I self sabatoge and it’s becoming clear to me that I’m my own worst enemy

[superstorm250]

Ok so last night for Halloween, I went over to my friend’s house because he asked to borrow an inflatable haunted castle that I have so that we can hand out candy in it. On Halloween just a couple hours before I go over there, he tells me that he also invited a girl that he knows from work and wants to set me up because we have similar interests and the same political views. I get there and I already have my mask on before I even walk up and I leave it on the whole time I’m there so she never sees my face, and her costume didn’t have a mask so I do see hers. My friend goes in the house to get another chair and she peeks her head out and introduces herself, I sit down next to her in silence after that and every other time we’re left alone, its dead silence with her sometimes trying to make conversation that just quickly dies out. I wouldn’t even let myself try and make conversation with her no matter what because my conscience already convinced me that I need to fu*k this up. When my friend is there, the two of them just talk to each other and I’m not part of the conversation.

I then arrange a rescue call that my sister’s car is broken down and she needs help so that I have an excuse to leave. This isn’t the first time I’ve done this, I have a self fulfilling prophecy that no girl will ever want to date me so my conscience always makes me fu*k things up deliberately. How do I stop this? I can’t be the only one who’s had this problem, but I can tell its gonna be hard to break free from a mindset I’ve had about dating for my whole life.

 

[Spaz]

You and @bigdave17 should compare notes.

Perhaps you both can learn something from each other.

 

[Dr.Suave]

Chill the f0ck out op. New girls turning 18 everyday!!!

Grab a f0ocking beer, relax.

Start hitting the gym on the regular.

Stop worrying about girls and focus on yourself. Do stuff you like to do. Get some cool hobbies. Practice some team sport.

Focus on you passions. Be successfull. Make a ton of money. Have fun. Girls will start to orbit you and you start spinning plates.