CadillacCTS
Don Juan
Hey ppl wats up....
I know that I have a life, I just don't live it....
It all started when I came 2 Canada in 1998. I was pretty much a FOB, but what was worse is that I didnt do sh!t 2 improve my situation. It was really bad, imagine going 2 a new skool in a new country, speaking a different language, not knowing many ppl (family or friends), I litterally had 2 start from stracth.
The relationships that I had with ppl were minimal, even WITH MY MOM AND DAD. I was basically fighting a one man army fight, and make everything more confusing I was hitting puberty (like when I was 12) and I didnt kno what puberty was (no TV, no computer or internet, my perants didnt giv me the "talk", and my friends.... what friends?! I had none). New things were happening 2 my body and I didnt even kno WTF was going on.
Since me and my family were new immigrants, we had little money, lived in a basement where there is little privacy, I had the sh!ttest clothes, I smelled awful (now how the fvck could I make friends like dat). I know that moving 2 a new country and starting from the scratch was not easy, but being the fragile person that I was back then I believed that the way ppl treated me bad was that because I was bad,stupid,ugly person ( not cuz I'm a new country and things r different).
I was pretty much a lost soul... I had lost faith and hope in my life ( Ironically so early on, when I had my whole life ahead of me). I had one friend in grade 6 and probably becuase he felt sorry 4 me and was kinda the same situation like I was, but I didn't that much better though. 2 make things worse my family moved 2 another place not much better the one b4 but it meant I had 2 loose the only friend I had and attend a new skool.
Going 2 a new skool is hard on anyone, but 4 me it was frinkin impossible. I was very shy guy and didnt talk 2 anyone ( I was AFRAID that I will make myself look like an a$$, and the pain of rejection would 2 much 4 me 2 handle. I was grade 7 and had trouble getting friends, while some of my peers are already dating girls ( It felt awful ), I figure that I would never get a girl in my ENTIRE LIFE, cuz I seemed like an alien 2 them.
Things just got worse when I went 2 high skool. Once again my family moved and it was a skool out of my area...
I became a total loner....
Lunch time was the worst cuz I was the only one on the table in the edge of the caf, and everyday I couldn't wait go home away from the shame. I rarely went outside AFRIADE that I will screw up. I became Anti social, I didnt take ant RISKS cuz I was sooo AFRAID of rejection..
One day a crazy thought hit me......
It was crazy bak then cuz I was such a shy guy. For once I forgot about my fears and acted out on my carzy thought...
At lunch time I went up 2 a bunch of guys and asked them..
"Mind if I sit here?"
they accepted me, and my RISK payed off!!!
from that day on I tried things that I never tried b4, and soon I actually had some FRIENDS (the greatest feeling). Although they did see me as a little wierd but I was able 2 keep IMPROVING myself...
I have come a long way....
I have a long way to go....
but I will always keeping PUSHING, take RISKS, make MISTAKES, FALL DOWN but get BACK UP...
Now dat I found the way 2 be a TRUE DJ ( the best man I could possibly be and become)
I have CAME a long way and I WILL go a long way!!
I know that I have a life, I just don't live it....
It all started when I came 2 Canada in 1998. I was pretty much a FOB, but what was worse is that I didnt do sh!t 2 improve my situation. It was really bad, imagine going 2 a new skool in a new country, speaking a different language, not knowing many ppl (family or friends), I litterally had 2 start from stracth.
The relationships that I had with ppl were minimal, even WITH MY MOM AND DAD. I was basically fighting a one man army fight, and make everything more confusing I was hitting puberty (like when I was 12) and I didnt kno what puberty was (no TV, no computer or internet, my perants didnt giv me the "talk", and my friends.... what friends?! I had none). New things were happening 2 my body and I didnt even kno WTF was going on.
Since me and my family were new immigrants, we had little money, lived in a basement where there is little privacy, I had the sh!ttest clothes, I smelled awful (now how the fvck could I make friends like dat). I know that moving 2 a new country and starting from the scratch was not easy, but being the fragile person that I was back then I believed that the way ppl treated me bad was that because I was bad,stupid,ugly person ( not cuz I'm a new country and things r different).
I was pretty much a lost soul... I had lost faith and hope in my life ( Ironically so early on, when I had my whole life ahead of me). I had one friend in grade 6 and probably becuase he felt sorry 4 me and was kinda the same situation like I was, but I didn't that much better though. 2 make things worse my family moved 2 another place not much better the one b4 but it meant I had 2 loose the only friend I had and attend a new skool.
Going 2 a new skool is hard on anyone, but 4 me it was frinkin impossible. I was very shy guy and didnt talk 2 anyone ( I was AFRAID that I will make myself look like an a$$, and the pain of rejection would 2 much 4 me 2 handle. I was grade 7 and had trouble getting friends, while some of my peers are already dating girls ( It felt awful ), I figure that I would never get a girl in my ENTIRE LIFE, cuz I seemed like an alien 2 them.
Things just got worse when I went 2 high skool. Once again my family moved and it was a skool out of my area...
I became a total loner....
Lunch time was the worst cuz I was the only one on the table in the edge of the caf, and everyday I couldn't wait go home away from the shame. I rarely went outside AFRIADE that I will screw up. I became Anti social, I didnt take ant RISKS cuz I was sooo AFRAID of rejection..
One day a crazy thought hit me......
It was crazy bak then cuz I was such a shy guy. For once I forgot about my fears and acted out on my carzy thought...
At lunch time I went up 2 a bunch of guys and asked them..
"Mind if I sit here?"
they accepted me, and my RISK payed off!!!
from that day on I tried things that I never tried b4, and soon I actually had some FRIENDS (the greatest feeling). Although they did see me as a little wierd but I was able 2 keep IMPROVING myself...
I have come a long way....
I have a long way to go....
but I will always keeping PUSHING, take RISKS, make MISTAKES, FALL DOWN but get BACK UP...
Now dat I found the way 2 be a TRUE DJ ( the best man I could possibly be and become)
I have CAME a long way and I WILL go a long way!!
but now I realise sumthin...