Hi, am gonna keep my story fairly long but i REALLY have to get this off my chest and what a better way to tell my problem to the people who understand it best!
Anyway there was this time in highschool, i saw this girl and thought she was kind of odd looking, she just moved to my school in the middle of the semester, i started noticing she kept looking at me ( about 8 times whenever i glance at her ) the wierd thing is that i dont even like this girl at first but after she gave me the eye contact, I imediatly fell in love with her, I think this is because i never had a girl stare at me so much before, perhaps it was out of desparation that a girl actually likes me!also she has the most AMAZING eyes i have ever seen.
The eye contact stop after a few days, i started wondering why she stop looking so i became even more obsess so one day i ask if i could speak with her in the library. I ask her the stupdiest questions known to man, i ask her if she know there was this guy that told me i like her (one of my buddies, i found out he dint tell her anything ) anyway she said no... now shes think am really wierd, as i stood there, i can tell my leg was shaking and am getting cold sweat, we dint say anything to each other for a few sec... and she kinda gave me the roll eyes and left.
A few weeks later, i saw her by her locker so i approuch, when she saw me comming, i can tell she did not want me to come over, i can tell it in her eyes but wanting to talk to her so much i went ahead anyway so i said "hi" told her she always skip class and what class she has now, ask her if she has a boyfriend and she said yes, she act odd the whole time but when i ask that, she smile and was excited to say she had a boyfriendas. As am writing this i wish i had found this site back then cause my friends gave me the worse advice you can give, he told me to tell her that she made me nervous when shes around and thats excakly what i did, i told her she made me nervous, i can tell she thinks am the wierdest guy in the school, so i said she you around k? and she was yea...
months later, still giving her all these eye contact when i see her, always looking for a chance to talk to her again, at this point i wasnt really sure if she likes me or not, yea i know what your thinking, she hates your gut, forget her and move on! well i wasnt about to give up untill i atleast ask her out.
I finally saw her outside school and was walking home alone so i follow her and call her name but she dint respond so i went to her and ask why shes avoiding me, she said that i caught her in a bad time or some wacky excuse... so we started talking, she ask my questions like where am i going now etc... am the one that talked most of the conversation. At one point i ask her if she was still with her boyfriend, she said they broke up am guessing thats a good thing? so as we were walking home, when i reach my house, i stop but she continue walking as if i wasnt even there so i said bye, she turn and said by and continue walking, this was the last time i talked to her.
With all these BIG signs that shows she doent like you but i still dint want to give up because i dint ask her out, being in denied as i am at this point, i dint care if my mark drop like a rock, skipping class like crazy to get a chance to get a peak at her, i thought she was the perfect 10, heck 100 if you could go higher...
Last day of school, if i dont talk to her today, i wont get another chance, as i was walking to school, i saw her across the street and she was crossing the street, if i had continue walking i would have bump into her and get my last chance to ask her out instead i stop and went the other way, still to this day am pissed off about that. Thinking i still have the chance in school, there i see her with her friends but she was never alone... school is almost done, 2 of her friends passed by her and mention something about stalking, i was curious if they were talking about me. I had enought of this **** and left, that was my last day of school, ****ty.
About a few days later my sis told me that her friend told her that she thinks am stalking her, it might come off that way because i was always looking for a chance to catch her alone so i can talk to her but shes NEVER alone, i guess if the girl thinks you stalk her then you dont have a chance, ok thats my highschool story.
this was about 2.5 years ago, am still questioning myself till this day why i do the things i do and if i play the game right, i might have got her, i think she did like me at the start but being a newbie as am i did the total oppisite of what a DJ should do.
What did i learn from all of this? hmmm not much, i still want to ask her out to atleast get a straight anwer, this is eating me up, i know she gave me all kinds of signs but she also gave signs that she might like me etc... what do you guys think should i still go for it after almost 3 years? is is better to move on or to fix the past? i dont obsess over her anymore but if i did go up to her and ask her out, i can say that ohh i DID ask her out but not rejected instead of questioning myself when am an old man.
