My Addiction

[Love_Hustla]

This is a true story of my experience with this site. It is a pathetic, embarrassing story. It is one that must be told.

I've been around these forums since early 2005. Despite my young age, I could spew the facts of the DJ Bible with the best of them. I've got a steel trap for a memory, and could probably recite every article in the Bible.

I'm addicted to the idea of this site and I constantly find myself reading, but I seem to have missed the point of it as I haven't really improved my game.

Often I get this false sense of hope that I am right on the edge of busting out and reaching my goals.

Don’t let my recent ‘sign up’ date fool you, I've been on 3 different accounts since 2005, with this one being the least used by a long shot.

The first account, I started with the best of intentions. I was honest to start, asking genuine questions. But quickly, my insecurities got the better of me. I began to lie uncontrollably. Before I knew it, I was attempting to gain the respect of a group of men whom I didn't know. I went through the DJ Boot camp without doing a thing, and posting false field reports.

I quickly realized how pathetic I was and created a new account, again with the best of intentions. I started posting up FRs which started off completely true. Quickly I started becoming paranoid that someone I knew would catch on to me and see how pathetic I was to be on a seduction site. I started throwing in white lies to protect my security and privacy, and before I knew it once again I was back to lying. I would actually go out to the places I said, but the results would be completely different.

This account, I made in attempts to start over. I was planning to hide my true identity behind a screen and tackle my weaknesses through writing advice. The advice that I wrote under this account is the definition of hypocriticism. I realized this and quickly abandoned it.

That's my story up to today.

So what changed today?

Well early in the day I asked an old ‘oneitis’ to hang out at her house during the day and she said yes, it would be fun. So I went out to shovel off my car (got like a foot of snow the night before) finished it, froze my balls off and upon finishing I received a text telling me that her plans changed. She was going somewhere else with her friends and invited me along. My rationality told me that it wasn’t a big deal, it was just a flake. However my emotions disagreed.

All of the frustrations over the past few years of all this work going in and no sex coming out came to a point. I snapped. I got really pissed off, not at her but at myself. I knew I shouldn’t get mad, I knew I shouldn’t care about this one girl when there’s 3 billion in the world. I seem to know EVERYTHING!

As I always do, I logged onto sosuave. When I tried to create a new account it told me that I already made an account with my e-mail. This reminded me of who I am. This gave me a wake up call; it really made me think about my life. So instead of creating a new e-mail account, I decided to man up and use this one by telling the truth from the start.

Pretty pathetic thing to do, huh?

However don't be too quick to adopt an image of me as a loser or a nerd. Like the site told me to, I've improved myself to no avail. In fact, my life is consumed by improvement. Hell I could be the posterboy for 'how to improve your life.'

I’ve abandoned my old friends to improve.
I’ve started being more of a jerk.
I started going to the parties.
I started talking to girls.
I’ve started hanging out with the cool kids.
I’ve straightened my teeth.
I’ve whitened my teeth.
I’ve cut my long, shaggy hair.
I’ve started dressing preppy.
I always wear clean clothes.
I always wear expensive colognes.
I shower and shave before I go anywhere.
I’ve gotten into incredible shape.
I’ve cleared up my acne at a great cost.

I’ve sacrificed a lot to get where I am, and you know what? I’m pretty much where I was 4 years ago except with a new sense of arrogance.

I STILL get no girls.

It drives me back to the site.

Over and over, I see guys put the strategies of sosuave into action successfully. Over and over I read ‘improve your life.’ Over and over, I read success stories.

They keep me here.

I’m addicted.

Help me end this.

 

[Canadien]

Hey Brother, to give you few words..

In Hindu religion, they say the main purpose for you being here is to do your "karma," which in a sense means keep doing things to help yourself and others, and improving yourself along the way, without any consideration for outcome.

And when you just keep doing and improving, then success will surely follow you wherever you go, and with no expectation, anything you get is a a gift...

So, forget about hooking up, and laying girls; and start thinking of a big picture, and how much you've taken your life further ahead by being proactive, and asking the tough questions, and also coming up with answers, and will to make your life better then what it would have been.

I say, tap yourself on the back for the progress you've made, and get excited about tomorrow. Think about how you will do so many things in a upcoming year, that a lot of people miss out on, and have fun doing them, while you're at it...

Start enjoying life, and welcome hardships, and faliurs; thats what makes this damn life so great and exciting, as there would be no fun if you never struggled a bit.

 

[sandman6991]

The more emphasis you put on results...the worse you'll do

 

[mongolboy]

man don worry the WORLD AINT GONNA END FOO! Fucin do what you do and undo, if somethin u doin aint workin do somethin else ya dig ? psshhh dont FUCIN FOCUSE ON THE GIRLS U FUCIN LOOSER, not sayin i am not one i use 2 be but not until i found my passion and went persuin it ya feel ? IM GOING INTO FASHION RIGHT NOW AND JUST GOT A BI GDEAL WITH LRG TO ASIA WOOT WOOT ANYWAYS LIFE IS ALL ABOUT HAVING FUN MAN WHATS THE POINT IF YOU AINT YA DIG? GIRLS COME TO YOU WHEN YOU DOIN IT BIG AND FOCUSIN ON YOUR PASSION... AND MOST MAN CANT DO THAT ONLY FEW CAN.. These motherfucerse focusin on girls instead of their carrer and life are FUCIN LOOSERSE im tellin you.. You gonna be the one enjoyin life more and havin all the girls in the long run .. FOLLOW YOUR PASSION FIRST!

 

[DonJuan11]

However don't be too quick to adopt an image of me as a loser or a nerd. Like the site told me to, I've improved myself to no avail. In fact, my life is consumed by improvement. Hell I could be the posterboy for 'how to improve your life.'

I’ve abandoned my old friends to improve.
I’ve started being more of a jerk.
I started going to the parties.
I started talking to girls.
I’ve started hanging out with the cool kids.
I’ve straightened my teeth.
I’ve whitened my teeth.
I’ve cut my long, shaggy hair.
I’ve started dressing preppy.
I always wear clean clothes.
I always wear expensive colognes.
I shower and shave before I go anywhere.
I’ve gotten into incredible shape.
I’ve cleared up my acne at a great cost.

I’ve sacrificed a lot to get where I am, and you know what? I’m pretty much where I was 4 years ago except with a new sense of arrogance.

I STILL get no girls.

Over and over, I see guys put the strategies of sosuave into action successfully. Over and over I read ‘improve your life.’ Over and over, I read success stories.

Help me end this.

You are not giving us enough information. Where do you meet girls? What's your game? Who are friends? What do you do as a job? Do you have a degree? Are you rich? Do you have nice car? Are you funny? Are you touchy-feely? What do you do on Saturday nights? What do you do so a girl you want to sleep with will want to let you inside her before you order the water at a restuarant? Can you play guitar like Slash or can you get to Level 10 in X-box 360 Spiderman Special edition? Are you trying to get 22 year old virgins who haven't been touched by 6'1 football players or are you trying to get 35 year old bi-sexual killers like Sharon Stone?

I could go on but the pity-train is out of gas.

 

[ready123]

yea post a more detailed FR if you want guys to figure out what you're doing wrong

the biggest improvement you made was to stop being a KJ and come to the realization of how much you sucked. in that regard, fvck the community. it's just a resource, not a source of validation. on top of that, there's a lot of misinformation on this site, which might explain your lack of results. and if you've been here since 2005 and done nothing, you've probably internalized somebody else's thought patterns which you're incongruent with