Originally posted by The Bad Ass Canadian
We've been together for about a yr and I'm still not in love with her, but I do really enjoy her company.
The Bad Ass Canadian
For some reason that statement you have made caught me. Now, I havent been with this girl for a year, actually it hasnt been 4 days that I've been really putting it on.
I just got a call from her friend 2 minutes ago and she asked me if I like her. So I gave her the "its possible" routine etc.. Then she goes "She has a boyfriend, but let me give you hint, having a boyfriend isnt a brick wall, I could tell you liked her last night." Then I said "Well, you didnt see me hesitate did you?" "No."
Now, today I had a kinda depressed day. I dont know why because I know not to get caught into the blackhole of desperation.
But, I wasnt being desperate I dont believe. I just LIKED her company and everything that goes with it. I mean, we saw each other 3 days in a row. Now, she lives 5 houses away.
I have been fighting with myself all day. "ANTHONY, YOU NEED TO STOP SEEING THIS GIRL FOR ATLEAST 3 DAYS"
Now, My DJ inside of me won. I have to say, its VERY hard when you just start hanging with guys and chill etc..
Then you start hanging with girls and its something different and you like that. Its fun and it has an advantage, the sexual part. I feel my best and the happiest and ON TOP OF MY GAME when I'm around women and it makes me feel good.
Now, I know that women shouldnt be the reason why your happy and I see why the rule is in the Bible.
2 years ago, I was FAT and had pimples all over my face. I didnt do anything but play video games and eat **** all day. I had friends, but there was something missing.
Well, I started to go to the gym and I'm lucky enough to be in the position that I can have a trainer. Everything hit me at once. I found this site and I started my self-analyzing and started improving myself. Now, I have never gone out with a girl or even kissed a girl. But I have got *******s. Yay.
Well, for the first time a girl was laying on top of me on a couch. It has just hit me, but when I'm actually there I'm a stright DJ. I mean I have never experienced that before and I was acting like a fukking pro. I was massaging her inner thigh, blowing on her neck, rubbing her stomach.
I was funny as **** and it came out natural. I dont know if I'm a natural DJ that needs to come out because I'm losing weight or that I've read so much great stuff here that it got implanted in my subconcious.
I have never kissed a girl, but I bet I can pull it off for the first time like I've kissed thousands of women.
The last girl that I was going after was kinda of a oneitis. I mean I used to dream up **** in my head all the time. "Us doing this, Us doing that" etc.. It made me depressed and I couldnt handle it. I used to dream of sitting on the couch with her and just cuddling and watch a movie. Now, I walk into my friends house one day and she laying on the couch with this guy doing what I wanted to be doing.
Now I actually am doing that and it feelings great. I've been missing something in my life and now I'm experiencing it. Its hard not to be desperate and I'm fighting it to best I can.
All I can say is, its hard to not act desperate and always being over ther with her because I really enjoy holding her in my arms.
Let's look at Pook's list of sighs of desperation.
-always giving the women attention.
*I can say I dont do this, by attention I mean when youre in the situation with her and she's around. Her and her friend were both over and I would flirt with her friend alittle just for this rule exactly
-calling all the time (and calling immediately once getting the number, immediately returning a call, etc.)
*Now this is something I just can't do. I might WANT to call her but I would never do it. I might not call enough.
-taking every opportunity to talk to them (and telling everything about yourself)
*This is something that I dont do also. I like to be vague and let her think and wonder.
-always available.
*Now now, this is something I might suffer from. During summer it can be very boring when all youre friends are working during the week and on vacation. It's hard not to be always available, but I have worked on this a lot today. I have come with, if you were sitting at home doing nothing, you dont have to tell people that.
-NEVER willing to walk away (NEVER willing to disagree, ALWAYS supplicating).
*Now this is something I'm good at. I disagree just to disagree sometime. I love fukkign with them and just giving their ***** attitude back at them. I dont put up with that **** and I never will. I have seen guys that are whipped and I promised myself that I will never be like that.
I can't believe I just wrote all that stuff. Does it have to do with anything that you even posted about? Sorry for my rant. Hope you learned something even if it was your question.