I'm 18. I'm a senior in High School and have never been laid, and never had a girlfriend. For the past couple of days I've been reading around the site, you know, articles and stuff like that. I even tried the experiment to see if any chicks' pupils grew if I looked at them, I don't think any did. I have to tell you, at the time of this post writing, I'm at rock-bottom mood.
You see, I'm not that good looking, there is nothing interesting about my face or my body. My hair is thick and it grows in the dumbest way, I can never style it no matter how much I try. I have these... These... Big ugly shoulders even though I have a slim body, it's like I'm deformed. Have you ever had a chick you liked go for your friend instead? My god, imagine that x100. I honestly believe if I had no friends at all, I would be swarming in chicks maybe. I'm currently ignoring a good friend of mine just because he attracted a girl I liked.
My friends don't purposely take away women from me, but due to some magical law of the Earth, my friends come off by being more attractive. I swear, there have been times where I would know girls for 3 years, then once they do so much as lay eyes upon a friend of mine, the girl would hang out with my friend from then on and almost forget my name for all of eternity. Please, I nicely ask, do not shower me with the "yeah it's your attitude" bull****... I have always been confident, believe it or not, that is, until today..
As time goes on, I get more and more bored of life, I hate where I live, and I become more and more antisocial and I have no will power to fight this. Everytime I go to school, I always see myself as the lowest of all status, this is also something I try to fight but I can't. You know what else sucks, having an insane sex drive, you're looking at someone who can pleasure his self about 5 times a day. And pleasuring myself is something I do to try and forget about my problems. Insane sex drive + never any women = worst thing ever, although almost every guy feels this.
This next part baffles me, I have done nothing to deserve this, regardless of what anyone says. A girl can look at me and all of a sudden and get irritated because my face is that bad? All of a sudden I feel like I'm becoming sexist and starting to hate women, this is something my mind does to try to ignore girls. I have been begging and crawling on my knees finding a way to not love anymore. My "attitude" or depression has reached so far I'm at the point of no return. I CANNOT picture myself with a girlfriend or getting married now. This will be the dumbest question asked, but, is there a way to not love anymore? Why "like" chicks if they won't like back, it will only hurt you in the end and you get nothing out of it.
You see, I'm not that good looking, there is nothing interesting about my face or my body. My hair is thick and it grows in the dumbest way, I can never style it no matter how much I try. I have these... These... Big ugly shoulders even though I have a slim body, it's like I'm deformed. Have you ever had a chick you liked go for your friend instead? My god, imagine that x100. I honestly believe if I had no friends at all, I would be swarming in chicks maybe. I'm currently ignoring a good friend of mine just because he attracted a girl I liked.
My friends don't purposely take away women from me, but due to some magical law of the Earth, my friends come off by being more attractive. I swear, there have been times where I would know girls for 3 years, then once they do so much as lay eyes upon a friend of mine, the girl would hang out with my friend from then on and almost forget my name for all of eternity. Please, I nicely ask, do not shower me with the "yeah it's your attitude" bull****... I have always been confident, believe it or not, that is, until today..
As time goes on, I get more and more bored of life, I hate where I live, and I become more and more antisocial and I have no will power to fight this. Everytime I go to school, I always see myself as the lowest of all status, this is also something I try to fight but I can't. You know what else sucks, having an insane sex drive, you're looking at someone who can pleasure his self about 5 times a day. And pleasuring myself is something I do to try and forget about my problems. Insane sex drive + never any women = worst thing ever, although almost every guy feels this.
This next part baffles me, I have done nothing to deserve this, regardless of what anyone says. A girl can look at me and all of a sudden and get irritated because my face is that bad? All of a sudden I feel like I'm becoming sexist and starting to hate women, this is something my mind does to try to ignore girls. I have been begging and crawling on my knees finding a way to not love anymore. My "attitude" or depression has reached so far I'm at the point of no return. I CANNOT picture myself with a girlfriend or getting married now. This will be the dumbest question asked, but, is there a way to not love anymore? Why "like" chicks if they won't like back, it will only hurt you in the end and you get nothing out of it.
