I am a hating and cynical bastard *Vent+ Rant*

[michaelhctam]

I am 17 years old, give me a fvcking break.

I just have this really negative view of the world and I always question the motives of people, if somebody gives me a hard time I don't mind beacuse I just assume its just him being a d!ckhead and it enforces my beliefs that all human beings are just self-serving self-righteous ****s. But if somebody acts nice to me I step back a moment and think to myself, "What the fvck does this guy want from me? Why is he so nice? probibly wants to use me and/or attain something from me to make him have personal gain". I understand that this is a horrific attitude to have, and I dont know where this origionates from!

I had a tough time throughout my school years, never had very many 'friends'- I was bullied in primary school and that developed my first instinctive skepticism of people's true actions, junior high was just a grope fest of attention wh0res and j!zz jockeys, high school was pretty much the same untill I went to boarding school where EVERYBODY was that 'self-serving, d!ckhead, ****'. I was never cynical before recently- I was always that happy and smiling type of kid that would make fvcking paper airplanes and run around on the beach with my pink kite like some pathetic 60's disney happy-go-fvcking-lucky family film.

Yeahhhhhh sure I extended my arm once in a while and genuinly tried to connect and relate to people and closed my eyes in vain hopes of feeling the friendly handshake awaiting me at the other end, but no- its just another floopy scabby beggar's d!ck twitching and pulsating for me to stroke it and give it some attention. Each social occasion throughout my school years I ended up fvcking dissapointed, all my 'friends' cram the same song's down my throat...."Yeah mate, we will meet up later- keep in touch!".....thats bull. Not to mention the all so present...."Hey its ok man! Go with the flow, its all cool! we are going to have a fun time!"........we end up in the middle of this sh!t town walking around aimlessly like losers with no direction in life feeling all awkward because nobody has the cranial capacity to start a decent conversation......me having to watch their pepperoni pizza faces smoke another fvcking cancer stick in my face.....fvck you.

My dad's pvssy whipped and my mothers a hyena when she laughs and a fvcking pig when she's angry....SQUEAAALLL SQUEAAALLLL......my dad pretty much married her at the time because she was sexy, but now all that has turned into old, fat and ugly. So I never had a role model in life and thus enforcing my (to date) true beliefs that people and society is inadequate.

How did I get such a cynical attitute? I dont know! All the people I met so far in my life (at my age) are going through this cringing transition from fad to fad, one day they are Mr. Jock and the next day they are Mr. my chemical fvcking romance. WHY!!!!! WHY MUST I BE SO DIFFERENT!!!

It seems like fate has made me encounter all the wackey and fvckin weird people in life, I always either get the self-righteous tw@t with a superiority complex, or I get the emotionally unstable werid kid in the corner with all the problems in life. WHERE ARE ALL THE NORMAL PEOPLE! With most of the d!cks I encounter in school and in life I ACT nice for no reason whatsoever (parent's indoctrination at its finest) but in real life I am rubbing rabid penguin sh!t in their eye...why? WHY?! And no one actually fvckin helps me, not even my parents....they identify the problem but dont do anything....FVCK!

I hope people I meet after I leave High school will be much better......

Fvck!!!!!

 

[Holland]

Now that you got that stuff out of ya (and I had a good laugh, I think you have potential for being a overly dramatic comedian using that stuff )
No offense, I feel where you're coming from. I agree that most people drift aimlessly trough their life. That's why you should put full responisibity in your own hands. You don't need those 'pizza pepperoni face-dudes' for you to approach someone. Who cares if you crash and burn 5 times in a row and they're the ones laughing, you don't care about 'em anyway. Besides, you'll be better of choosen a direction and persueing something. You'll eventually get better and succeed and you're having the last laugh (which is a laugh of succes and not of someone elses temporary failure)
Now that you've gotten clear on what you don't want, start choosing what you are committed to becoming.
I did so 2 years ago when I was about to get out of highschool.

I went FROM an introverted, slightly hopeless, skinny dude with practicly no experience with women and only few friends TO confident, outgoing, young MAN with a beautiful GF of 8 months, consistent sex and enjoying life almost every single day.
I'm not saying this to brag, but I felt just as low as you did or perhaps even lower at times.

Who knows what you can do and how far you can get? You might never know if you don't decide to find out.
Take a chance

 

[Gaucho]

Welcome to sosuave, where most of the people here have forgot the meaning of Alegria, joy! The reason to live is to be happy! Find what makes you happy, all the hating is hurting noone but yourself. Cause noone else really gives a fukc if you are angry but you!

 

[Interceptor]

! Find what makes you happy, all the hating is hurting noone but yourself. Cause noone else really gives a fukc if you are angry but you!

Excellent advice.

Kid, you're just experiencing typical teenage drama queen stuff.
Get over it.

work on yourslef and make all that hatred your Go Juice to make your life the absolute best it can be.

With that attitude, you're only going to see more of the same.
It doesn't matter where you go and whom you meet.
Youcan't out run yourself.

 

[KneghtRyder]

sorry i dont give breaks on age ....j/k

 

[BluEyes]

I suppose somebody has to be at the bottom of the food chain...

Good luck down there bro.

And while you're at it, spare the imagery-laden writing style that's all too stereotypical of cynics.

its not a cigarette to you? noooo its a "cancer stick"....

its not mental capacity to you? noooo its "cranial capacity"

lol anybody can talk like they're intelligent buddy, but the product of your rant brands a nice large L on your forehead.

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I suppose I should say something worthwhile... Stop acting like you're smarter than everyone man. Cynics in general tend to have rather large opinions of themselves to compensate for their lack of faith in others.

 

[penkitten]

Excellent advice.

Kid, you're just experiencing typical teenage drama queen stuff.
Get over it.

work on yourslef and make all that hatred your Go Juice to make your life the absolute best it can be.

With that attitude, you're only going to see more of the same.
It doesn't matter where you go and whom you meet.
Youcan't out run yourself.

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