Hey Guys,
I’ve been reading for a few months now and I feel I should introduce myself. I’m a 46 year old guy that has been around the block a couple of times. I was next’d a few months back by a 36yo 8 that I was living with for the last 7 years, Yeah, Ouch. My fault, I take the blame. I actually ask the bi#c# to marry me. A car wreck coincided with this. I don’t want to think that her seeing her life flash before her eyes, and getting and the proposal two months later triggered something inside her, but that’s how it seemed to me. She actually said YES with all the excitement of a school girl, and promptly started doing things behind my back that I don’t really want to dredge up again. All the while I was falling deeper into AFCdum. I had mellowed some I guess, and maybe actually turned into a nice guy, but after 8 years I thought I could slide and show my true heart. WRONG!! Her in the hospital and so helpless really made me weak inside for her. STUPID!! STUPID!! STUPID!!
I was a male dancer for a few years in my 20’s, I learned a lot about how women really are when I was out on those floors. I had an unfair advantage for a lot of years, but wasn’t with out my failures and my own heartaches. I think it did give me an advantage and a leg up in the DJ game. My problem is I’m a nice guy at heart. I want to do all those nice things for women. I see wildflowers growing I think of the one I care about, and yes, I usually would stop and get some just because she loved me so good the night before or some reason, I always had a reason…lol.
This board has reminded me of things I had long forgotten. How to walk away clean was one, and how to BE THE MAN, was another.
I’m getting my game on again…and in fact was with a 23yo 8 Friday/Saturday, a 32yo 7 on Saturday night and a really sweet, smart, funny, beautiful 44yo 9 most of the day today (Sunday). Practicing the” leave ‘em when they’re high on you” mantra is really not easy, and actually only succeeded once. Well… The 23yo was pretty high on me Saturday morning. Actually this was a lucky weekend, my game was on and I got lucky a couple of times. (Never underestimate luck.) Only lucky once in the sense you guys are thinkin about…lol. I guess my point is, luck begets luck or maybe just increases the confidence levels. Truth is I have been in a lot of pain these last few months and was really ready for a good weekend. Now I have numbers of happy, pretty and interested girls, I just hope I can hold off a few more days before calling that sweet redhead…and you know what? When she let me know her interest was way up there, all the pain from the LTR seemed to vanish. *POOF* Funny I know. I just feel so much better now; I should have tried harder to get numbers before now. I just wasn’t in the mood.
I have been on the internet meeting women and have had phenomenal luck with the 40 to 45yo women, with one even paying my way to NYC for a wonderful long weekend. It’s just that I still miss my 36yo. Not that she still exists; maybe I miss what she was, or what we were. It really feels like someone else is wearing her skin now. I guess my major problem with her is I never had a clean break. NO CLOSURE. She still wants to have sex…”Sure, I’ll swing by”…Yeah, Right...lol. But I still care for her for some weird reason. No, she doesn’t know this... I hope. I really screwed up at the end with her, trying to convince her we were worth saving. STUPID!! STUPID!! I just wish she would just ask for another chance so I could next her with some style. Her interest level is back up some but not enough to take any chances. She wants me to help her with the yard and repairs and stuff. “Yeah, sure, I’ll see you on Saturday”…Yeah Right…lol. I think it’s time for the permanent Ganji.
Anyway, I hope I can contribute something of value in here once in a while. Thanks to everyone posting in the past, you guys really brought me back to life.
I’ve been reading for a few months now and I feel I should introduce myself. I’m a 46 year old guy that has been around the block a couple of times. I was next’d a few months back by a 36yo 8 that I was living with for the last 7 years, Yeah, Ouch. My fault, I take the blame. I actually ask the bi#c# to marry me. A car wreck coincided with this. I don’t want to think that her seeing her life flash before her eyes, and getting and the proposal two months later triggered something inside her, but that’s how it seemed to me. She actually said YES with all the excitement of a school girl, and promptly started doing things behind my back that I don’t really want to dredge up again. All the while I was falling deeper into AFCdum. I had mellowed some I guess, and maybe actually turned into a nice guy, but after 8 years I thought I could slide and show my true heart. WRONG!! Her in the hospital and so helpless really made me weak inside for her. STUPID!! STUPID!! STUPID!!
I was a male dancer for a few years in my 20’s, I learned a lot about how women really are when I was out on those floors. I had an unfair advantage for a lot of years, but wasn’t with out my failures and my own heartaches. I think it did give me an advantage and a leg up in the DJ game. My problem is I’m a nice guy at heart. I want to do all those nice things for women. I see wildflowers growing I think of the one I care about, and yes, I usually would stop and get some just because she loved me so good the night before or some reason, I always had a reason…lol.
This board has reminded me of things I had long forgotten. How to walk away clean was one, and how to BE THE MAN, was another.
I’m getting my game on again…and in fact was with a 23yo 8 Friday/Saturday, a 32yo 7 on Saturday night and a really sweet, smart, funny, beautiful 44yo 9 most of the day today (Sunday). Practicing the” leave ‘em when they’re high on you” mantra is really not easy, and actually only succeeded once. Well… The 23yo was pretty high on me Saturday morning. Actually this was a lucky weekend, my game was on and I got lucky a couple of times. (Never underestimate luck.) Only lucky once in the sense you guys are thinkin about…lol. I guess my point is, luck begets luck or maybe just increases the confidence levels. Truth is I have been in a lot of pain these last few months and was really ready for a good weekend. Now I have numbers of happy, pretty and interested girls, I just hope I can hold off a few more days before calling that sweet redhead…and you know what? When she let me know her interest was way up there, all the pain from the LTR seemed to vanish. *POOF* Funny I know. I just feel so much better now; I should have tried harder to get numbers before now. I just wasn’t in the mood.
I have been on the internet meeting women and have had phenomenal luck with the 40 to 45yo women, with one even paying my way to NYC for a wonderful long weekend. It’s just that I still miss my 36yo. Not that she still exists; maybe I miss what she was, or what we were. It really feels like someone else is wearing her skin now. I guess my major problem with her is I never had a clean break. NO CLOSURE. She still wants to have sex…”Sure, I’ll swing by”…Yeah, Right...lol. But I still care for her for some weird reason. No, she doesn’t know this... I hope. I really screwed up at the end with her, trying to convince her we were worth saving. STUPID!! STUPID!! I just wish she would just ask for another chance so I could next her with some style. Her interest level is back up some but not enough to take any chances. She wants me to help her with the yard and repairs and stuff. “Yeah, sure, I’ll see you on Saturday”…Yeah Right…lol. I think it’s time for the permanent Ganji.
Anyway, I hope I can contribute something of value in here once in a while. Thanks to everyone posting in the past, you guys really brought me back to life.