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Don Juan
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hope this may motivate people into becoming what they wana be! thought id share my journy as i know people will have been through the same stuff.
growing up i was always bad with the woman. i had no girl friends in high school. i had my first proper kiss some time near the end of high school with some random slut who was younger than me and pissed. i had no clue what i was doing. she offered to sleep with me, i got afraid and left. then in college. i had onitis for a girl for two years, eventually i slept with her. till this day im not sure why she selpt with me, maybe out of pity maybe she was drunk. i used to phone this girl every day, talk to her for hours on end. get really anoyed if she talked with another guy, told her i loved her even though we wernt going out, we hadnt even kissed. onitis is a mother f**ker.
then i finished college and found a site called becomeaplayer.com and started to find the online comunity. i used to study the forums there and the articles (i wouldnt recoment this site unless you want your game to diminesh completly) and then i found this site. i read the bible and everythign i could come accross, i came onto the forums every day and would spend about 4 - 5 hours just reading through peoples problems and listening to peoples advice. i thought i was preparing my self for everything BUT i was not in the field yet.
i started posting advice to people (under a different name) and it was pretty good advice, i had positive feedback for my advice but i was STILL not in the field. in my head i was a pick up artist but really i was just a KBJ with good knowledge of the game.
then came the time to go out there and do everything i had been reading about. i went out into the field and i never tried anything. my excuse at the time was " i know exactly what to do to get her into bed, so i cant be bothered or i dont need to. but i could if i wanted to". what aload of bulls**t.
i had no confidence, no experience, no motivation, no game, no nothing. i knew what i wanted to be, i had the means to get there but i did nothing.
about 4 months later i started meeting some new friends (guys) who would introduce me to woman that they knew. then i found something out. i had no problem talking to woman i had been introduced too. im a fairly good looking guy and i do have greate outgoing personality. i found my self generating attraction with these woman and i didnt know why.
after doing some more reading of the stuff i had started to read along time ago when i found this site. i had realised that some of the stuff i had been reading had been burned into my head and i was doing c&f, i was negging, i was being a mystery but i didnt realise it. any way i slept with a few of these girls and had thoes short term relationships with them. they would always leave me because inevitably i thought i had found me a good looking woman and did all the wrong things to try and keep her but ended up scaring her away.
this was on my way to university. i knew i had to make some changes, i did not want to go to uni as a looser like i was in school and college. (although i had great fun at both, i was a failure with woman yet i would not trade the experiences i had).
i went out into the field. i started cold approaching. my first cold approach was in a bookshop with what i would have said at the time was a hb9.9 but now would only say about an 8. i worked the whole, u look like an avid reader, im looking for a book to get a woman but have no idea what they read. the conversation lasted about 5 mins. i asked open ended questions, asked her about what she does etc. i didnt feel comfortable asking for her number so i just thanked her and left. after that my confidence was off the chart. i wlaked around town looking for more girls to approach.
the next day the confidence from that approach was gone. i had to start over again. i went clubbing alot and thought i would work my game in the clubs. i would make eye contact, look for IOIs, i would fluff talk but never take it past that. i guess i was scared but i was not scared of rejection, i had been rejected and i did not care. maybe i was scared of success i dont know. im a good dancer so when i dance i get attention, me and my friends will get girls coming over from the other end of the dance floor to dance near us. yet i would do nothing.
after way to much money wasted on nights out with no closes what so ever. (appart from the odd few girls who i may have kiss closed but they led the whole initiation from the opening to the closing) i decided that was enough. i stayed at home and i read alot more untill i felt like i was able to jump back on the horse.
