I'll try to be as brief as possible.
I(25)'ve met her(22) almost a month ago at some festival, we've talked for an hour, I suggested a date, she gave me her phone. I call a few days later, we talk for an hour, bye bye. Call her up again two days later, set up a date, friday at eight. As we met, she said she could only stay for an hour, since she had been, few days prior, invited to a birthday party of her friend's mother. Great. Next day, I went out with friends, then went home, had a funny feeling, send her an SMS, so an hour later we meet. Since it's pretty late, I suggest we just sort of drive around the town, so we did, for two hours.
Throughout there's been a good communication right from the start, we share a lot of opinions, we have lots in common. Except that she really fancies Hugh Grant and wants to take swing lessons.
Now the next date was the actually real first date, we went to a nice place, drank a good bottle of wine, which took us six hours. She talks constantly, well, unless I do, then she listens really good. As I drop her off at her place I get a kiss. On the cheek. Jesus Christ. Before I could have said something stupid like, hey, what, that it?? She'd already be halfway to her apartment.
After that, another date, no alcohol this time, I get a kiss on the lips.
Next date, a really real french kiss.
So, just a reminder, this happened in a timeline of 3 weeks. With all the talking she does, I cannot say she got really honestly personal, intimate, if you will. Sure she told me about her insanely tall sister, and how her parents divorced 2 years ago and about her grandmothers and so on and so on, but there's like a wall between us. Why? Out of fragments she told me on differend occasions, she's had a boyfriend for 2 years, he ended up the relationship and like she said, she needed a year to get over it. Also she was twice talking about relationships and the times we live in, so basically, she was saying it is dangerous to open up. Oh, and also, she lacks self confidence, but masks it rather good in general, she has pointed out how overweight she is on several occasions, and despite I generally like really skinny girls, her, perhaps 5 extra kg, honestly doesn't bother me at all.
So far, she had only ONCE sent me an SMS without my iniciative, it is always me who calls or asks for a date. It has to be noted, that she accepts that, tries her best to find a hole in her schedule (which also involves meeting her girl-friends) and furthermore sacrifices her much needed sleeping time since she is in college and has to do all sorts of stuff, besides exams.
Last time we went out was last saturday, on sunday we exchanged a few SMS messages, I started, I finished. Since then, no sign of her.
Now I'm really not sure if waiting for her to give off any kind of sign is right, but it's driving me crazy. I mean, how f*****g difficult is it to send a g*****n message or to autodial and talk to me for a minute? Oh, I guess it would take too much time. That, or maybe she just doesn't care.
I'm so confused right now, I don't know what to think or what to do. I know she's right for me, so right, it's not even scary anymore and in my humblest of opinions, we could really make it. But the real question is, what am I to her? What am I? Just some guy, she somehow likes to spend time with and kisses him because she's sort of.. supposed to?
Please help...!
I(25)'ve met her(22) almost a month ago at some festival, we've talked for an hour, I suggested a date, she gave me her phone. I call a few days later, we talk for an hour, bye bye. Call her up again two days later, set up a date, friday at eight. As we met, she said she could only stay for an hour, since she had been, few days prior, invited to a birthday party of her friend's mother. Great. Next day, I went out with friends, then went home, had a funny feeling, send her an SMS, so an hour later we meet. Since it's pretty late, I suggest we just sort of drive around the town, so we did, for two hours.
Throughout there's been a good communication right from the start, we share a lot of opinions, we have lots in common. Except that she really fancies Hugh Grant and wants to take swing lessons.
Now the next date was the actually real first date, we went to a nice place, drank a good bottle of wine, which took us six hours. She talks constantly, well, unless I do, then she listens really good. As I drop her off at her place I get a kiss. On the cheek. Jesus Christ. Before I could have said something stupid like, hey, what, that it?? She'd already be halfway to her apartment.
After that, another date, no alcohol this time, I get a kiss on the lips.
Next date, a really real french kiss.
So, just a reminder, this happened in a timeline of 3 weeks. With all the talking she does, I cannot say she got really honestly personal, intimate, if you will. Sure she told me about her insanely tall sister, and how her parents divorced 2 years ago and about her grandmothers and so on and so on, but there's like a wall between us. Why? Out of fragments she told me on differend occasions, she's had a boyfriend for 2 years, he ended up the relationship and like she said, she needed a year to get over it. Also she was twice talking about relationships and the times we live in, so basically, she was saying it is dangerous to open up. Oh, and also, she lacks self confidence, but masks it rather good in general, she has pointed out how overweight she is on several occasions, and despite I generally like really skinny girls, her, perhaps 5 extra kg, honestly doesn't bother me at all.
So far, she had only ONCE sent me an SMS without my iniciative, it is always me who calls or asks for a date. It has to be noted, that she accepts that, tries her best to find a hole in her schedule (which also involves meeting her girl-friends) and furthermore sacrifices her much needed sleeping time since she is in college and has to do all sorts of stuff, besides exams.
Last time we went out was last saturday, on sunday we exchanged a few SMS messages, I started, I finished. Since then, no sign of her.
Now I'm really not sure if waiting for her to give off any kind of sign is right, but it's driving me crazy. I mean, how f*****g difficult is it to send a g*****n message or to autodial and talk to me for a minute? Oh, I guess it would take too much time. That, or maybe she just doesn't care.
I'm so confused right now, I don't know what to think or what to do. I know she's right for me, so right, it's not even scary anymore and in my humblest of opinions, we could really make it. But the real question is, what am I to her? What am I? Just some guy, she somehow likes to spend time with and kisses him because she's sort of.. supposed to?
Please help...!
