TheDestroyer
Don Juan
I'm PISSED off!
I'm pissed off at myself for falling for and training myself to be more like the man women said they wanted.
I'm pissed off that I believed every beta-appeasing declaration that I have ever allowed to penetrate my mind and heart.
I am pissed off at myself for every time I catered to disrespectful, self-centered, rotten attitudes from women.
I'm pissed off that I gave them the benefit of the doubt and was deceived because of it.
I'm pissed off that I didn't have the training, mindset, experience, and information to take advantage of and dominate every situation where a women who was an 8 or a 9 was showing interest in me!(AND YES I F'D THAT UP EVERY TIME!)
I'm pissed off that even knowing what I have begun to learn, I am still struggling on the practical aspects of game.
I'm pissed off at every time I have been verbally friend-zoned before I even ask a woman out!
I'm pissed off that those who are supposed to be closest to me have been fed the same beta nonsense I have.
I am pissed off that women I am attracted to don't respect me.
I'm pissed off that while everyone else at my church is married, my statement of my desire to become more socially adept and my actions that I have taken to date around and find a good woman are seen as impatience or "trying to force God" to do what I want. (It is because I believe in Him that I can even question what I have had shoved down my throat pertaining to women!)
I'm pissed off that people think that some stork is going to fly by and drop off my "perfect" woman to me "when the time is right".
I want to be pissed off at women, but I still want them. Desire them. But, my outlook about them has changed. And though I have come to the realization that I can't change how women are, I CAN change myself. Against the tide always I struggle. But my life has made me relentless! I pledge right now never to give up. Never to give in. I will learn and internalize. I will apply every day. I will resist the temptation to revert back to the old me. I will learn and I will not accept a woman who is less than exemplary! I will NOT be the adopted daddy for a former party girl's kids!I will not be cornered, I will not be trapped. Even though the truth hurts, it is the only way out! Let's begin.
I'm pissed off at myself for falling for and training myself to be more like the man women said they wanted.
I'm pissed off that I believed every beta-appeasing declaration that I have ever allowed to penetrate my mind and heart.
I am pissed off at myself for every time I catered to disrespectful, self-centered, rotten attitudes from women.
I'm pissed off that I gave them the benefit of the doubt and was deceived because of it.
I'm pissed off that I didn't have the training, mindset, experience, and information to take advantage of and dominate every situation where a women who was an 8 or a 9 was showing interest in me!(AND YES I F'D THAT UP EVERY TIME!)
I'm pissed off that even knowing what I have begun to learn, I am still struggling on the practical aspects of game.
I'm pissed off at every time I have been verbally friend-zoned before I even ask a woman out!
I'm pissed off that those who are supposed to be closest to me have been fed the same beta nonsense I have.
I am pissed off that women I am attracted to don't respect me.
I'm pissed off that while everyone else at my church is married, my statement of my desire to become more socially adept and my actions that I have taken to date around and find a good woman are seen as impatience or "trying to force God" to do what I want. (It is because I believe in Him that I can even question what I have had shoved down my throat pertaining to women!)
I'm pissed off that people think that some stork is going to fly by and drop off my "perfect" woman to me "when the time is right".
I want to be pissed off at women, but I still want them. Desire them. But, my outlook about them has changed. And though I have come to the realization that I can't change how women are, I CAN change myself. Against the tide always I struggle. But my life has made me relentless! I pledge right now never to give up. Never to give in. I will learn and internalize. I will apply every day. I will resist the temptation to revert back to the old me. I will learn and I will not accept a woman who is less than exemplary! I will NOT be the adopted daddy for a former party girl's kids!I will not be cornered, I will not be trapped. Even though the truth hurts, it is the only way out! Let's begin.