I think this was the turning point in my PUA life. i was in a popular club one night and there was a hb8 but she was an awesome dancer, she was daning on the stage the whole night. i watched her thinking my god if she can dance like what imagine the things she could do in bed. i watched her reject alot of guys. but i thought to my self they dont have what i have, so i approached her from behind and complimented on her dancing but threw in some ****y stuff like i could dance better. she tells me to prove it. i danced but mimicked her movements (girly dancing with the hips n sh*t) i wasnt impressive but i had her hooked, i was taking the piss out of her dancing. then i asked her if she was any good at dancing with a parnter, she told me better, i told her to prove it. so we danced and i ended up kiss closing her. and almost f**k closing her if it wasnt for her moody friend who had not found her self a man and wanted to go home.
i guess after that i had a ****y attitude and confidence had improved a little.
from there on where ever i went i would talk, be **** and flirt with any girls i saw. not cold approaches but friends of mine, store clerks etc. this made my confidece go through the roof. i started to look at myself in the mirror in a different way.
i would still read everynight but something was different in my head. i decided i didnt need this stuff any more. i know what i want and im damn well guna get it. i quit the boards, the books etc and went into the field alot more. i would dance with any girls that came close to me. i would flirt with every girl i saw. i wasnt using any openers except Hi or Hello. i wasnt using any routines i was simple being myself but confident and a little ****y and arrogant. (making sure the arrogance came accross as a half joke if that makes sense. you know the type where some one cant see if your joking or telling the truth). about a month later i was dating a cheer leader. i had found me a good looking girl friend who would boost my social status imensly. i was dating a cheerleader and people knew this. it made me attractive. the strange thing is it went to my head but in a wierd way. instead of becoming an ego maniac dating a cheerleader and braggind about it. it made me super confident. i knew what i could get if i put my mind on it. the bad thing was i ended up cheating on her with a hotter girl. (in the begining i wanted to be a player, i hated girls for the way the put me in the friend zone all the time. i wanted my revenge). so i cheated on this girl BUT the nice guy in me felt bad. so i broke it off with her. then i ended up getting with the girl i cheated on her with. i stayed with her for a year and half. we went through alot of ups and downs, i lost my self, found myself then lost myself again. i become insecure, jelous paranoid. the things that scare girls off. but i never showed it so she never left. i took some space from her and started to read again.
growing up i was always bad with the woman. i had no girl friends in high school. i had my first proper kiss some time near the end of high school with some random slut who was younger than me and pissed. i had no clue what i was doing. she offered to sleep with me, i got afraid and left. then in college. i had onitis for a girl for two years, eventually i slept with her. till this day im not sure why she selpt with me, maybe out of pity maybe she was drunk. i used to phone this girl every day, talk to her for hours on end. get really anoyed if she talked with another guy, told her i loved her even though we wernt going out, we hadnt even kissed. onitis is a mother f**ker.
then i finished college and found a site called becomeaplayer.com and started to find the online comunity. i used to study the forums there and the articles (i wouldnt recoment this site unless you want your game to diminesh completly) and then i found this site. i read the bible and everythign i could come accross, i came onto the forums every day and would spend about 4 - 5 hours just reading through peoples problems and listening to peoples advice. i thought i was preparing my self for everything BUT i was not in the field yet.
i started posting advice to people (under a different name) and it was pretty good advice, i had positive feedback for my advice but i was STILL not in the field. in my head i was a pick up artist but really i was just a KBJ with good knowledge of the game.
then came the time to go out there and do everything i had been reading about. i went out into the field and i never tried anything. my excuse at the time was " i know exactly what to do to get her into bed, so i cant be bothered or i dont need to. but i could if i wanted to". what aload of bulls**t.
i had no confidence, no experience, no motivation, no game, no nothing. i knew what i wanted to be, i had the means to get there but i did nothing.
about 4 months later i started meeting some new friends (guys) who would introduce me to woman that they knew. then i found something out. i had no problem talking to woman i had been introduced too. im a fairly good looking guy and i do have greate outgoing personality. i found my self generating attraction with these woman and i didnt know why.
