I've dropped out since making this post. I went completely off the program and embraced my inner AFC like never before. I can't even describe how stupid I've been... but I'll try anyways.
That lady I went to see that I was "going to try" with even if it meant rejection? Turns out I was way over my head with that one. She ended up responding quite well to my advances, or so I thought. I ended sleeping with her twice... like, just sleeping in the same bed, devoid of any sexuality at all. You know, because she cares about me and wants me to be a part of her life for a long time but sex would just mess that up.
Fortunately for me, she got drunk one night, described her sexual relationships with three other guys, lamented that they didn't seem to care about her.. but there was always me there for her!
I haven't contacted her since. That was on the 27th. I still fvcking want to call her and hang out and think about her all the time.
The worst part is that she's become really chummy with that waitress I had my eye on so I'm just letting that door close.
Then there's my ex. Somehow I'm back together with her? TBH, it felt good to have a girlfriend again. Until she accused me of being inappropriate with another woman in front of her. Loudly. In a crowd. She knew I was pissed and suddenly became very attentive and clingy. I got away from her as soon as possible because I felt a lot of crazy building up with that one.
I mean, serious stalker-like crazy.
That's where I am right now. I'd like to say I'm taking a break but the problem is that I'm used to getting laid at least twice a week now. But I've shown that I am not ready to get "out there" again. Too many stupid moves.
That lady I went to see that I was "going to try" with even if it meant rejection? Turns out I was way over my head with that one. She ended up responding quite well to my advances, or so I thought. I ended sleeping with her twice... like, just sleeping in the same bed, devoid of any sexuality at all. You know, because she cares about me and wants me to be a part of her life for a long time but sex would just mess that up.
Fortunately for me, she got drunk one night, described her sexual relationships with three other guys, lamented that they didn't seem to care about her.. but there was always me there for her!
I haven't contacted her since. That was on the 27th. I still fvcking want to call her and hang out and think about her all the time.
The worst part is that she's become really chummy with that waitress I had my eye on so I'm just letting that door close.
Then there's my ex. Somehow I'm back together with her? TBH, it felt good to have a girlfriend again. Until she accused me of being inappropriate with another woman in front of her. Loudly. In a crowd. She knew I was pissed and suddenly became very attentive and clingy. I got away from her as soon as possible because I felt a lot of crazy building up with that one.
I mean, serious stalker-like crazy.
That's where I am right now. I'd like to say I'm taking a break but the problem is that I'm used to getting laid at least twice a week now. But I've shown that I am not ready to get "out there" again. Too many stupid moves.