It has been a while since I posted here. Just want to share my experience.
My relationship fell apart completely and I changed my life mentally and physically. The self control the gym is teaching is spilling over and helping me finally grow the hell up. The gym had always been a one week and slack off kind of thing.
Started at 6'0 177 - skinny fat.
-anger fueled every rep, every ounce of effort.
Two weeks 167 - skinny and toned. I need to eat
-results are showing; I start liking that this is purely for me and it's finally okay to care the most about myself. Selfish is good.
5 weeks 170.5 eating non-stop and healthful for the first time ever. Still need to eat more and consistently throughout the day. I was afraid of putting on a gut, but if the supplies aren't there, the muscles will not have fuel. Logical enough.
Saw the ex at the gym. She's fat. I'm in shape. Actually felt like I'm too good looking for her anyway. It sounds conceited. It is. I'm working my ass off every day to have some right to be proud of myself for once.
-4000 calories a day is difficult to eat without fast food and pure crap. It is a full time job in itself to eat this much. Need to track it better.
-rest days are essential. The gym is my addiction though. Alcohol got kicked out almost entirely. I was probably a borderline alcoholic, honestly. Anyway, my lifts don't go up unless I rest muscle groups for at least a day. I've started a split routine now.
-plateauing scares me.
-9.5 pounds until I feel like I'm good at this.
-At 190 I will undoubtedly look like a new man. That's a good thing for a chronically weak, skinny guy. It caused no self confidence.
-I feel like I look better. I know I feel better. Confidence isn't increasing as much as I'd like. I still feel small. Still have bouts of mental weakness but getting better.
This journey is one I should have started 10 years ago. I'm becoming a better man for it now. It's really about much more than lifting.
My relationship fell apart completely and I changed my life mentally and physically. The self control the gym is teaching is spilling over and helping me finally grow the hell up. The gym had always been a one week and slack off kind of thing.
Started at 6'0 177 - skinny fat.
-anger fueled every rep, every ounce of effort.
Two weeks 167 - skinny and toned. I need to eat
-results are showing; I start liking that this is purely for me and it's finally okay to care the most about myself. Selfish is good.
5 weeks 170.5 eating non-stop and healthful for the first time ever. Still need to eat more and consistently throughout the day. I was afraid of putting on a gut, but if the supplies aren't there, the muscles will not have fuel. Logical enough.
Saw the ex at the gym. She's fat. I'm in shape. Actually felt like I'm too good looking for her anyway. It sounds conceited. It is. I'm working my ass off every day to have some right to be proud of myself for once.
-4000 calories a day is difficult to eat without fast food and pure crap. It is a full time job in itself to eat this much. Need to track it better.
-rest days are essential. The gym is my addiction though. Alcohol got kicked out almost entirely. I was probably a borderline alcoholic, honestly. Anyway, my lifts don't go up unless I rest muscle groups for at least a day. I've started a split routine now.
-plateauing scares me.
-9.5 pounds until I feel like I'm good at this.
-At 190 I will undoubtedly look like a new man. That's a good thing for a chronically weak, skinny guy. It caused no self confidence.
-I feel like I look better. I know I feel better. Confidence isn't increasing as much as I'd like. I still feel small. Still have bouts of mental weakness but getting better.
This journey is one I should have started 10 years ago. I'm becoming a better man for it now. It's really about much more than lifting.
