I don't know where this might belong so I think I'll post it here.
I'm a senior in highschool. I came here many months ago to try and learn how to attract women, I'd never had any success at all and wanted things to change, and I succeeded in some parts.
I changed my mindset, finally got a few dates, and got into a serious relationship with a girl. Thats all I really wanted coming to the site, to be able to attract a woman for a LTR.
Well I fell for the girl, and slipped into AFCdom while not protecting my heart like I should have. I let myself fall for her completely and utterly. Despite using condoms every time the girl got pregnant. (For reasons I won't state I know she was faithful and that it was mine, a cut in the condom or slip when pulling out with it is apparently responsible for this) She wouldn't get an abortion. We started fighting all the time over everything.
Eventually some "guy friend" of hers asked her to break up with me and start going out with her. She told him no and I didn't want her to hang around this guy anymore. I was showing jealousy and being AFC and afraid of another man taking over like nobodies business. Another big fight ensued and she ended it saying we should take some time apart, then she started adding maybe we should see other people for awhile and I was telling her no but she kept insisting on it.
The next day she told me she wouldn't see other people because I was getting all AFC about it and almost crying to her not to. 2 days later she admits she's already started seeing that same guy who's fight caused the break. She told me she didn't feel anything for me anymore and she didn't want to try and make things work anymore. I begged and pleaded like the most pathetic shell of a man you've ever seen, and it only made things worse, there was no coming back from it, it was over for good.
Her family is well off and she doesn't need my help so thankfully I won't be stuck with child support, but because of my stupidity I've suffered the worst and most heartbreaking experience I think I'll ever have. I'll probably end up never seeing my child because in the line of work I want to go into, I'll be moving around a lot and since we won't be together I'll probably end up living far away. In fact, it might not even be mine. I've been so damn blind, she could have been cheating on me the whole time, the only reason I dont feel sure of it is she isn't wanting child support so there is no real reason to make me a patsy after its over.
If I had protected my heart I wouldn't have set my mind on making things work out between us and maybe this wouldn't have been such a blow to me. M Maybe if I hadn't turned into such an AFC when the time came I would have been able to convince her to get an abortion instead of letting her set her mind on going through with the pregnancy. Maybe she would have stayed attracted to me and not wanted to end things. For an 18 year old kid I sure feel like an old man who's lived through too much right now.
I know some people on here will probably just tell me I'm the stupidest little idiot they have ever seen and that I'm pathetic or something, but I thought maybe someone on here would find my story a bit interesting and maybe learn something from it, I know I have.
I'm a senior in highschool. I came here many months ago to try and learn how to attract women, I'd never had any success at all and wanted things to change, and I succeeded in some parts.
I changed my mindset, finally got a few dates, and got into a serious relationship with a girl. Thats all I really wanted coming to the site, to be able to attract a woman for a LTR.
Well I fell for the girl, and slipped into AFCdom while not protecting my heart like I should have. I let myself fall for her completely and utterly. Despite using condoms every time the girl got pregnant. (For reasons I won't state I know she was faithful and that it was mine, a cut in the condom or slip when pulling out with it is apparently responsible for this) She wouldn't get an abortion. We started fighting all the time over everything.
Eventually some "guy friend" of hers asked her to break up with me and start going out with her. She told him no and I didn't want her to hang around this guy anymore. I was showing jealousy and being AFC and afraid of another man taking over like nobodies business. Another big fight ensued and she ended it saying we should take some time apart, then she started adding maybe we should see other people for awhile and I was telling her no but she kept insisting on it.
The next day she told me she wouldn't see other people because I was getting all AFC about it and almost crying to her not to. 2 days later she admits she's already started seeing that same guy who's fight caused the break. She told me she didn't feel anything for me anymore and she didn't want to try and make things work anymore. I begged and pleaded like the most pathetic shell of a man you've ever seen, and it only made things worse, there was no coming back from it, it was over for good.
Her family is well off and she doesn't need my help so thankfully I won't be stuck with child support, but because of my stupidity I've suffered the worst and most heartbreaking experience I think I'll ever have. I'll probably end up never seeing my child because in the line of work I want to go into, I'll be moving around a lot and since we won't be together I'll probably end up living far away. In fact, it might not even be mine. I've been so damn blind, she could have been cheating on me the whole time, the only reason I dont feel sure of it is she isn't wanting child support so there is no real reason to make me a patsy after its over.
If I had protected my heart I wouldn't have set my mind on making things work out between us and maybe this wouldn't have been such a blow to me. M Maybe if I hadn't turned into such an AFC when the time came I would have been able to convince her to get an abortion instead of letting her set her mind on going through with the pregnancy. Maybe she would have stayed attracted to me and not wanted to end things. For an 18 year old kid I sure feel like an old man who's lived through too much right now.
I know some people on here will probably just tell me I'm the stupidest little idiot they have ever seen and that I'm pathetic or something, but I thought maybe someone on here would find my story a bit interesting and maybe learn something from it, I know I have.
