger? I seriously am starting to believe im ****ed up.
As i was walking with my other 2 friends. some prick threw a foam football at my head from behind.
I took off my cap and looked at the guy closest to me, he shouted it wasnt him and pointed at the the prick. i turned my head around to look at him, shook my head and continued walking. i could almost hear the ****ing teenagers laughing at me.
In the past i used to be a nice guy and passive about things. I have grown more confident and more assertive in general over the years.
But when **** like this happens, i find myself to be very easy going/ laid back/ not care/ passive. ****ing 3 winters ago, some other prick tossed a snowball at my head. it's like god has something against me or some ****. even then i didnt retaliate.
Honestly i dont know what it is that makes me a ****ing target. either it's my glasses or my underweight. i walk confidently with my head held high, dont even see how the **** it happens. Im not a geek, nor do i walk or talk or dress like one...why me!!??
Ill be frank, i've never been in a fight. Right at that moment when it happens, i dont feel anger. Even now as i type this, im not even angry about what happened. Do i regret not taking action? Yes, certainly a little regret. And because of that regret, i think back to myself...."damn i shouldve picked up the football, asked who it belonged too, say "go get it", and toss it into traffic or keep it." Then i question myself if i had the chance to go back to that moment, would i even do it?
My friend says i should embrace anger. I wouldnt even know where to begin. It would have to take something serious to get me pissed off, and i mean something extreme.
Anyone with suggestions to solve my dilemna or embrace my anger? I seriously am starting to believe im ****ed up.