Thanks for listening.
Anyway there was this time in highschool, i saw this girl and thought she was kind of odd looking, she just moved to my school in the middle of the semester, i started noticing she kept looking at me ( about 8 times whenever i glance at her ) the wierd thing is that i dont even like this girl at first but after she gave me the eye contact, I imediatly fell in love with her, I think this is because i never had a girl stare at me so much before, perhaps it was out of desparation that a girl actually likes me!also she has the most AMAZING eyes i have ever seen.
The eye contact stop after a few days, i started wondering why she stop looking so i became even more obsess so one day i ask if i could speak with her in the library. I ask her the stupdiest questions known to man, i ask her if she know there was this guy that told me i like her (one of my buddies, i found out he dint tell her anything ) anyway she said no... now shes think am really wierd, as i stood there, i can tell my leg was shaking and am getting cold sweat, we dint say anything to each other for a few sec... and she kinda gave me the roll eyes and left.
A few weeks later, i saw her by her locker so i approuch, when she saw me comming, i can tell she did not want me to come over, i can tell it in her eyes but wanting to talk to her so much i went ahead anyway so i said "hi" told her she always skip class and what class she has now, ask her if she has a boyfriend and she said yes, she act odd the whole time but when i ask that, she smile and was excited to say she had a boyfriendas. As am writing this i wish i had found this site back then cause my friends gave me the worse advice you can give, he told me to tell her that she made me nervous when shes around and thats excakly what i did, i told her she made me nervous, i can tell she thinks am the wierdest guy in the school, so i said she you around k? and she was yea...
months later, still giving her all these eye contact when i see her, always looking for a chance to talk to her again, at this point i wasnt really sure if she likes me or not, yea i know what your thinking, she hates your gut, forget her and move on! well i wasnt about to give up untill i atleast ask her out.
I finally saw her outside school and was walking home alone so i follow her and call her name but she dint respond so i went to her and ask why shes avoiding me, she said that i caught her in a bad time or some wacky excuse... so we started talking, she ask my questions like where am i going now etc... am the one that talked most of the conversation. At one point i ask her if she was still with her boyfriend, she said they broke up am guessing thats a good thing? so as we were walking home, when i reach my house, i stop but she continue walking as if i wasnt even there so i said bye, she turn and said by and continue walking, this was the last time i talked to her.
With all these BIG signs that shows she doent like you but i still dint want to give up because i dint ask her out, being in denied as i am at this point, i dint care if my mark drop like a rock, skipping class like crazy to get a chance to get a peak at her, i thought she was the perfect 10, heck 100 if you could go higher...
Last day of school, if i dont talk to her today, i wont get another chance, as i was walking to school, i saw her across the street and she was crossing the street, if i had continue walking i would have bump into her and get my last chance to ask her out instead i stop and went the other way, still to this day am pissed off about that. Thinking i still have the chance in school, there i see her with her friends but she was never alone... school is almost done, 2 of her friends passed by her and mention something about stalking, i was curious if they were talking about me. I had enought of this **** and left, that was my last day of school, ****ty.
About a few days later my sis told me that her friend told her that she thinks am stalking her, it might come off that way because i was always looking for a chance to catch her alone so i can talk to her but shes NEVER alone, i guess if the girl thinks you stalk her then you dont have a chance, ok thats my highschool story.
this was about 2.5 years ago, am still questioning myself till this day why i do the things i do and if i play the game right, i might have got her, i think she did like me at the start but being a newbie as am i did the total oppisite of what a DJ should do.
What did i learn from all of this? hmmm not much, i still want to ask her out to atleast get a straight anwer, this is eating me up, i know she gave me all kinds of signs but she also gave signs that she might like me etc... what do you guys think should i still go for it after almost 3 years? is is better to move on or to fix the past? i dont obsess over her anymore but if i did go up to her and ask her out, i can say that ohh i DID ask her out but not rejected instead of questioning myself when am an old man.
Thanks for listening.