after doing some more reading of the stuff i had started to read along time ago when i found this site. i had realised that some of the stuff i had been reading had been burned into my head and i was doing c&f, i was negging, i was being a mystery but i didnt realise it. any way i slept with a few of these girls and had thoes short term relationships with them. they would always leave me because inevitably i thought i had found me a good looking woman and did all the wrong things to try and keep her but ended up scaring her away.
this was on my way to university. i knew i had to make some changes, i did not want to go to uni as a looser like i was in school and college. (although i had great fun at both, i was a failure with woman yet i would not trade the experiences i had).
i went out into the field. i started cold approaching. my first cold approach was in a bookshop with what i would have said at the time was a hb9.9 but now would only say about an 8. i worked the whole, u look like an avid reader, im looking for a book to get a woman but have no idea what they read. the conversation lasted about 5 mins. i asked open ended questions, asked her about what she does etc. i didnt feel comfortable asking for her number so i just thanked her and left. after that my confidence was off the chart. i wlaked around town looking for more girls to approach.
the next day the confidence from that approach was gone. i had to start over again. i went clubbing alot and thought i would work my game in the clubs. i would make eye contact, look for IOIs, i would fluff talk but never take it past that. i guess i was scared but i was not scared of rejection, i had been rejected and i did not care. maybe i was scared of success i dont know. im a good dancer so when i dance i get attention, me and my friends will get girls coming over from the other end of the dance floor to dance near us. yet i would do nothing.
after way to much money wasted on nights out with no closes what so ever. (appart from the odd few girls who i may have kiss closed but they led the whole initiation from the opening to the closing) i decided that was enough. i stayed at home and i read alot more untill i felt like i was able to jump back on the horse.
I think this was the turning point in my PUA life. i was in a popular club one night and there was a hb8 but she was an awesome dancer, she was daning on the stage the whole night. i watched her thinking my god if she can dance like what imagine the things she could do in bed. i watched her reject alot of guys. but i thought to my self they dont have what i have, so i approached her from behind and complimented on her dancing but threw in some ****y stuff like i could dance better. she tells me to prove it. i danced but mimicked her movements (girly dancing with the hips n sh*t) i wasnt impressive but i had her hooked, i was taking the piss out of her dancing. then i asked her if she was any good at dancing with a parnter, she told me better, i told her to prove it. so we danced and i ended up kiss closing her. and almost f**k closing her if it wasnt for her moody friend who had not found her self a man and wanted to go home.
i guess after that i had a ****y attitude and confidence had improved a little.
from there on where ever i went i would talk, be **** and flirt with any girls i saw. not cold approaches but friends of mine, store clerks etc. this made my confidece go through the roof. i started to look at myself in the mirror in a different way.
i would still read everynight but something was different in my head. i decided i didnt need this stuff any more. i know what i want and im damn well guna get it. i quit the boards, the books etc and went into the field alot more. i would dance with any girls that came close to me. i would flirt with every girl i saw. i wasnt using any openers except Hi or Hello. i wasnt using any routines i was simple being myself but confident and a little ****y and arrogant. (making sure the arrogance came accross as a half joke if that makes sense. you know the type where some one cant see if your joking or telling the truth). about a month later i was dating a cheer leader. i had found me a good looking girl friend who would boost my social status imensly. i was dating a cheerleader and people knew this. it made me attractive. the strange thing is it went to my head but in a wierd way. instead of becoming an ego maniac dating a cheerleader and braggind about it. it made me super confident. i knew what i could get if i put my mind on it. the bad thing was i ended up cheating on her with a hotter girl. (in the begining i wanted to be a player, i hated girls for the way the put me in the friend zone all the time. i wanted my revenge). so i cheated on this girl BUT the nice guy in me felt bad. so i broke it off with her. then i ended up getting with the girl i cheated on her with. i stayed with her for a year and half. we went through alot of ups and downs, i lost my self, found myself then lost myself again. i become insecure, jelous paranoid. the things that scare girls off. but i never showed it so she never left. i took some space from her and started to read again.
) life is good!!
