Originally posted by THe O Magic
Do you really want to understand all people?
At the present time I can't see how that would work since everyone is operating from their own frame.
And everyone thinks that what he or she is doing is the right thing.
But understanding the frame thing was a real eye opener
I now understand where and why things went wrong with my ex-gf.
I hope you realize you answered your own question there. I'll reiterate though, since I've never tried to answer that question before.
I REALLY DO want to understand everybody. Why? I was born nice, well to be nice to myself, everybody has been so nice to me, so I try and do what I can. 22 years I convinced myself to be nice, than it hit me, 10 days ago, that I was wrong.
My first thread I started, the one where I said "this is new o_0 I am scared" that was my frist thread, I tried hard not to lie in the thread, while still trying to get the best answer possible, it was Shiz Nizzle, who answered the most out of this world response. He was right, Shezzler called me stupid for it, I defended myself from the call, and against the "troll" call, until he understood. Since than people have been freaked out why I am afraid to talk to her. I haven't told her why I was scared, she knows what happened anyways, and I never lied to her, I just avoided her. Big thing, I know now, I won't do it again, I ****ed up, and LIED a lot that night. I think I was right in protecting my family from the truth, I don't want them to look back at me and see me as being a bad person ever. They see it all the time though, damage control I think it's called. Well since than, she's told me she wants me, she's grabbed my balls in front of all my friends, she's grabbed me by the belt and tried to make me dance with her. I am scared of her, I don't understand why I get drunk, I don't understand why girls get drunk, I don't understand whyshe wants to sleep with me now that I think I disrespected her that bad. I know she can't be pregnant, she's had to have self aborted the child with alcohol by now, I saw how drunk she's been, I've been out every night, and she gets drunk before I leave when she shows up.
Those are some of the reasons, some of the shades of thinking, I want to wrap my head around. Anything I say after this is going to be gibberish, except for the next paragraph.
You seem cool too, nice questions. The pook question was a big surprise, I hope you understand, and respect that I hate seeing people hide. I would respect if you talked about it in the open now. Thanks for liking me, I don't want to get complacent, so I'm going to say now, I don't deserve it yet, at least I don't think so. I see myself as pathetic, many many people do, seems like they have all my life, and they think I am too weak to want to know.
G'night, that is where the gibberish starts. I can't go to sleep until I get the call from my supervisor that I can miss work today for staying awake all night. I'm not going to be useful to them today.