wow, ok it's wednesday now, but monday night was a really really weird one, some women truly are crazy.
Ok, monday, me, and a couple of friends of mine were going out for a few drinks one of them brought one of her friends along who I'd met once before. anyway, out drinking in the pub, I talked to this girl a bit, or rather she talked to me, alot, but she talks to everyone like that, nothing out of the ordinary, anyway, by the time they kicked us out at 11 and started walking home I was reasonably merry. I can't really remember how it started but while we were walking home me and this girl were flirting more and occasionally holding hands she was tickling me, that sort of thing. I guess it was her, (although I was pretty drunk
) she's very touchy feely, She was alot older than me (I'm 23) she's 41!! .. but she was good looking, she did modelling work and stuff, and one of the conversations we all had was her liking of younger guys (she's been out with people younger than me)
Anyway, by the time we all got back to my flat we were all sat in the lounge, despite plenty of seats available, this girl was sat on my lap, either laying across me or sat straddling me, all the while we were just chatting away, (well she was doing most of the talking) I occupied myself by putting my hands on her ass and thighs.
So, while this was going on we were flirting and I was
occasionally getting a hard on, which later would go away, you see here was the problem or one of them..
1) her constant yapping was boring and annoying
2) she may have been cute, but there was the age difference thing, if she'd been 10 years younger I'd have felt easier about it.
3) I'm a virgin, and my **** certainly felt hard while she was sat on my lap, I was worried about not exactly lasting that long,
That was part of the weird thing, here was sex on a platter and I was envisaging that I'd be feeling incredibly nervous at the prospect and having problems getting hard, but I wasn't at all, I felt really relaxed and comfortable and I was happy flirting away with her, I didn't feel uneasy or nervous no butterflies or anxiety or anything.
Anyway, time was getting on and I had work the next day, plus she wasn't showing any signs of shutting up, so I thought "I'm going to bed, now, if I get to f*ck you before hand then all the better" So I said to her, "right I'm going to my room now, you can come with me if you want but I'm not sitting here anymore" I can't remember what she said but the net result was as I stood up I kept hold of her in my arms and carried her down the hall to my room, she said, "hey this is like what people do after they get married, on the way to the honeymoon". In my room I was going to put her down on my bed, but then I noticed I had some records lying on it, I said "I'm not putting you on top of my records" (I know, priorities!!) and put her down on her feet on the floor, then I started shutting the blind and stuff. She started saying "what music have you got? put some music on" I said "I'm not putting any music on, I'm getting into bed.", she asked again and then overheard some talk about coke in the lounge and dissapeared to see if she could get some. I then heard her leaving the flat (obviously to go and get the stuff)
So I thought, ok you screwed up a bit there, it wouldn't have been hard to stick the stereo on for a bit untill she got into bed with you would it? do you want to get laid or not?.. but then I thought, never mind (age difference, annoyingness/crazyness, performance worries, I can get a good nights sleep etc.).
Anyway the sleep didn't happen, I lay awake thinking about it all and then I kept hearing other people still up in the lounge which kept me awake, so I didn't really sleep properly, I just sort of dozed.. then later I heard her come back into the flat, I could hear the other people in the flat asking her to be quiet and not talk so much, then a few more moments later my door opens and she walks in,
her: "are you awake?"
me: "yeah, but I need to sleep" (it was starting to get lighter outside now)
her: "I just want some hugs and a chat"
me: "ok, but I need to sleep soon"
then she climbed into bed next to me, she still had her clothes on, but I was naked, she lay next to me, tried to get me to do a line, and yapped away while playing with my hair, and holding my hand or stroking my chest (she kept her hands above my waist though). Occasionally she kiised me on my the side of my head or face. I pretty much lay there and responded to her questions now
and again and held her hand.. mostly she talked about everything, her life, what she'd done today, her friends etc. etc. I just dozed through it,
I rolled over and looked at her, and in the dark she looked really good, her figure was great anyway, but I could see the shape of her face which was good and not the fact that she had 40 year old skin, by now I was so tired though (I'd been drinking everyday since friday) shagging, was right at the back of my mind. Occasionally I put one of my arms round her, but she kept talking and talking and talking.
Eventually I said to her, "look I'm really tired I need to
sleep, I can't listen to you anymore I've got to go to work tommorow, you can sleep here just be quiet now plaese"
she said "but I'm not tired I can't sleep",
me: "well just lay here with me then" so she tried to lie and not talk, but she couldn't, after a few moments she started off again, so I told her to go check on my flatmate and then sleep on the couch.. She said she'd go check she was allright and then she'd come back to me later, I said "fine, so long as you let me sleep". and then she left giving me a kiss goodbye,
I don't think she came back cos I went to sleep almost straight away and I reckon she'd have woken me if she'd come back.
I spoke to my flatmate and she said that the girl had come in and spoken to her and the guy she was with in the lounge and then my flatmate sent her into her (my flatmates) room where she passed out.
So a crazy crazy monday evening, and a bloody psycho woman, obviously I have no interest in a relationshuip with her (the age difference for a start, let alone the annoyingness), but although she was annoying she did seem like a nice girl from what she said, I liked her. its just a shame about her talking (she should definitely not be doing coke!!). It was nice as well just lying with her in my bed and having an arm over her now and again and her arms round me.
its been a bit of a boost to my confidence too, so I should hopefully feel more comfortable making moves next time I meet a girl (hopefully my age) that I'm interested in. The only thing I am worried about is lasting longer than 30 seconds once I get going. I can last a long time masturbating, but thats different
right, Anyway time for bed now, just such a weird evening I felt I had to post about it..
