Nah I know I look good. I know I dress good and smell good. I got a dime ass girlfriend and all. But for some f***in reason, I always think she's cheating on me. I don't see her THAT often but we do talk on the phone ALOT.
I made a surprise visit to her house after work today and she was really happy that I actually came out of my way to come see her (I snuck over there with the car after work. I'm only 16 lol it was almost midnight). We were kissin and all, and then her phone went off. Some dude named Anthony. Ah sh*t you know I start thinkin. She's talkin to this kat and it seems he was asking for a floppy disk. I dunno if she tried to make it seem like that, and actually got him to play along or not. But that's what I felt. I didn't say nothin bout it though. I never act jealous, I always keep that sh*t hidden well.
And last week, I f*cked her for the first time (we be goin out since November-December). It was my first time. She didn't feel at all tight. I couldn't really tell that I was in there. Maybe it was the condom being so damn tight, Iuno. I just assumed that ***** was suppose to be tight if she ain't f*ckin around.
Sh*t I dunno whats wrong with me. It's not that she's my world or anything. I'd give 2 sh*ts if we broke up (well, I prolly would a little bit). But it's the fact that I don't like that kind of disrespect. I'd have to kill a mothaf*cka for playin me like dat.
So basically, I'm just trying to figure out how to get my head straight. She goes to another school. I don't really know her friends like that. Maybe I need to make friends with them. Would yall suggest this?
EDIT: Another thing that makes me insecure is the fact that I know there are men out there that are like myself. They can get any girl to do some sh*t.
I made a surprise visit to her house after work today and she was really happy that I actually came out of my way to come see her (I snuck over there with the car after work. I'm only 16 lol it was almost midnight). We were kissin and all, and then her phone went off. Some dude named Anthony. Ah sh*t you know I start thinkin. She's talkin to this kat and it seems he was asking for a floppy disk. I dunno if she tried to make it seem like that, and actually got him to play along or not. But that's what I felt. I didn't say nothin bout it though. I never act jealous, I always keep that sh*t hidden well.
And last week, I f*cked her for the first time (we be goin out since November-December). It was my first time. She didn't feel at all tight. I couldn't really tell that I was in there. Maybe it was the condom being so damn tight, Iuno. I just assumed that ***** was suppose to be tight if she ain't f*ckin around.
Sh*t I dunno whats wrong with me. It's not that she's my world or anything. I'd give 2 sh*ts if we broke up (well, I prolly would a little bit). But it's the fact that I don't like that kind of disrespect. I'd have to kill a mothaf*cka for playin me like dat.
So basically, I'm just trying to figure out how to get my head straight. She goes to another school. I don't really know her friends like that. Maybe I need to make friends with them. Would yall suggest this?
EDIT: Another thing that makes me insecure is the fact that I know there are men out there that are like myself. They can get any girl to do some sh*t.
Walk the let's be friends line, and see how long she can hide her infedility from you.
