Dapper Don
Don Juan
How do you really, truly change yourself and your perceptions?I've read everything and am getting bogged down with some conflicting answers.
I don't mean tactics and self-improvement and whatnot. I've done all that.
Learned to play blues guitar, started running 12 miles a week, dressed better, cleared up the complexion. Everything. I look and feel better, proud of myself. But really not while out in public. I forget all that.
I mean just letting it all slide and not caring about rejection or embarrasment, screwing the comfort zone, acting like I "own the place." How?
When I talk to most people I don't know I'm reserved and self-conscious. It really isn't noticeable, and I've smoothed it over with dj stuff. Talking slower, laidback posture, etc. But all those things do is patch everything over. Its just posing. I'm still not who I want to be.
I want to be able to truly not care about anything, and do what I want and really not care what others think of me. Say whatever I want to whoever I want, and not worry about embarrasment.
Intellectually I know I can do anything. I am capable of easily accomplishing the ultimate laidbackness that I'm looking for. But when it comes down to it out in public, it means nothing.
I become quiet, looking for things to say instead of just easily flowing with a conversation. I'm not the off-the-wall lunatic I am with people I already know.
In a word, I'm inhibited. Constraints that I invent for myself are holding me back. How do I lose 'em?
And as I typed this, this is where I realize:
I'll fawkin tell you. I intentionally embarrass myself. Not intentionally, but I go out and talk and say whatever I want and look like an ass.
Eventually I'm so used to being around people that I can do whatever.
Its like acclamating to a different climate. You're from Haiti, you go up to Canada and are cold. Every time you go outside you practically die.
Then, as you spend more time outside, you get used to it. The cold doesn't bother you anymore. The rejection doesn't bother you anymore. The embarrassment doesn't bother you anymore.
The only way to become who you want to be after reading this forum is to constantly implement everything. I know you all know this. I'm saying it for myself.
Can you believe I was actually going to post that first bit? Asking how to stop being such a loser? As I typed it I answered my question.
The only way to beat failure is to fail so much you get used to it, and then realize there is no such thing as failure. Or success. The only time you fail is when you are too chickensheet to attempt failure.
So go out and do whatever the hell you feel like. Failure is impossible.
I don't mean tactics and self-improvement and whatnot. I've done all that.
Learned to play blues guitar, started running 12 miles a week, dressed better, cleared up the complexion. Everything. I look and feel better, proud of myself. But really not while out in public. I forget all that.
I mean just letting it all slide and not caring about rejection or embarrasment, screwing the comfort zone, acting like I "own the place." How?
When I talk to most people I don't know I'm reserved and self-conscious. It really isn't noticeable, and I've smoothed it over with dj stuff. Talking slower, laidback posture, etc. But all those things do is patch everything over. Its just posing. I'm still not who I want to be.
I want to be able to truly not care about anything, and do what I want and really not care what others think of me. Say whatever I want to whoever I want, and not worry about embarrasment.
Intellectually I know I can do anything. I am capable of easily accomplishing the ultimate laidbackness that I'm looking for. But when it comes down to it out in public, it means nothing.
I become quiet, looking for things to say instead of just easily flowing with a conversation. I'm not the off-the-wall lunatic I am with people I already know.
In a word, I'm inhibited. Constraints that I invent for myself are holding me back. How do I lose 'em?
And as I typed this, this is where I realize:
I'll fawkin tell you. I intentionally embarrass myself. Not intentionally, but I go out and talk and say whatever I want and look like an ass.
Eventually I'm so used to being around people that I can do whatever.
Its like acclamating to a different climate. You're from Haiti, you go up to Canada and are cold. Every time you go outside you practically die.
Then, as you spend more time outside, you get used to it. The cold doesn't bother you anymore. The rejection doesn't bother you anymore. The embarrassment doesn't bother you anymore.
The only way to become who you want to be after reading this forum is to constantly implement everything. I know you all know this. I'm saying it for myself.
Can you believe I was actually going to post that first bit? Asking how to stop being such a loser? As I typed it I answered my question.
The only way to beat failure is to fail so much you get used to it, and then realize there is no such thing as failure. Or success. The only time you fail is when you are too chickensheet to attempt failure.
So go out and do whatever the hell you feel like. Failure is impossible.