Ok, monday, me, and a couple of friends of mine were going out for a few drinks one of them brought one of her friends along who I'd met once before. anyway, out drinking in the pub, I talked to this girl a bit, or rather she talked to me, alot, but she talks to everyone like that, nothing out of the ordinary, anyway, by the time they kicked us out at 11 and started walking home I was reasonably merry. I can't really remember how it started but while we were walking home me and this girl were flirting more and occasionally holding hands she was tickling me, that sort of thing. I guess it was her, (although I was pretty drunk
) she's very touchy feely, She was alot older than me (I'm 23) she's 41!! .. but she was good looking, she did modelling work and stuff, and one of the conversations we all had was her liking of younger guys (she's been out with people younger than me)Anyway, by the time we all got back to my flat we were all sat in the lounge, despite plenty of seats available, this girl was sat on my lap, either laying across me or sat straddling me, all the while we were just chatting away, (well she was doing most of the talking) I occupied myself by putting my hands on her ass and thighs.
So, while this was going on we were flirting and I was
occasionally getting a hard on, which later would go away, you see here was the problem or one of them..
1) her constant yapping was boring and annoying
2) she may have been cute, but there was the age difference thing, if she'd been 10 years younger I'd have felt easier about it.
3) I'm a virgin, and my **** certainly felt hard while she was sat on my lap, I was worried about not exactly lasting that long,
That was part of the weird thing, here was sex on a platter and I was envisaging that I'd be feeling incredibly nervous at the prospect and having problems getting hard, but I wasn't at all, I felt really relaxed and comfortable and I was happy flirting away with her, I didn't feel uneasy or nervous no butterflies or anxiety or anything.
Anyway, time was getting on and I had work the next day, plus she wasn't showing any signs of shutting up, so I thought "I'm going to bed, now, if I get to f*ck you before hand then all the better" So I said to her, "right I'm going to my room now, you can come with me if you want but I'm not sitting here anymore" I can't remember what she said but the net result was as I stood up I kept hold of her in my arms and carried her down the hall to my room, she said, "hey this is like what people do after they get married, on the way to the honeymoon". In my room I was going to put her down on my bed, but then I noticed I had some records lying on it, I said "I'm not putting you on top of my records" (I know, priorities!!) and put her down on her feet on the floor, then I started shutting the blind and stuff. She started saying "what music have you got? put some music on" I said "I'm not putting any music on, I'm getting into bed.", she asked again and then overheard some talk about coke in the lounge and dissapeared to see if she could get some. I then heard her leaving the flat (obviously to go and get the stuff)
So I thought, ok you screwed up a bit there, it wouldn't have been hard to stick the stereo on for a bit untill she got into bed with you would it? do you want to get laid or not?.. but then I thought, never mind (age difference, annoyingness/crazyness, performance worries, I can get a good nights sleep etc.).
Anyway the sleep didn't happen, I lay awake thinking about it all and then I kept hearing other people still up in the lounge which kept me awake, so I didn't really sleep properly, I just sort of dozed.. then later I heard her come back into the flat, I could hear the other people in the flat asking her to be quiet and not talk so much, then a few more moments later my door opens and she walks in,
her: "are you awake?"
me: "yeah, but I need to sleep" (it was starting to get lighter outside now)
her: "I just want some hugs and a chat"
me: "ok, but I need to sleep soon"
then she climbed into bed next to me, she still had her clothes on, but I was naked, she lay next to me, tried to get me to do a line, and yapped away while playing with my hair, and holding my hand or stroking my chest (she kept her hands above my waist though). Occasionally she kiised me on my the side of my head or face. I pretty much lay there and responded to her questions now
and again and held her hand.. mostly she talked about everything, her life, what she'd done today, her friends etc. etc. I just dozed through it,
I rolled over and looked at her, and in the dark she looked really good, her figure was great anyway, but I could see the shape of her face which was good and not the fact that she had 40 year old skin, by now I was so tired though (I'd been drinking everyday since friday) shagging, was right at the back of my mind. Occasionally I put one of my arms round her, but she kept talking and talking and talking.
Eventually I said to her, "look I'm really tired I need to
sleep, I can't listen to you anymore I've got to go to work tommorow, you can sleep here just be quiet now plaese"
she said "but I'm not tired I can't sleep",
me: "well just lay here with me then" so she tried to lie and not talk, but she couldn't, after a few moments she started off again, so I told her to go check on my flatmate and then sleep on the couch.. She said she'd go check she was allright and then she'd come back to me later, I said "fine, so long as you let me sleep". and then she left giving me a kiss goodbye,
I don't think she came back cos I went to sleep almost straight away and I reckon she'd have woken me if she'd come back.
I spoke to my flatmate and she said that the girl had come in and spoken to her and the guy she was with in the lounge and then my flatmate sent her into her (my flatmates) room where she passed out.
So a crazy crazy monday evening, and a bloody psycho woman, obviously I have no interest in a relationshuip with her (the age difference for a start, let alone the annoyingness), but although she was annoying she did seem like a nice girl from what she said, I liked her. its just a shame about her talking (she should definitely not be doing coke!!). It was nice as well just lying with her in my bed and having an arm over her now and again and her arms round me.
its been a bit of a boost to my confidence too, so I should hopefully feel more comfortable making moves next time I meet a girl (hopefully my age) that I'm interested in. The only thing I am worried about is lasting longer than 30 seconds once I get going. I can last a long time masturbating, but thats different
right, Anyway time for bed now, just such a weird evening I felt I had to post about it..
