lately I just feel like I wanna do something. two years ago i used to be dedicated to video games, id go through the day laughing with my friends and talking about video games while day dreaming about the best equipment or how to buy my way up through the next skill. Yes it was chodey, but it kept me going, I'd get home and me motivated to play, talk to my online friends, laugh, and learn. Now most of my old video game friends are either extremely lazy, plain weird, or anti social, im only good friends with two of them. I stopped playing games, but i haven't been able to fill in that void. my Girl life isn't terrible, but i would say i barely talk to girls in my school maybe 2-4 girls, I've never kissed a girl ethier, i just mention this cause this is a pick up forum, but honestly i really don't give a ****.
I just want to find something that motivates, shortly after i stopped playing games i started learning Japanese, i was very motivated and would study everyday, but it died out and now my days are kind of go like this: Wake up , go to school, say random jokes, talk to friends, daydream about travelling the world or mentally masturbate about how i should approach, how my body language should be, why it should be that way, how i should handle people's opinion etc. i get home, usually do my homework, maybe try to do some language, surf random sites out of boredom, sleep, read some forums. on weekeneds i go to parties when they are there, during the day i ethier play games or bike, I dont drink or smoke, but i still go to parties even tho EVERYONE but me and my friends who dodnt go to parties drink or/and smoke.
anyways: i just feel undriven, like im just walking through life waiting for something to happen, and honestly, unlike most people, ive rarely felt this way before and i really dont like it. I know what i want, I want something that wakes me up , something that propels, something that i take time out of my life to do and don't let anything else interrupt, something that DRIVES me, something to dream about, something to talk about.
Lately I've noticed my conversations are pretty shallow, and i think this is why, i just feel kind of lifeless, things have lost there depth, but i know what it feels like to be driven, to make connections, and just feel good about being alive just cause you do what you love.
So does anyone have any ideas how to reestablish this type of sensation?, lately I've been doing my best to try to ignite those feelings in my brain, i get a couple of flashes in my head, but after a while since there is no real drive for the feeling to keep growing on it dies off.
I just want to find something that motivates, shortly after i stopped playing games i started learning Japanese, i was very motivated and would study everyday, but it died out and now my days are kind of go like this: Wake up , go to school, say random jokes, talk to friends, daydream about travelling the world or mentally masturbate about how i should approach, how my body language should be, why it should be that way, how i should handle people's opinion etc. i get home, usually do my homework, maybe try to do some language, surf random sites out of boredom, sleep, read some forums. on weekeneds i go to parties when they are there, during the day i ethier play games or bike, I dont drink or smoke, but i still go to parties even tho EVERYONE but me and my friends who dodnt go to parties drink or/and smoke.
anyways: i just feel undriven, like im just walking through life waiting for something to happen, and honestly, unlike most people, ive rarely felt this way before and i really dont like it. I know what i want, I want something that wakes me up , something that propels, something that i take time out of my life to do and don't let anything else interrupt, something that DRIVES me, something to dream about, something to talk about.
Lately I've noticed my conversations are pretty shallow, and i think this is why, i just feel kind of lifeless, things have lost there depth, but i know what it feels like to be driven, to make connections, and just feel good about being alive just cause you do what you love.
So does anyone have any ideas how to reestablish this type of sensation?, lately I've been doing my best to try to ignite those feelings in my brain, i get a couple of flashes in my head, but after a while since there is no real drive for the feeling to keep growing on it dies off.