I have been around the forum for a couple of months but have not had the courage to start doing. So heres my story. I am 15 years old and I live in Puerto Rico. I have friends etc. but I am very shy around girls. I have been interested in improving myself for quit a while now but have not acted. I made a deal with a bro of mine that we WILL improve. We are going to do the donjuan bootcamp and then move from there. He more shy than me. We are gonna give this all we got because we have the tools and the opportunity to do so.
I have known a girl who I am going to name Emily for about 2 years. I have liked and stopped liking her along the course of these two years. I know this is pathetic and my friends tell me so. Before two months ago she was the one that was in control and I had kind of a big crush. Then I said, if I begin to ignore her then she will want me back. So I played hard to get and acted as if I did not have much interest in her and she's got a big crush on me. I had tried to plan something with her but never got that opportunity till yesterday. I had a feeling in my gut that I would have my first kiss that night. So here goes day 1. I don't know if I should post everyday or in the weekends only, if one of you could tell me which is best i would appreciate it.
Day 1:
First I call my friend because I want him and me to improve. He makes a bunch of excuses to not go to the party and I get kind of pissed with him because he does this alot and says next time hes not gonna make any more excuses. I get motivated for the party and talk with another bro of mine called John so I would have someone in the party to hang out at the beggining. I arrive and hang out with John for a while. Then I see her and say: "hi emily, ill come back later". I leave imediatly because I was very shy. I was shy and didn't know what to do so I kinda followed some friends of mine :S. Then a friend of here comes to me and asks me :"When are you going to talk to emily?". I tell her "later" and she leaves. I give my cellphone to John and told him "If i don't make out with Emily or talk with her you can stay with my phone till monday". A while later her friend comes back and tells me "Come on you have to talk with Emily." I go and kind of in an akward way we sit in the where everybody is standed talking. I am nervous but we talk for a while. Then I tell here "lets go to this other table where it is more quiet". We go there and talk then she saids "Lets go to another place". So we leave the party and go outside because I was going to take her to a basketball court where we had our first and only kiss one year before(before yesterday I had never made out with a girl but I did kiss here briefly one year before). About after walking five minutes she stops and tells me "Take of my shoes". I tell her
"I'm not gonna to that, who do you think you are!"(I say it a kinda friendly way in spanish.) So she says "fine" and starts trying to take them of. Then I say "You take of your first shoe then I'll take out you second one". I do that. We start walking and arrive the court. We sit and talk for a while. Her mom starts calling her and texting her. Emily calls her to see whats going on. She goes a little far away to talk with her mom. Then she hangs up and sits next to me. She has a purse in her hand and tell her to drop it next to her. I wanted to kiss her but she had gum in her mouth and told her to throw it away. She goes far away and throws it. When she starts coming back I stand up and stare at her lips and lean in. We start making out but about 10 seconds and I stop(I did not know what to do and how long). He leans her head in my chest and me in her head. Then I tell here come on lets talk. And we start a normal conversation. She mentioned about 2 times that she wanted to go to drink water using it as an excuse to go back. I tell here there is water right next to us. She drinks and we didn't have much to do so I ask here if she wants to go back and she says "yes". We arrive the party and I tell her that I will come back later. I go and talk with my friends. I never went back until I left at 12:00 because I wanted to leave. The party ended at 1:30. Before I go to say goodbye I ask a friend of mine if I should kiss her in the mouth before I leave. He said not in the mouth but very close to it. I try this but she moves her head so I kiss her in the cheek.
I am the first boy she has ever kissed and made out. She is a shy girl with boys but her girl friends are very popular. I am motivated. The maked out was not that big of a deal, I thought it would be the best thing in my life. This is probably because its my first time and it was to short. But I am pleased. I know I can do better. I like this girl but I do not want a date. I want to make out a couple of times, we can be friends but I don't want to get in a relationship or maybe I do, im not sure yet.
Any tips comments, how could i improve etc. what i did wrong and right. I want to start going to the gym also because im pretty skinny. Thank you so much. I will keep posting.
I have known a girl who I am going to name Emily for about 2 years. I have liked and stopped liking her along the course of these two years. I know this is pathetic and my friends tell me so. Before two months ago she was the one that was in control and I had kind of a big crush. Then I said, if I begin to ignore her then she will want me back. So I played hard to get and acted as if I did not have much interest in her and she's got a big crush on me. I had tried to plan something with her but never got that opportunity till yesterday. I had a feeling in my gut that I would have my first kiss that night. So here goes day 1. I don't know if I should post everyday or in the weekends only, if one of you could tell me which is best i would appreciate it.
Day 1:
First I call my friend because I want him and me to improve. He makes a bunch of excuses to not go to the party and I get kind of pissed with him because he does this alot and says next time hes not gonna make any more excuses. I get motivated for the party and talk with another bro of mine called John so I would have someone in the party to hang out at the beggining. I arrive and hang out with John for a while. Then I see her and say: "hi emily, ill come back later". I leave imediatly because I was very shy. I was shy and didn't know what to do so I kinda followed some friends of mine :S. Then a friend of here comes to me and asks me :"When are you going to talk to emily?". I tell her "later" and she leaves. I give my cellphone to John and told him "If i don't make out with Emily or talk with her you can stay with my phone till monday". A while later her friend comes back and tells me "Come on you have to talk with Emily." I go and kind of in an akward way we sit in the where everybody is standed talking. I am nervous but we talk for a while. Then I tell here "lets go to this other table where it is more quiet". We go there and talk then she saids "Lets go to another place". So we leave the party and go outside because I was going to take her to a basketball court where we had our first and only kiss one year before(before yesterday I had never made out with a girl but I did kiss here briefly one year before). About after walking five minutes she stops and tells me "Take of my shoes". I tell her
"I'm not gonna to that, who do you think you are!"(I say it a kinda friendly way in spanish.) So she says "fine" and starts trying to take them of. Then I say "You take of your first shoe then I'll take out you second one". I do that. We start walking and arrive the court. We sit and talk for a while. Her mom starts calling her and texting her. Emily calls her to see whats going on. She goes a little far away to talk with her mom. Then she hangs up and sits next to me. She has a purse in her hand and tell her to drop it next to her. I wanted to kiss her but she had gum in her mouth and told her to throw it away. She goes far away and throws it. When she starts coming back I stand up and stare at her lips and lean in. We start making out but about 10 seconds and I stop(I did not know what to do and how long). He leans her head in my chest and me in her head. Then I tell here come on lets talk. And we start a normal conversation. She mentioned about 2 times that she wanted to go to drink water using it as an excuse to go back. I tell here there is water right next to us. She drinks and we didn't have much to do so I ask here if she wants to go back and she says "yes". We arrive the party and I tell her that I will come back later. I go and talk with my friends. I never went back until I left at 12:00 because I wanted to leave. The party ended at 1:30. Before I go to say goodbye I ask a friend of mine if I should kiss her in the mouth before I leave. He said not in the mouth but very close to it. I try this but she moves her head so I kiss her in the cheek.
I am the first boy she has ever kissed and made out. She is a shy girl with boys but her girl friends are very popular. I am motivated. The maked out was not that big of a deal, I thought it would be the best thing in my life. This is probably because its my first time and it was to short. But I am pleased. I know I can do better. I like this girl but I do not want a date. I want to make out a couple of times, we can be friends but I don't want to get in a relationship or maybe I do, im not sure yet.
Any tips comments, how could i improve etc. what i did wrong and right. I want to start going to the gym also because im pretty skinny. Thank you so much. I will keep posting.
