I want to improve myself. I really do, and I am improving slowly. My attitude is improving, and ive joinded some clubs. But really it never feels like anythings changing. Ive wanted to improve myself almost as far as I can remeber but I never really have. Every day I just go to school, where everyone has boring conversations, and at lunch I just sit on this bench with my friends and do nothing. I go to an all boys school and I barley ever talk to girls. But hey, I didnt talk to girls very well when I was at a co-ed school. Every day I do basically the same thing, nothing new really happens. Im not here to whine, but I really feel like this is impossible. I keep thinking I need to find a magic pill or have a defining moment before I change. Everything ive ever imporved at has seemed to invole me wandering around it circles improving so slowly I dont notice it. What should I do, bootcamp, watch fight club,stop jacking off, or what?