MOTU
Master Don Juan
Fair warning: this post will likely ramble, and may not have clear point. I just feel the "urge to purge" a little bit...
Short backstory: I got divorced for the second time about 18 months ago. First 6mos I didn't date at all. Got back in the game at the beginning of this year. Been steadily improving myself - mostly weight loss, new hobby related activities, studying game (read books like rational male, art of seduction, 48 laws (again), no more mr nice guy, the game, maximum influence, the moral animal, etc). Overall I am pretty happy with my life.
I have banged 9 different chicks this year, progressively hotter as I lost weight and looked better and have better skills. At one point had 3 chicks I was fvcking in rotation.
Now I am down to one, by my choice. We'll call her blondie. I guess you could say she's my sort of girlfriend, though that's never been formalized. But one day, she did say to me "I am not asking if you are or not, but I just want you to know, that if you are sleeping with someone else, that wouldn't be ok with me" to which I replied "I can understand that". Well, fact was, I had banged another chick two nights before and didn't really enjoy it all that much and had decided not to put any energy into the other chicks for a while.
And on that topic - spinning plates was fun for me at first but got tiresome. I travel a lot for work and I have a good group of guy friends that I hang with, and all the dating was just killing me. I did the three dates in three days thing a couple of weekends and it just left me tired. It feels good to know that if I want to date and go out and get laid then it's just not that hard to do. But it sure can be time consuming - and expensive. I had wins from day game, bar game, online and social circle. I proved to myself that I AM THE PRIZE. So now I don't feel the urge to climb anymore mountains. So maybe serial monogamy is the ticket for me. I don't think I'll ever marry again, but I like the steady supply of pvssy, affection and companionship that having a woman in my life brings. It's comforting.
Back to blondie - I like her alot. We have been dating about three months now. For the first two months or so I was seeing other chicks too, but as mentioned above, I have curtailed that. She is hot, funny, adventurous, self sufficient (MBA and a good job) and sexy as hell. She fvcks like a porn star too. Oh, yea, one thing I should mention - she has a 5yo and a 6yo. My youngest just moved off to college. WTF am I thinking? Well, at this point, she hasn't given any inclination that she wants or expects me to have a role in her kids lives. I have only seen them a couple of times, and we don't do "family" things together. So as long as I keep my boundaries, and don't become overly attached to her or her kids, I am happy with the situation.
We've settled into a routine like this - she comes over one weekend night and spends the night at my house. I always pick what we're going to do (stay in and BBQ, go out dancing, whatever). We drink and fvck. Actaully we have done some cool dates - Salsa lessons, sailing lessons, hiking. Then, if I am in town, I generally see her one more time during the week. Usually that's just a booty call. Ex: I texted her about 3:30pm (her office closes at 4pm) "I am horny" and she said "I'll come fix that as soon as I can get out of here" and came over and banged me good before she got her kids from daycare.
This is about perfect for me - I like having the freedom to do whatever I want on the other weekend days and not having any clingy b!tch asking "what are you doing?" or over-staying their welcome (make breakfast and go!).
So does that make me easily amused? It kind of surprises me how easy it was for me to find someone that I am really attracted too and comfortable with. I have been trying to analyze and understand what she gives me (psychologically and emotionally) that I like so much, but I am not sure I have my head around it.
But (I think) I am in reality. At some point, this probably isn't going to be enough for her. Or maybe even for me, for that matter. But for now, I enjoy our time together and I am getting what I want out of the relationship, so why over think it?
Then there's the aftertaste of that red pill. I know that part of why she is attracted to me is because I display the alpha traits that make her horny but also seem to be able to provide the security and provisioning she craves for herself and her children. So if I don't ever actually provide those resources, that's likely to become a problem. The kids father is not active in their lives, and while she has been very careful, on a conscious level, to not give off any "I need a new baby daddy" signals, sub-consciously I know she can't avoid those feelings. And I am NOT raising kids again. Been there done that.
To summarize: I have improved my looks and game a lot and it has helped. Tired of spinning plates. Have a sort of GF that I really like to spend time with but has structural impediments to being a real long term thing. I am getting what I want out of relationship but am aware it's fragile. Overall I am happy at the moment, I hope I am not playing with fire.
