Nickface said:
I get it man, believe me. I grew up and I cared less. You still sound a bit young. School is important, so try as hard as you can to focus on this test. Talk about this situation to your friends/family. It's better to do it in person then it is online.
How is your relationship with her again? I forgot if you mentioned if it's just a school relationship? Ask her to study with you. It would make you feel better winning the little battles day to day. Some days you will feel like **** but if you can get back on good terms again as friends then life would be easier...
Well before all this drama happened, it was pretty good. I had one lunch and one dinner with her when I only saw her as a friend. We both provided each other with support with school and stuff, but then we both started developing feelings for each other after talking and spending time together for a few weeks, her sooner then me, but unfortunately for me she had nearly a decades worth of dating experience, whereas I had none so I didn't know how the games work and how to escalate. I passed some of her **** tests but I also think I later failed some as well. You can read one of my earlier threads about her flaking on a date, and what happened. She drunk texted me once saying she wanted to make out with me before the holidays, and then later told me that again over the phone during the holidays, but 5 minutes before that, told me she doesn't date guys in the same program as her after I asked her out, this was right before throwing a huge fit and saying she hates me and stuff about me not replying back to her text and not picking up her phone calls that day. She called and texted me afterwards, but I was busy doing something else, so who knows what could have happened.
Anyways I started to notice my behaviour getting affected by her words and actions, and my emotions started to get out of control. I could be happy and feel like cloud nine one moment, to being completely pissed off the next, or really depressed and sad. It was like a drug addiction, and I didn't even see it coming. I initially had my eyes set on another girl in my class, that was much more attractive then her so I didn't really pay much attention to her for 2-3 months but for whatever reason, I developed oneitis for this girl. Anyways as you already know, once you develop oneitis you've pretty much already lost the battle. She seems to be more distance now and doesn't really text me anymore, it also doesn't help that I started to give her really short replies back either and don't reply back nor pick up her calls right away, as in the past, as I'm trying to move on. Anyways I don't think its salvageable anymore nor can things return to the way they were. She probably thinks I'm being weird and cold towards her, while I'm thinking she's trying to distance herself from me. Thank god, I don't have to see her for 3 weeks after this week when I do my placement. I think I'm going through the withdrawal symptoms of oneitis right now.
