Alphathree
Senior Don Juan
- Joined
- Aug 4, 2005
- Messages
- 405
- Reaction score
- 1
I'm not perfect, but I take pride in never supplicating. I consider it a speciality of mine.
So here I am reading mASF and feeling this *guilt* that HBTallgirl is just coming straight over to my place tomorrow, whereas I wanted to take her mini golfing first.
Keep in mind, this 'desire' to take her mini golfing had been riding in my subconscious for a while. It had never actually, fully surfaced consciously.
I don't want to go kick a fricking golf ball around... I WAS PLANNING TO SUPPLICATE!
Jesus.
This scares me. This is a very basic AFC behaviour. Granted, I didn't actually *do* it, but I was subconsciously thinking about it.
Society's program is clearly still lingering somewhere in my head. Frick.
I suppose the moral of this post is: ALWAYS WATCH your intent, however subtle, however unconscious.
Sigh, I wish I knew other players in real life. I do know naturals, but they would think websites like this are lame. I wish I knew other people *learning* to be players in real life.
Because if I knew such people, we could "debug" each other's actions and look for stupid beliefs like this.
I think I'm going to go write a journal of the past few days in great detail and see if I can catch myself supplicating anywhere else.
So here I am reading mASF and feeling this *guilt* that HBTallgirl is just coming straight over to my place tomorrow, whereas I wanted to take her mini golfing first.
Keep in mind, this 'desire' to take her mini golfing had been riding in my subconscious for a while. It had never actually, fully surfaced consciously.
I don't want to go kick a fricking golf ball around... I WAS PLANNING TO SUPPLICATE!
Jesus.
This scares me. This is a very basic AFC behaviour. Granted, I didn't actually *do* it, but I was subconsciously thinking about it.
Society's program is clearly still lingering somewhere in my head. Frick.
I suppose the moral of this post is: ALWAYS WATCH your intent, however subtle, however unconscious.
Sigh, I wish I knew other players in real life. I do know naturals, but they would think websites like this are lame. I wish I knew other people *learning* to be players in real life.
Because if I knew such people, we could "debug" each other's actions and look for stupid beliefs like this.
I think I'm going to go write a journal of the past few days in great detail and see if I can catch myself supplicating anywhere else.