I would appreciate any thoughts on any of these musings.
Short backstory: I got divorced for the second time about 18 months ago. First 6mos I didn't date at all. Got back in the game at the beginning of this year. Been steadily improving myself - mostly weight loss, new hobby related activities, studying game (read books like rational male, art of seduction, 48 laws (again), no more mr nice guy, the game, maximum influence, the moral animal, etc). Overall I am pretty happy with my life.
I have banged 9 different chicks this year, progressively hotter as I lost weight and looked better and have better skills. At one point had 3 chicks I was fvcking in rotation.
Now I am down to one, by my choice. We'll call her blondie. I guess you could say she's my sort of girlfriend, though that's never been formalized. But one day, she did say to me "I am not asking if you are or not, but I just want you to know, that if you are sleeping with someone else, that wouldn't be ok with me" to which I replied "I can understand that". Well, fact was, I had banged another chick two nights before and didn't really enjoy it all that much and had decided not to put any energy into the other chicks for a while.
And on that topic - spinning plates was fun for me at first but got tiresome. I travel a lot for work and I have a good group of guy friends that I hang with, and all the dating was just killing me. I did the three dates in three days thing a couple of weekends and it just left me tired. It feels good to know that if I want to date and go out and get laid then it's just not that hard to do. But it sure can be time consuming - and expensive. I had wins from day game, bar game, online and social circle. I proved to myself that I AM THE PRIZE. So now I don't feel the urge to climb anymore mountains. So maybe serial monogamy is the ticket for me. I don't think I'll ever marry again, but I like the steady supply of pvssy, affection and companionship that having a woman in my life brings. It's comforting.
Back to blondie - I like her alot. We have been dating about three months now. For the first two months or so I was seeing other chicks too, but as mentioned above, I have curtailed that. She is hot, funny, adventurous, self sufficient (MBA and a good job) and sexy as hell. She fvcks like a porn star too. Oh, yea, one thing I should mention - she has a 5yo and a 6yo. My youngest just moved off to college. WTF am I thinking? Well, at this point, she hasn't given any inclination that she wants or expects me to have a role in her kids lives. I have only seen them a couple of times, and we don't do "family" things together. So as long as I keep my boundaries, and don't become overly attached to her or her kids, I am happy with the situation.
We've settled into a routine like this - she comes over one weekend night and spends the night at my house. I always pick what we're going to do (stay in and BBQ, go out dancing, whatever). We drink and fvck. Actaully we have done some cool dates - Salsa lessons, sailing lessons, hiking. Then, if I am in town, I generally see her one more time during the week. Usually that's just a booty call. Ex: I texted her about 3:30pm (her office closes at 4pm) "I am horny" and she said "I'll come fix that as soon as I can get out of here" and came over and banged me good before she got her kids from daycare.
This is about perfect for me - I like having the freedom to do whatever I want on the other weekend days and not having any clingy b!tch asking "what are you doing?" or over-staying their welcome (make breakfast and go!).
So does that make me easily amused? It kind of surprises me how easy it was for me to find someone that I am really attracted too and comfortable with. I have been trying to analyze and understand what she gives me (psychologically and emotionally) that I like so much, but I am not sure I have my head around it.
But (I think) I am in reality. At some point, this probably isn't going to be enough for her. Or maybe even for me, for that matter. But for now, I enjoy our time together and I am getting what I want out of the relationship, so why over think it?
Then there's the aftertaste of that red pill. I know that part of why she is attracted to me is because I display the alpha traits that make her horny but also seem to be able to provide the security and provisioning she craves for herself and her children. So if I don't ever actually provide those resources, that's likely to become a problem. The kids father is not active in their lives, and while she has been very careful, on a conscious level, to not give off any "I need a new baby daddy" signals, sub-consciously I know she can't avoid those feelings. And I am NOT raising kids again. Been there done that.
To summarize: I have improved my looks and game a lot and it has helped. Tired of spinning plates. Have a sort of GF that I really like to spend time with but has structural impediments to being a real long term thing. I am getting what I want out of relationship but am aware it's fragile. Overall I am happy at the moment, I hope I am not playing with fire.
I would appreciate any thoughts on any of these musings.
