I have a problem that I just can't get over. It's growing on my self-esteem and preventing me from unlocking my full potential.
I'm a sophomore in high school. I'm 6'0 and have a pretty muscular build that makes me stand out from the crowd of average 10th graders. I focus mainly on education, rather than socializing. I'm the type of guy who you'd envision as the outgoing, womanizing jock with many friends. The truth is, I'm pretty much the opposite. After years of emotional abuse I grew a shell around myself, I stood distant from my classmates and accepted the moniker of "that guy over there who never talks".
Recently, in the span of a 2 or so months I was thinking heavily about one girl who I had the previous year. She's my dream girl, my crush, the girl who I could imagine myself with. And as if fate had given me a blessing she appeared in both my first and sixth period classes, about one seat away from me. She had tried to talk to me on numerous occasions, giving me signals that I tried to block out. Looking back now, it's pretty amazing that a girl would go through such lengths just to talk to me. I've already kicked myself way too much over this so there's no need for mourning. Last Friday, she chose, emphasis on chose, to sit next to me during a school function while I just sat there awkwardly, trying my best to ignore her presence.
That was my breaking point- the point where I realized that I should've made a move way earlier.
What should I do? Is there still a chance? Should I talk to her?
I'm a sophomore in high school. I'm 6'0 and have a pretty muscular build that makes me stand out from the crowd of average 10th graders. I focus mainly on education, rather than socializing. I'm the type of guy who you'd envision as the outgoing, womanizing jock with many friends. The truth is, I'm pretty much the opposite. After years of emotional abuse I grew a shell around myself, I stood distant from my classmates and accepted the moniker of "that guy over there who never talks".
Recently, in the span of a 2 or so months I was thinking heavily about one girl who I had the previous year. She's my dream girl, my crush, the girl who I could imagine myself with. And as if fate had given me a blessing she appeared in both my first and sixth period classes, about one seat away from me. She had tried to talk to me on numerous occasions, giving me signals that I tried to block out. Looking back now, it's pretty amazing that a girl would go through such lengths just to talk to me. I've already kicked myself way too much over this so there's no need for mourning. Last Friday, she chose, emphasis on chose, to sit next to me during a school function while I just sat there awkwardly, trying my best to ignore her presence.
That was my breaking point- the point where I realized that I should've made a move way earlier.
What should I do? Is there still a chance? Should I talk to her?