I'm unable to get my mind around exactly what the hell could possibly be wrong with me but something so seemingly trivial is putting me in a state of melancholy. To be dead ****ing honest typing this in itself causes me unbearable shame. I understand you guys aren't doctors but your comments, opinions and suggestions (so long as they aren't one of those random, sarcastic comments made by some c0cksucker internet warrior trying to be funny or sound smarter then he/she really is) would be greatly appreciated.
To keep things in perspective, as of right now I haven't made it to "rock star status" yet, so it's not like I bed several different women every night of the week, but whenever I get lucky with a girl that meets my standards I try to seize that opportunity. This happens sometimes, not always therefore I'm not really as experienced as I'd like to be. This is ignoring the fact that I screwed my first chick sometime last year, and before then I wasted 3.5 years of my life on my ex "potential" fiancee whom I've NEVER had any sexual contact with. I'll point the finger at my religious upbringings for the mistake of waiting but right now I don't now if this is contributing to the issue at hand.
Anyways to make a long story short I've gotten "lucky" on two different occasions this past week alone, with two totally different broads and my fvcking c0ck (if it even manages to come up) doesn't wanna STAY hard! The first woman I was with had me ready to go (it felt like I was equipped with a steel pipe shooting out from my "private" section) but I began to lose my hardness all while I was trying to get the fvcking condom on and right from there my life went straight to hell on a one way ticket. I tried becoming erect a second... scratch that, a fourth or fifth time and it just became impossible. It's like the more I tried the worse I made it.
Several hours ago I had a fresh opportunity with a new broad (god did she have a nice fukcing pvssy) and found myself haunted by the same bullsh!t situation from last week. I was a little over "halfway" hard after getting a bl0wjob and sliding on the condom yet only managed to slide the head inside of her and nothing more. I was having a difficult time getting it inside of her and even though it felt insanely incredible when my glans were rubbing up against that beautiful fukcing pvssy I was still finding it difficult to become excited enough to slide the fvcker into her and enjoy one of life's greatest pleasures. I was afraid before things even progressed to that level that I was going to face the same situation I did last week. This has officially ****ed up my life! It's beyond depressing and absolutely repugnant and makes me very disappointed in myself. How could it even be possible to want something so bad that when the opportunity arises some mysterious setback on my behalf prevents me from enjoying the experience?
Has anyone ever had this experience? Any suggestions at the very least? This seems to be one of those incredibly awkward occurrences that can only happen to me. Also keep in mind that a common theme is women commenting as to how "nervous" and tense I seem in these situations.
To keep things in perspective, as of right now I haven't made it to "rock star status" yet, so it's not like I bed several different women every night of the week, but whenever I get lucky with a girl that meets my standards I try to seize that opportunity. This happens sometimes, not always therefore I'm not really as experienced as I'd like to be. This is ignoring the fact that I screwed my first chick sometime last year, and before then I wasted 3.5 years of my life on my ex "potential" fiancee whom I've NEVER had any sexual contact with. I'll point the finger at my religious upbringings for the mistake of waiting but right now I don't now if this is contributing to the issue at hand.
Anyways to make a long story short I've gotten "lucky" on two different occasions this past week alone, with two totally different broads and my fvcking c0ck (if it even manages to come up) doesn't wanna STAY hard! The first woman I was with had me ready to go (it felt like I was equipped with a steel pipe shooting out from my "private" section) but I began to lose my hardness all while I was trying to get the fvcking condom on and right from there my life went straight to hell on a one way ticket. I tried becoming erect a second... scratch that, a fourth or fifth time and it just became impossible. It's like the more I tried the worse I made it.
Several hours ago I had a fresh opportunity with a new broad (god did she have a nice fukcing pvssy) and found myself haunted by the same bullsh!t situation from last week. I was a little over "halfway" hard after getting a bl0wjob and sliding on the condom yet only managed to slide the head inside of her and nothing more. I was having a difficult time getting it inside of her and even though it felt insanely incredible when my glans were rubbing up against that beautiful fukcing pvssy I was still finding it difficult to become excited enough to slide the fvcker into her and enjoy one of life's greatest pleasures. I was afraid before things even progressed to that level that I was going to face the same situation I did last week. This has officially ****ed up my life! It's beyond depressing and absolutely repugnant and makes me very disappointed in myself. How could it even be possible to want something so bad that when the opportunity arises some mysterious setback on my behalf prevents me from enjoying the experience?
Has anyone ever had this experience? Any suggestions at the very least? This seems to be one of those incredibly awkward occurrences that can only happen to me. Also keep in mind that a common theme is women commenting as to how "nervous" and tense I seem in these situations.