I know I may be making a dumb ass mistake here, but damn if I don't have feelings for her.
that doesn't mean it's right. there are times when emotions should overrule rationality (albiet not many).. this isn't one of them.
If you follow these rules in life in general, you will be alot less torn over things
1. People inherintly don't give a fvck about you, regardless how much you think they do
2. A woman who has cheated on you, will cheat again. regardless of the circumstances, she knows that if she sees something that entices her enough she can get it, and you aren't going anywhere, because you have proven you won't go anywhere, because you can't get anything else.
I think the main reason why it didn't work out is because she didn't realize how good she had it.
This is mumbo jumbo created by the music/women industry. Women always know how good they have. So do men. Just step back from the situtation and use your rationality.. does a woman who really is head over heals over a guy, cheat on him?
don't confuse "having it made" with "attraction".... HUGE DIFFERENCE' women will "have it made" with any AFC out there. As a matter of fact, AFC's have the "have it made" market pretty much sown up. she has counelss of good looking guys who will literarly kiss her ass, and do anything to prove their undying love for her.
but having it made, and being attracted to a guy, are not the same thing. They aren't even in the same ocean. Not to say you have to be a ****, but don't assume because you did "everything right" that she is going to come running back to you. Why is she coming back? hell I don't know.. but that's not the reason why, I can promise you.
but damn if I don't have feelings for her.
then
And remember I'm not going to get emotionally attached until she can prove herself
dude you sound like a little *****.. don't take that the wrong way, but that's how women I talk to talk. SHE CHEATED ON YOU. you either like her or you don't. either way you don't take her back, but you can't get over an old GF until you admit the feelings you have had for her.
you need to toughen up. I'm not Rollo or anything but I'm going to play doctor for a minute. you have no life. this entire situation is saying you have no life worth living. that is what it says about you, because you are so damn hopeless you will take a woman that sucked another guy off back in your life because "you have feelings for her".
you need to spin plates in the absolute worst way.